I’m Breaking Up With My Fitbit

I’m breaking up with my Fitbit.

我要和我的 Fitbit 分手。

I’ve worn this little device on my wrist while it silently kept an uninterrupted record of my pulse and sleep patterns for nearly 18 years.

我把这个小设备戴在手腕上，近 18 年来它一直默默地不间断地记录我的脉搏和睡眠模式。

Intertwined with my heart rate data are moments of anxiety, anticipation, pure joy, and intense heartbreak.

与我的心率数据交织在一起的是焦虑、期待、纯粹的快乐和强烈的心碎的时刻。

This past spring, Google completed the final step of its acquisition of Fitbit by rebranding the Fitbit app as Google Health.

今年春天，谷歌完成了收购 Fitbit 的最后一步，将 Fitbit 应用程序重新命名为 Google Health。

I looked at the empty space on my phone’s home screen where the blue and white logo once resided and made the impulsive decision to stop feeding my health information into monstrous machine learning models.

我看着手机主屏幕上曾经驻留蓝色和白色徽标的空白区域，并冲动地决定停止将我的健康信息输入到可怕的机器学习模型中。

Because that data doesn’t tell the whole story.

因为这些数据并不能说明全部情况。

From the moment I first heard about wearable fitness trackers, I was hooked—what a fantastic use of technology to incentivize a healthy lifestyle.

从我第一次听说可穿戴健身追踪器的那一刻起，我就被迷住了——这是利用技术来激励健康生活方式的绝佳方式。

I began using a Fitbit in 2009, which made me an early adopter.

我于 2009 年开始使用 Fitbit，这使我成为了早期采用者。

Wearing a Fitbit was a silent signal, and I felt like a true pioneer when I met another tracker aficionado.

佩戴 Fitbit 是一种无声的信号，当我遇到另一位追踪器爱好者时，我感觉自己是一个真正的先驱。

Nike’s FuelBand and Garmin’s Forerunner followed in Fitbit’s footsteps; it would take Apple until 2015 to launch the Apple Watch.

Nike 的 FuelBand 和 Garmin 的 Forerunner 紧随 Fitbit 的脚步；苹果直到 2015 年才推出 Apple Watch。

My Fitbit was the perfect complement to the active lifestyle Los Angeles affords its pre-dawn risers.

我的 Fitbit 是洛杉矶黎明前起床的积极生活方式的完美补充。

It encouraged me to set a 4:30 a.m.

它鼓励我把时间定在凌晨 4:30。

vibration alarm linked to my sleep cycle so that I could hike Lachman Lane or Bienveneda Avenue, spotting coyotes in the misty hours before I had to surrender to the demands of energetic toddlers.

振动闹钟与我的睡眠周期相关联，这样我就可以在拉赫曼巷或比恩维达大道上徒步旅行，在雾蒙蒙的几个小时里发现土狼，然后我才不得不屈服于精力充沛的幼儿的要求。

The 10,000 steps goal Fitbit set was tough to meet at first, but within a few months I easily blew past that benchmark.

Fitbit 设定的 10,000 步目标一开始很难实现，但几个月后我就轻松超越了这个基准。

My Fitbit was with me as I ran my first 10K race in the Palisades, hiked to Edelweiss restaurant on a cliff overlooking Zermatt in Switzerland, flew down ski slopes in Utah, and paddle boarded with dolphins in Hawaiʻi, all in my mid-30s.

当我在 Palisades 第一次参加 10K 比赛时，在瑞士徒步前往位于悬崖上俯瞰采尔马特的 Edelweiss 餐厅，在犹他州飞下滑雪场，在夏威夷与海豚一起划桨时，我的 Fitbit 一直陪伴着我，所有这一切都在我 30 多岁的时候。

It was there, tracking my pulse and my elation when I broke 100 in golf and won my first game of pickleball.

当我在高尔夫比赛中突破 100 杆并赢得第一场匹克球比赛时，它就在那里，追踪着我的脉搏和兴奋。

Then came the injuries, when bulging discs required surgical interventions and when my ski didn’t detach and took my knee with it for a 360-degree spin.

然后是受伤，突出的椎间盘需要手术干预，而且我的滑雪板没有脱落，带着我的膝盖进行 360 度旋转。

And then came the aging, perimenopause, menopause, and …

然后是衰老、围绝经期、更年期……

why was I perspiring uncontrollably?

为什么我会不受控制地出汗？

My Fitbit data helped my doctors and physical therapists set recovery timelines, encouraging me to take up new sports and strengthen muscles I never knew I had.

我的 Fitbit 数据帮助我的医生和物理治疗师设定了恢复时间表，鼓励我从事新的运动并增强我从未意识到的肌肉。

AI models devouring the treasure trove of almost two decades of my pulse know that I have tamed my resting heart rate to hover in the low 50s, and that I have high cardio tolerance through my regimen of high-intensity interval training (HIIT) workouts.

AI 模型吞噬了我近二十年的脉搏宝库，知道我已将静息心率控制在 50 左右，并且通过高强度间歇训练 (HIIT) 锻炼方案，我具有较高的心肺耐受力。

But they have no way of identifying the shock of finding out a routine pregnancy was a second set of twins; the sadness of saying goodbye to my first cat, who inspired the name of my last child; and the relief of learning that our family’s home of 14 years didn’t burn down in one of California’s most destructive wildfires.

但他们无法确定当发现常规怀孕生下第二对双胞胎时所感到的震惊；告别我的第一只猫的悲伤，它启发了我最后一个孩子的名字；当得知我们家住了 14 年的房子没有在加州最具破坏性的一场野火中被烧毁时，我感到如释重负。

The link between sleep patterns and mental sharpness had never occurred to me until I saw my daily readiness score, which averaged 75.

直到我看到自己的每日准备度得分（平均为 75）之前，我从未意识到睡眠模式与思维敏锐度之间的联系。

(Anything above a 65 indicates that you are well rested enough to embark on a physically and mentally challenging day.) That, too, is an uninterrupted nearly two-decade data set Google now owns.

（任何高于 65 的值都表明您休息得足够好，可以开始迎接身心挑战的一天。）这也是 Google 现在拥有的近两年不间断的数据集。

But what’s not reflected there?

但那里没有反映出来什么呢？

The overnight vigil spent taming a sick child’s raging fever.

彻夜的守夜让一个生病的孩子控制住了高烧。

The worry that abates only when you hear the garage door close as your teen returns way past curfew.

只有当你的孩子过了宵禁回来，听到车库门关上的声音时，这种担忧才会减轻。

The late-night conversations about grades and college applications.

关于成绩和大学申请的深夜谈话。

The sleepless night spent comforting your son through his first breakup.

度过了一个不眠之夜，安慰你儿子经历第一次分手。

And the jetlag after a red-eye flight, when you’re sitting in a stadium watching that strapping young man step forward to receive his diploma.

还有红眼航班后的时差，当你坐在体育场里看着那个魁梧的年轻人走上前来领取毕业证书时。

Have I ever slept through the night?

我曾经睡过整夜吗？

My Fitbit always had a ready answer for that!

我的 Fitbit 总是有一个现成的答案！

The app would track the duration of my light sleep, REM, and deep sleep cycles.

该应用程序将跟踪我的浅度睡眠、快速眼动睡眠和深度睡眠周期的持续时间。

On my less chipper mornings, it would coldly let me know the number of times I woke up from my slumber, with red bars appearing like slashes across the deep blue oceans of restful sleep.

在我不那么精神抖擞的早晨，它会冷冷地告诉我我从睡眠中醒来的次数，红色的条形像划痕一样划过宁静睡眠的深蓝色海洋。

But had I woken up for that most ghastly of parental responsibilities—potty training—or because it was time to break up a teen party in the basement and send everyone packing?

但我醒来是因为最可怕的父母责任——如厕训练——还是因为该结束地下室的青少年聚会并让每个人都收拾行李了？

Had I woken up because my sister called in a moment of despair, needing a sibling to hear her cry?

我醒来是不是因为姐姐在绝望的时刻打来电话，需要一个兄弟姐妹来听她哭泣？

Or because my son happened to be in St. Peter’s Square when the world learned that the Pope had died?

或者是因为当全世界得知教皇去世的消息时，我的儿子恰好在圣彼得广场？

I moved into middle age, my kids grew up, and Fitbit entered a new era—becoming a prime acquisition target once the AI race began.

我步入中年，我的孩子长大了，Fitbit 进入了一个新时代——人工智能竞赛开始后，Fitbit 就成为主要收购目标。

Loyal users like me have been uploading our most intimate personal information, ranging from menstrual cycles and stress levels to late-night heart rate increases (often correlated to sexual activity).

像我这样的忠实用户一直在上传我们最私密的个人信息，从月经周期和压力水平到深夜心率增加（通常与性活动相关）。

Today, this motherlode of health data is being used to train machine and deep learning models that are shifting medical care from a diagnostic and prescriptive approach to a preventative one.

如今，这一健康数据母矿被用来训练机器和深度学习模型，这些模型正在将医疗保健从诊断和处方方法转变为预防方法。

And my Fitbit, which allowed me to take control of my own health, was now asking me to wire myself even more deeply into the workings of an impossibly huge and powerful company.

我的 Fitbit 让我能够掌控自己的健康，现在却要求我更深入地融入一家无比庞大和强大的公司的运作中。

What will Google get from my health record?

Google 将从我的健康记录中获取什么信息？

I don’t know, because I myself haven’t downloaded it.

我不知道，因为我自己没有下载过。

I am no longer in an anthropomorphic relationship with a tiny spy.

我不再与一个小间谍保持拟人化的关系。

I no longer have a device to tell me that I need to move or rest.

我不再有设备告诉我需要移动或休息。

I no longer rely on a step count to let me know how active I’ve been.

我不再依靠步数来了解自己的活跃程度。

I don’t need to feel the vibration on my wrist to tell me that my pulse is racing.

我不需要感觉到手腕上的振动就能告诉我我的脉搏在加速。

I’m letting go of it all and from now on, I’m going to listen intently to what I should have been listening to all along—my own body.

我要放下这一切，从现在开始，我要专心聆听我应该一直聆听的声音——我自己的身体。

Moira Shourie was born in Lajpat Nagar and attended St. Stephen’s College in Delhi.

莫伊拉·舒里 (Moira Shourie) 出生于拉杰帕特纳加尔 (Lajpat Nagar)，就读于德里的圣斯蒂芬学院 (St. Stephen's College)。

She is executive director of Zócalo Public Square.

她是索卡洛公共广场的执行董事。

Primary editor: Sarah Rothbard | Secondary editor: Eryn Brown

主要编辑：莎拉·罗斯巴德 |二级编辑：Eryn Brown

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