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Prologue Ira Glass I'm in the Office of Dr. LJ Drakovic, who examines dead bodies for the police in Pontiac, Michigan.
序言 Ira Glass 我在 LJ Drakovic 博士的办公室，他在密歇根州庞蒂亚克为警方检查尸体。
And he's running through this carousel of slides, all of them murder victims.
他正在浏览幻灯片，所有幻灯片都是谋杀案的受害者。
There are closeups of body parts.
有身体部位的特写。
To say, as you just flip through these things, this is the grisliest slide show I've ever seen.
可以说，当你翻阅这些东西时，这是我见过的最可怕的幻灯片。
It's just like every slide is some...
就像每张幻灯片都是一些......
--is another story, yes.
——是的，这是另一个故事了。
Every crime scene is a story of its own, is a novel.
每个犯罪现场都是一个自己的故事，都是一部小说。
And it opens up in every direction.
它向各个方向开放。
To illustrate, he tells me this story.
为了说明这一点，他给我讲了这个故事。
When he worked for the Wayne County coroner's office back in Detroit, there was a young woman.
当他在底特律韦恩县验尸官办公室工作时，那里有一位年轻女子。
This story, by the way, might not be suitable for younger children.
顺便说一句，这个故事可能不适合年幼的孩子。
Anyway, there's this young woman who apparently killed herself by taking her boyfriend's gun, putting it in her mouth and firing.
无论如何，有一个年轻女子显然是通过拿起男友的枪，将其放入嘴里并开枪自杀的。
The police, the other medical examiners, everybody thought it was a suicide.
警察和其他法医都认为这是自杀。
But something about the case bothered Dr. Drakovic.
但这个案子的一些事情让德拉科维奇博士感到困扰。
The woman didn't have a history of depression.
该女子没有抑郁症病史。
There was no note.
没有任何注释。
My colleagues teased me as being paranoid and seeing things where they were not.
我的同事们嘲笑我偏执，总是看到不该看到的东西。
I did the examination.
我做了检查。
I did the examination of the oral cavity.
我做了口腔检查。
And in this particular case, the tongue showed two holes.
在这个特殊的例子中，舌头上有两个洞。
This is very strange, Dr. Drakovic explained, because usually-- again, this gets a little explicit-- usually, when people shoot themselves in the mouth, they kind of point the gun upward, toward the brain.
德拉科维奇博士解释说，这很奇怪，因为通常——再说一次，这有点明确——通常，当人们向自己的嘴里开枪时，他们会把枪指向上方，指向大脑。
Their tongue does not get injured at all.
他们的舌头根本没有受伤。
But here, the tongue must have been all bunched up, pushing hard against the muzzle of the gun.
但在这里，舌头肯定已经全部卷起来，用力顶着枪口。
Now, who in this world, trying to end life, will inflict additional pain and discomfort by shoving the muzzle of the gun against the tongue?
现在，这个世界上有谁会在试图结束生命时将枪口抵在舌头上，从而造成额外的痛苦和不适呢？
Unless it's another person.
除非是另一个人。
In my assessment of this, this was a homicide.
根据我的评估，这是一起凶杀案。
So I told the detectives that that was my finding.
所以我告诉侦探这是我的发现。
They went back to interview the boyfriend.
他们回去采访男朋友。
And they said, we know that you shot her.
他们说，我们知道你开枪打死了她。
He said, no, I didn't.
他说，不，我没有。
They said, yes, we know.
他们说，是的，我们知道。
The doctor told us.
医生告诉我们。
He said, what doctor?
他说，什么医生？
They says, the doctor that did the autopsy.
他们说，是进行尸检的医生。
He said, what autopsy?
他说，什么尸检？
I called the coroner's office two weeks ago, and they told me they never did autopsies on suicides.
两周前我给验尸官办公室打电话，他们告诉我他们从未对自杀者进行过尸检。
Of course, why call the coroner's office to ask that question if you're not planning on killing anybody?
当然，如果你不打算杀人，为什么要打电话给验尸官办公室问这个问题呢？
It did not take very long for the police to get a confession out of this guy.
没过多久，警方就从这名男子那里得到了供述。
As Dr. Drakovic says, every crime scene is a novel.
正如德拉科维奇博士所说，每个犯罪现场都是一部小说。
Today in our radio program, crime scenes and the stories behind them.
今天在我们的广播节目中，介绍犯罪现场及其背后的故事。
For WBEZ Chicago and Public Radio International, it's This American Life.
对于 WBEZ 芝加哥和国际公共广播电台来说，这就是《美国生活》。
I'm Ira Glass.
我是艾拉·格拉斯。
Act One of our show today, How Do We Know?
我们今天的节目第一幕，我们怎么知道？
A forensic criminologist explains exactly what it is that we can learn from evidence at a crime scene.
法医犯罪学家准确地解释了我们可以从犯罪现场的证据中了解到什么。
Act Two, Grime Scene.
第二幕，污垢场景。
Nancy Updike reports on how watching the movie Pulp Fiction led one man to a life coming in after the police and the investigators are done.
南希·厄普代克报道了一名男子在警察和调查人员结束调查后，观看电影《低俗小说》后如何重新开始生活。
Act Three-- in the second half of our show, I have to say, everything gets a little less grisly.
第三幕——在我们节目的后半部分，我不得不说，一切都变得不那么可怕了。
Act Three, A Criminal Returns to the Scene of the Crime, a story of a thief who returns to the neighborhood where he robbed and conned people, to coach little league.
第三幕，一个罪犯回到犯罪现场，讲述了一个小偷回到他抢劫和诈骗的社区，担任少年棒球联盟教练的故事。
Act Four, What Police Cannot Do.
第四幕，警察不能做什么。
We have this completely beautiful, haunting story by Aimee Bender about a little boy who can find any lost object, any stolen object, from any crime scene.
我们有艾米·本德（Aimee Bender）写的这个非常美丽、令人难忘的故事，讲述了一个小男孩可以从任何犯罪现场找到任何丢失的物品、任何被盗的物品。
Stay with us.
留在我们身边。
Act One, How Do We Know?
第一幕，我们怎么知道？
Well, we thought we would start this hour with a quick primer on some of the kinds of evidence that investigators find at crime scenes and what it tells them.
好吧，我们想在这一个小时开始时先快速了解一下调查人员在犯罪现场发现的一些证据以及这些证据告诉他们的信息。
Enrico Togneri is a former forensic criminologist in Nevada.
恩里科·托格内里 (Enrico Togneri) 是内华达州的前法医犯罪学家。
He says there's a lot of information contained in something as simple as the shape of a blood stain.
他说，像血迹的形状这样简单的东西就包含了很多信息。
He talks about high-velocity blood stains and low-velocity blood stains.
他谈到了高速血迹和低速血迹。
Well, the blood spatter, when you have a low velocity, something like an arterial cut, where somebody is cut in the artery and it's actually spurting out of the body, you get fairly large stains because you have quite a bit of blood coming off at the fairly low velocity.
好吧，血液飞溅，当你的速度较低时，就像动脉割伤一样，有人在动脉中被割伤，它实际上从身体中喷出，你会得到相当大的污渍，因为你有相当多的血液以相当低的速度脱落。
Higher velocity, like somebody being hit with a baseball bat, you're going to get a teardrop shape.
更高的速度，就像有人被棒球棒击中一样，你会得到泪滴形状。
The lower the angle, the more the teardrop.
角度越低，泪滴越多。
If it's straight on, it's going to be a nice round droplet.
如果它是笔直的，它将是一个漂亮的圆形水滴。
And then if you have high velocity, which is a gunshot, you almost get a mist because of the impact of the gunshot causing an explosion of the blood.
然后，如果你有很高的速度，也就是枪声，你几乎会因为枪声的冲击力导致血液爆炸而产生雾气。
So you get a very fine mist.
所以你会得到非常细的雾。
And I understand that from the shape of the droplets, you can tell where the person was standing?
据我了解，从水滴的形状，你可以看出这个人站在哪里？
Yeah, it's basic trigonometry.
是的，这是基本的三角学。
What you do is you take the width of the bloodstain and the length of the bloodstain, and you find the angle.
你要做的就是计算血迹的宽度和血迹的长度，然后找到角度。
And from the angle, you can actually string it.
而且从角度来看，其实是可以串起来的。
You can actually run a string back away from the wall of the angle you've determined it to have impacted at.
实际上，您可以将一根绳子从墙壁上拉回您确定的撞击角度。
And if you do this from several little droplets, you eventually come to a point where they bunch up.
如果你用几个小水滴来做到这一点，你最终会到达它们聚集在一起的地步。
And that would be where the blood impact actually originated.
这就是血液影响真正起源的地方。
There was a case where an individual had said that he got into a fight with his roommate, and the fight occurred as they were standing up.
曾经有一个案例，一个人说他和室友打架了，而且打架是在他们站着的时候发生的。
And he hit the guy, and the guy finally dropped dead.
然后他打了那家伙，那家伙终于倒地身亡了。
But in reality, when we constructed the blood spatter by stringing it, we could show that all came from a fairly low place on the floor, from a few inches up from the floor.
但实际上，当我们用绳子串起血迹时，我们可以证明所有血迹都来自地板上相当低的地方，距离地板几英寸。
And you could show that most of the impacts happened when the individual was already down, so therefore taking away the self-defense issue.
你可以证明大多数影响是在个人已经情绪低落时发生的，因此消除了自卫问题。
In other words, he was kicking him while he was literally on the ground.
换句话说，他是在他倒在地上的时候踢他的。
That's correct.
这是正确的。
Ira Glass Could I just get you to list briefly all the things that you can learn from all the types of evidence that are there on a scene?
艾拉·格拉斯（Ira Glass）我能否让您简要列出您可以从现场所有类型的证据中了解到的所有内容？
Yeah, there's certain routine things that you would look for.
是的，您会寻找一些常规的东西。
And let's say you get into a scene where there's still some food on the table.
假设你进入一个场景，桌子上还有一些食物。
You want to see if it's still warm.
你想看看天气是否还热。
You want to see what the food is.
你想看看食物是什么。
You want to see where the placing of the utensils might be.
您想看看餐具可能放置在哪里。
That might give you a clue whether it's a right-handed or left-handed person that was last there.
这可能会给你一个线索，最后到达的人是右撇子还是左撇子。
You want to actually observe everything that's there as far as, do you see any blood, any hair, any fibers?
你想要实际观察那里的一切，你看到任何血液、任何头发、任何纤维吗？
If the police officer who was there at the crime scene, who got there first, or even one of the witnesses who got there first, if you can get them to describe, was there any unique smells?
如果是在犯罪现场的警察，第一个到达现场的警察，甚至是第一个到达现场的目击者，如果你能让他们描述一下，有没有什么独特的气味？
A smell could be important-- a cigar smoke.
气味可能很重要——雪茄烟。
You never know.
你永远不知道。
If you can remember, can you think of a case where an utterly ordinary object ended up being the piece of evidence that clinched it?
如果你还记得的话，你能想到一个案例，一个极其普通的物体最终成为了定罪的证据吗？
Well, as a matter of fact, there was a burglary with a piece of cheese that had a tooth mark in it.
嗯，事实上，有一起入室盗窃案，里面有一块奶酪，里面有牙痕。
And we were able to match the bite mark to the individual that did the burglary.
我们能够将咬痕与盗窃者进行匹配。
What?
什么？
Enrico Togneri Just a piece of cheese left in the refrigerator.
Enrico Togneri 冰箱里只剩下一块奶酪了。
The individual decided to help himself to some food.
该人决定自助一些食物。
And he took a bite out of a piece of cheese.
他咬了一口奶酪。
And he had a unique enough bite mark that we were able to identify it.
他有一个足够独特的咬痕，我们能够识别它。
When the police are done with a crime scene, who actually cleans up the crime scene?
当警察清理完犯罪现场后，谁来真正清理犯罪现场？
Usually the person who owns the property.
通常是拥有财产的人。
We would mark it as a possible biohazard, and then the individual would hire whoever he wanted to hire to have it cleaned up.
我们会将其标记为可能的生物危害，然后该个人将雇用他想雇用的任何人来清理它。
Other drivers stare at Neal Smither's truck and sometimes take pictures.
其他司机盯着尼尔·史密瑟的卡车，有时还会拍照。
On the sides and back of it, in big red letters, is the company name-- "Crime Scene Cleaners, specializing in homicides, suicides, and accidental deaths."
侧面和背面都用红色大字写着公司名称——“犯罪现场清洁工，专门从事凶杀、自杀和意外死亡工作。”
Well, this is Nancy Updike, and this is act two of our show-- Act Two, Grime Scene.
嗯，我是南希·厄普代克，这是我们节目的第二幕——第二幕，污垢场景。
Nancy went to the San Francisco Bay area to see Neal Smither, who cleans up crime scenes for a living.
南希去旧金山湾区看望以清理犯罪现场为生的尼尔·史密瑟。
A quick warning-- some of this might not be suitable for younger listeners, the squeamish, and wussies.
快速警告——其中一些内容可能不适合年轻的听众、神经质的人和懦弱的人。
After spending two days with Neal Smither, I was this close to signing up to open his Los Angeles franchise.
在与尼尔·史密瑟待了两天后，我差点就签约开设他的洛杉矶特许经营店了。
I'm not joking.
我不是在开玩笑。
Neal spends all day, every day, speeding around in a huge white pickup truck with a cell phone glued to his ear, making sure his company gets to dispose of every drop of blood within driving distance of Orinda, California, and his franchises in Utah, Kansas, Texas, Las Vegas, and Alabama.
尼尔每天一整天都开着一辆巨大的白色皮卡车飞驰，耳朵上贴着手机，确保他的公司能够在加利福尼亚州奥林达以及他在犹他州、堪萨斯州、德克萨斯州、拉斯维加斯和阿拉巴马州的特许经营店的车程范围内处理掉每一滴血液。
Mostly, he doesn't leave the truck.
大多数情况下，他不会离开卡车。
He's had this one for about a year, and it's got 90,000 miles on it.
他拥有这辆车大约一年了，已经行驶了 90,000 英里。
Neal is absolutely blunt about his job, to the point of crassness.
尼尔对他的工作非常直率，甚至到了粗鲁的地步。
I did a job one time.
我曾经做过一次工作。
An old guy dropped dead, decomposed on his kitchen floor.
一个老人倒地身亡，腐烂在厨房地板上。
So when we got there, we had about a 10-by-5-foot square pool of just gore-- no power in the house, so it's dark.
所以当我们到达那里时，我们看到了一个大约 10 x 5 英尺见方的血池——房子里没有电源，所以里面很黑。
It's very quiet.
非常安静。
I'm in there with a respirator because it was just humming.
我带着呼吸器在那里，因为它只是嗡嗡声。
It smelled.
闻起来。
I'm hearing this noise, and I shouldn't be hearing the noise.
我听到了这种噪音，但我不应该听到这种噪音。
There's no power in this house, nothing.
这房子里没有电，什么都没有。
I got a flashlight.
我有一个手电筒。
I'm hearing this funky noise, man.
我听到了这种奇怪的声音，伙计。
What the [BLEEP] is that?
那是什么[BLEEP]？
So I get closer to the gore with my light, and it's just a bowling ball-size thing of maggots, and they're writhing around in the blood and the gore.
于是我用手电筒靠近血迹，发现那只是保龄球大小的蛆虫，它们在血液和血迹中扭动。
And it sounds like when you knead hamburger.
听起来就像你揉汉堡包时的声音。
The maggots were making a sound that you could hear?
蛆虫发出了你能听到的声音吗？
There were so many of them, just so many of them writhing around in this pool of gore that yeah, you could hear them.
他们的数量太多了，太多的人在这片血泊中翻滚，是的，你可以听到他们的声音。
The only time he speaks gently about what he does is on sales calls.
他唯一一次温和地谈论自己所做的事情是在销售电话中。
[PHONE RINGS] Nancy Updike Hi there, this is Neal.
[电话铃声] 南希·厄普代克 大家好，我是尼尔。
May I help you?
我可以帮你吗？
Yes, sir.
是的，先生。
Yes, sir.
是的，先生。
All righty.
好吧。
That's all you need to tell me.
这就是你需要告诉我的一切。
Let me kind of walk you through how we work.
让我向您介绍一下我们的工作方式。
We'd have a crew to you within the hour.
我们会在一小时内派出工作人员来接您。
They'd write you up a free estimate.
他们会给你写一份免费估价。
If you like the estimate, they'd rock and roll on that job right then and there.
如果你喜欢这个估计，他们会当场就做好这项工作。
Our services are all-inclusive.
我们的服务是全方位的。
By the way, have you noticed Neal's southern accent?
顺便问一下，你注意到尼尔的南方口音了吗？
He made it up.
他弥补了。
He borrowed it from his Arkansas grandparents so he could play Steel Magnolia during business negotiations.
他从阿肯色州的祖父母那里借来了它，这样他就可以在商业谈判中玩钢玉兰。
He grew up in Santa Cruz.
他在圣克鲁斯长大。
He has no problem admitting the accent is cultivated.
他毫不犹豫地承认他的口音是经过培养的。
Something about a Southern voice that just kind of opens up a trusting vein, you know?
南方人的声音有点让人信任，你知道吗？
Which is great.
这太棒了。
I mean, that's what I want.
我的意思是，这就是我想要的。
Neal has that tightly-wound energy like Jim Carrey.
尼尔拥有像金·凯瑞一样紧密缠绕的能量。
He's 5'5" with short brown hair under a baseball cap and sunglasses.
他身高 5 英尺 5 英寸，留着棕色短发，戴着棒球帽和太阳镜。
He smokes Kools, does not stop for lunch, and drives way too fast.
他抽烟，不停地吃午饭，而且开车速度太快。
The directness, the crassness, is all deliberate.
那些直接，那些粗鲁，都是故意的。
It's his marketing strategy.
这是他的营销策略。
Gore sells.
戈尔有卖。
Look at the truck.
看看卡车。
We're pretty up front.
我们非常领先。
I hope I don't offend too many people.
希望我不要得罪太多人。
I just try to be honest with them.
我只是试着对他们诚实。
We're dealing with death.
我们正在面对死亡。
How do you sugarcoat death?
你如何粉饰死亡？
You can't.
你不能。
Neal describes for me the outline left on a leather couch by a body that has decomposed into it over the course of 60 days.
尼尔向我描述了尸体在 60 天的时间里分解后在皮革沙发上留下的轮廓。
And I want to stop here and acknowledge that this is gross.
我想在这里停下来并承认这很恶心。
It is.
是的。
It's gross.
太恶心了。
But it's interesting.
但这很有趣。
And to me, it's much more interesting than it is gross.
对我来说，它比恶心更有趣。
I mean, think of it-- a melted person.
我的意思是，想一想——一个融化的人。
Four years ago, Neal had never seen a dead body.
四年前，尼尔从未见过尸体。
He was a laid-off mortgage broker, for God's sake.
老天爷，他是个下岗的抵押贷款经纪人。
Then he saw Pulp Fiction.
然后他看到了《低俗小说》。
Remember that scene where John Travolta blows the guy's head off in the back of the car by mistake, and they have to call in Mr. Wolf to fix everything?
还记得约翰·特拉沃尔塔（John Travolta）错误地在车后座上炸掉了那个家伙的头的场景吗？他们不得不请沃尔夫先生来解决一切问题？
Good.
很好。
I need you two folks to do is take these cleaning products and clean the inside of the car.
我需要你们两个做的就是拿这些清洁产品来清洁汽车内部。
You need to go in the back seat.
你需要到后座去。
Scoop up all those little pieces of brain and skull.
舀起所有那些大脑和头骨的小碎片。
Get it out of there.
把它从那里拿出来。
Neal is possibly the only person in America who saw that scene and thought, wow, I want that job.
尼尔可能是美国唯一一个看到那个场景并想，哇，我想要那份工作的人。
And it turns out it is a real job.
事实证明这是一份真正的工作。
If someone dies in your house, it's up to you to get it clean.
如果有人死在你的房子里，你就得把房子打扫干净。
But doing it yourself, even if you wanted to, raises all sorts of problems.
但即使你愿意，自己动手也会引发各种各样的问题。
Are you complying with the state and federal laws governing the disposal of bodies and bodily fluids?
您是否遵守有关尸体和体液处理的州和联邦法律？
Do you have the proper permits and liability coverage?
您有适当的许可证和责任保险吗？
No, you don't.
不，你不知道。
So you call Neal.
所以你打电话给尼尔。
Here's how his job breaks down.
这就是他的工作崩溃的原因。
Murders are the least of his business.
谋杀是他最不关心的事情。
Most of the cleanups are either decomps-- bodies that have sat for a while and started to decompose--
大多数清理工作要么是分解——尸体已经放置了一段时间并开始分解——
I did a decomp on the very end unit upstairs there.
我对楼上的最后单元进行了分解。
It was bad.
很糟糕。
How long it had been going?
已经过去多久了？
Neal Smither He sat for a good long while.
尼尔·史密瑟 他坐了很长一段时间。
He was all humming-- maggots everywhere.
他浑身嗡嗡作响——到处都是蛆虫。
It was a typical decomp.
这是一次典型的分解。
--or suicides.
——或者自杀。
Suicides and attempted suicides are a surprisingly big part of his job.
令人惊讶的是，自杀和自杀未遂是他工作的重要组成部分。
The rest of Neal's business consists of meth labs and kitty houses.
尼尔的其余业务包括冰毒实验室和猫咪屋。
Kitty houses are those places, usually full of old newspapers and other garbage, that have dozens of cats everywhere, eating and peeing and crapping.
猫屋通常堆满了旧报纸和其他垃圾，到处都有几十只猫，它们在吃东西、撒尿和拉屎。
Meth labs are usually hotel accounts.
冰毒实验室通常是酒店账户。
Neal has a few national chains on contract.
尼尔与几家全国连锁店签订了合同。
Hotel rooms get used all the time to cook methamphetamine, Neal says.
尼尔说，酒店房间一直被用来制作甲基苯丙胺。
He does a lot of business with hotels.
他与酒店有很多生意。
He claims, hyperbolically, that there's no hotel in the country that hasn't had a murder or suicide in one of its rooms.
他夸张地声称，全国没有一家酒店的房间里没有发生过谋杀或自杀事件。
The second day I spend with Neal, he gets called out to a jail to clean up after a woman who tried to kill herself in the bathroom off the prisoners' waiting room.
我和尼尔一起度过的第二天，他被叫去监狱清理一名妇女在囚犯候诊室外的浴室里试图自杀的情况。
I'm not allowed to record anything.
我不被允许记录任何东西。
I have to just watch.
我只能看着。
I hold open the bathroom door with my foot while Neal sets up his stuff.
我用脚打开浴室的门，尼尔收拾东西。
Next to the sink are several thick, dark red drops of blood.
水槽旁边有几滴浓稠的暗红色血滴。
And there are a few streaks of blood on the wall.
而且墙上还有几道血迹。
Inside the sink is more blood.
水槽里有更多的血。
It isn't a lot, maybe 1/3 of a cup overall.
份量并不多，大概是1/3杯的样子。
But clearly, she did some damage.
但显然，她造成了一些伤害。
Then, while Neal is getting into his protective suit, a woman in the waiting room behind us-- a tweaker, Neal confided to me later, meaning a meth user-- reads the back of Neal's shirt out loud.
然后，当尼尔穿上防护服时，我们身后候诊室里的一个女人——尼尔后来向我透露，她是一名扭蛋者，指的是冰毒使用者——大声朗读尼尔衬衫的背面。
"Crime scene cleaners," she says.
“犯罪现场清洁工，”她说。
"You cleaned my mother's house."
“你把我妈妈的房子打扫干净了。”
Neal turns around.
尼尔转身。
"Yeah?
“是吗？
Which one was that?"
那是哪一个？”
Without any emotion, the woman says her mother and cousin were murdered by her mother's boyfriend a while ago.
这名女子面无表情地说道，她的母亲和表弟不久前被她母亲的男朋友谋杀了。
"You guys cleaned the house," she repeats.
“你们把房子打扫干净了，”她重复道。
"Oh, yeah, I remember that one.
“哦，是的，我记得那个。
That was on the news," Neal says.
这件事上了新闻，”尼尔说。
The woman nods and doesn't say anything.
女人点点头，没有再说什么。
So Neal goes back to cleaning.
于是尼尔又回去打扫卫生。
He whips through it in about 10 minutes, like it's spilt milk.
他用了大约 10 分钟就把它翻了一遍，就像倒了牛奶一样。
In fact, it's exactly like cleaning up a mess at home, except with industrial-strength cleansers and equipment.
事实上，这就像清理家里的乱七八糟的东西一样，只不过需要使用工业强度的清洁剂和设备。
He snaps on some rubber gloves, sprays the whole area with a special enzyme to neutralize the blood and kill any bacteria or viruses, scrubs any tough spots with a little brush, and then wipes everything clean with heavy-duty paper towels.
他戴上橡胶手套，在整个区域喷洒一种特殊的酶，以中和血液并杀死任何细菌或病毒，用小刷子擦洗任何坚硬的地方，然后用重型纸巾把所有东西擦干净。
It isn't hard, just depressing.
不难，就是郁闷。
Bottom line, I'm a businessman.
归根结底，我是一名商人。
I'm an entrepreneur.
我是一名企业家。
I want to make money and build my company.
我想赚钱并建立我的公司。
Were you like this as a kid?
你小时候也是这样吗？
Neal Smither Well, I was the kid in school who would buy boxes of Blow Pops and bring them to school and sell them at lunch.
尼尔·史密瑟（Neal Smither）：嗯，我是学校里那个会买盒吹气棒棒糖带到学校并在午餐时出售的孩子。
I was the kid at school who ran a lunch ticket scam.
我是学校里那个进行午餐票诈骗的孩子。
I had a girlfriend in the office, the head office in high school.
我高中时在总部办公室有一个女朋友。
And she'd kick me down with lunch tickets for a discounted price, and then I'd sell them for an increased price.
她会以折扣价向我提供午餐券，然后我再以更高的价格出售它们。
But it was still lower than what the Mexican kids or whoever could buy them from the school.
但它仍然低于墨西哥孩子或任何可以从学校购买的人。
So I figure I beat the school by $0.20 a ticket.
所以我想我比学校赢了 0.20 美元一张票。
[BLEEP], I bankrolled my whole high school career on Blow Pops and lunch tickets.
[BLEEP]，我的整个高中生涯都是靠吹气和午餐券来维持的。
It was a beautiful thing.
这是一件美好的事情。
I always had money.
我一直都有钱。
And I didn't break any laws, didn't sling dope, none of that [BLEEP].
我没有违反任何法律，没有投放毒品，这些都没有[哔]。
Bought my own car, and I bankrolled it with Blow Pops and lunch tickets.
我买了自己的车，并用 Blow Pops 和午餐券为它提供了资金。
Neal's plan is to retire in seven years at 40 and be rich.
尼尔的计划是七年后在 40 岁时退休并变得富有。
But in the meantime, the job is changing him.
但与此同时，这份工作正在改变他。
Seeing so many crime scenes, seeing the way so many people die, he's also seen how they live-- in houses filled with old newspapers, dirty dishes, and too many cats, never cleaning the bathroom.
看到了这么多的犯罪现场，看到了这么多人的死亡方式，他也看到了他们的生活——房子里堆满了旧报纸、脏盘子和太多的猫，却从不打扫浴室。
I think more than anything now, most people are just dirty mother-[BLEEP].
我认为现在最重要的是，大多数人只是肮脏的母亲-[BLEEP]。
We live like animals, man.
我们像动物一样生活，伙计。
You have no idea.
你不知道。
I'm a clean freak.
我是个爱干净的人
My place is spotless.
我的地方一尘不染。
So when I got into this, I was shocked by the way people live.
所以当我进入这个领域时，我对人们的生活方式感到震惊。
It's amazing.
太棒了。
I went into a bathroom yesterday at a car wash.
我昨天在洗车场走进了浴室。
A guy in there doing his business, and I walk into the thing, and this guy had thrown his garbage on the floor and didn't flush the toilet-- just no common courtesy at all.
一个人在那儿做他的事，我走进那儿，发现这个人把垃圾扔在地板上，而且没有冲厕所——根本没有礼貌。
And he was in a tie and a clean-cut nice looking guy.
他系着领带，是一个轮廓分明、英俊潇洒的人。
Didn't your mom teach you anything, you 40-year-old dirt bag?
你这个40岁的废物，你妈妈没教过你什么吗？
Are you just a dirt bag?
你只是一个垃圾袋吗？
That's dirt bag, straight up.
直接说就是垃圾袋。
That is a dirt bag.
那是一个垃圾袋。
Did you think people were this big dirt bags before this job?
你认为在这份工作之前人们都是这么大的垃圾袋吗？
No, I had no idea.
不，我不知道。
I had no idea.
我不知道。
I thought everyone was normal.
我以为大家都很正常。
Believe me, the normal is the dirt bag in this.
相信我，正常情况就是里面有污垢袋。
[BLEEP].
[哔]。
But now you see more dirt baggery everywhere?
但现在你看到更多的垃圾到处都是吗？
Oh, it's 80/20 dirt bag.
哦，这是 80/20 的污垢袋。
You bet.
你打赌。
I swear to God.
我向上帝发誓。
So now, I'll go home and take a hot shower.
那么现在我要回家洗个热水澡了。
Then I'll convert to a bathtub, read my book, and not think about dirt bags, wait for my girl to get home, wait for death.
然后我会换成浴缸，读我的书，不去想垃圾袋，等待我的女儿回家，等待死亡。
Death or my girl, I love them both.
死亡还是我的女儿，我都爱。
Neal's thought a lot about his own death in the last few years, not surprisingly.
在过去的几年里，尼尔对自己的死亡思考了很多，这并不奇怪。
He says he wants to die slowly, so he can say goodbye to everyone.
他说他想慢慢死去，这样他就可以和所有人告别。
He doesn't want to be found by a company like his and cleaned up, with his family off somewhere wondering what happened.
他不想被像他这样的公司找到并清理干净，而他的家人却在某个地方想知道发生了什么。
He doesn't even care if it's a painful death, he says, as long as it's slow.
他说，他甚至不在乎死亡是否痛苦，只要死得慢就行。
Cancer would be fine, he says.
他说，癌症会好起来的。
He'd take cancer.
他会得癌症。
When was the last time you heard someone say that?
你最后一次听到有人这么说是什么时候？
Nancy Updike is the biggest producer for our program.
南希·厄普代克是我们节目的最大制片人。
We heard about Neal Smither from the book Gig, which is a kind of unofficial sequel/tribute to Studs Terkel's classic book about Americans and their jobs, Working.
我们从《Gig》一书中听说了尼尔·史密瑟，这是对斯塔兹·特克尔关于美国人及其工作的经典著作《工作》的非官方续集/致敬。
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(SINGING) Yeah, Papa don't take no mess.
（唱）是啊，爸爸不介意乱搞。
Papa don't take no mess.
爸爸不容许乱七八糟。
Papa is the man who can understand how a man has to do whatever he can.
爸爸是一个能够理解一个人必须尽其所能的人。
Hit me.
打我。
Coming up, no more grossness, promise.
即将到来，不再有粗俗，保证。
And what's it mean when you get out of prison, kick a drug habit, return to the scene of your crimes, and little kids make fun of you?
当你出狱、戒除毒瘾、回到犯罪现场、而小孩子取笑你时，这意味着什么？
Kindergarten con in a minute by Public Radio International when our program continues.
当我们的节目继续时，国际公共广播电台将在幼儿园播出一分钟节目。
It's This American Life.
这就是美国生活。
I'm Ira Glass.
我是艾拉·格拉斯。
Each week, of course, we choose some theme, bring you a variety of different kinds of stories on that theme.
当然，每周我们都会选择一些主题，为您带来关于该主题的各种不同类型的故事。
Today's program-- crime scenes and the stories they tell.
今天的节目——犯罪现场和他们讲述的故事。
We've arrived at Act Three of our show.
我们已经到了节目的第三幕了。
Act Three, Return to the Scene of the Crime.
第三幕，回到犯罪现场。
There's a truism in detective fiction that a criminal always returns to the scene of the crime.
侦探小说中有一条不言而喻的道理：罪犯总是会回到犯罪现场。
But it turns out, in real life, that actually is not very common, except maybe among arsonists.
但事实证明，在现实生活中，这种情况实际上并不常见，除了纵火犯之外。
Arsonists like to see the fires they've set, apparently, and some of them are caught when police look at pictures taken of the crowd at various fires.
显然，纵火犯喜欢看到他们放的火，当警察查看不同火灾现场人群的照片时，他们中的一些人就被抓获了。
And then-- maybe it's very rare, maybe not.
然后——也许这种情况非常罕见，也许不是。
Nobody really tracks this kind of thing.
没有人真正跟踪这种事情。
There are the people who circle back to the scene of their crimes to undo, to erase something, or at least to promise it'll never happen again.
有些人回到犯罪现场是为了撤销、抹去某些东西，或者至少保证这样的事情永远不会再发生。
Katie Davis discovered that one of her own neighbors in Washington, DC, an old friend, was trying to do just that.
凯蒂·戴维斯发现，她在华盛顿特区的一位邻居、一位老朋友正在尝试这样做。
Bobby comes up my street one afternoon in March.
三月的一个下午，鲍比来到我家的街道上。
I haven't seen him in a few months.
我已经几个月没见到他了。
And he's kind of gliding along, smoking a Marlboro.
他抽着万宝路，一路滑行。
That's the way he's carried himself since sixth grade, when I first met him-- one of the bad boys from over on Calvert Street.
从六年级我第一次见到他时起，他就是这样的——卡尔弗特街上的坏男孩之一。
Bobby tells me he's going to coach a Little League team with some neighborhood kids.
鲍比告诉我他将和一些邻居的孩子一起执教一支少年棒球联盟球队。
"Great," I say from up on my porch.
“太好了，”我在门廊上说道。
Inside, I'm thinking, "Who's he kidding?
我心里想：“他在跟谁开玩笑呢？
He's rail-thin.
他瘦得像铁轨。
He's sweating.
他出汗了。
It looks like he's been using all winter."
看起来他整个冬天都在使用。”
Bobby flicks his burning cigarette into the street and watches me, waiting for more reaction.
鲍比将燃烧着的香烟弹到街上，看着我，等待更多的反应。
This is the same Bobby I loved and tried to save for a whole year, Bobby who stole $60 from my house to buy heroin and swore to God, swore to his own dead daughter, that my dog Purdy ate the money.
This is the same Bobby I loved and tried to save for a whole year, Bobby who stole $60 from my house to buy heroin and swore to God, swore to his own dead daughter, that my dog Purdy ate the money.
And this is his latest plan to get clean, coaching a bunch of 10, 11, and 12-year-olds, rounded up by the DC Department of Recreation.
这是他最近的戒毒计划，指导一群 10 岁、11 岁和 12 岁的孩子，这些孩子都被华盛顿特区娱乐部围捕。
All I can say is, "That's great."
我只能说：“那太好了。”
A week later, Bobby's back, this time on my machine.
一周后，鲍比回来了，这次是在我的机器上。
Hey, how are you doing?
嘿，你好吗？
Just calling to say hi.
只是打电话打个招呼。
When I get off, I'll probably walk Bailey.
当我下车时，我可能会步行贝利。
Maybe we'll run up and see if we can say hi to you.
也许我们会跑过去看看是否可以向你打个招呼。
Katie, you've got to see this.
凯蒂，你一定要看看这个。
These thugs I got are unbelievable.
我遇到的这些暴徒令人难以置信。
One of them tried to spit on me yesterday at practice.
昨天训练时，其中一个人试图向我吐口水。
A couple of them, I don't think even I can handle.
其中有几个，我想连我自己都应付不了。
It's like they're too much of a disruption, you know?
他们的干扰太大了，你知道吗？
[BEEP] Katie Davis My machine cuts him off.
[BEEP] 凯蒂·戴维斯 我的机器打断了他的电话。
But now I know Bobby's clean because if he were still using heroin, nothing could puncture his detached haze.
但现在我知道鲍比是干净的，因为如果他仍然吸食海洛因，没有什么可以刺破他超然的阴霾。
He's sounding awake and rattled.
他听起来很清醒，而且很慌乱。
Bobby, who spent two and 1/2 years in Lorton prison on assault and possession charges, rattled by a bunch of kids at their first baseball practice.
Bobby, who spent two and 1/2 years in Lorton prison on assault and possession charges, rattled by a bunch of kids at their first baseball practice.
We went to Harrison playground at between 13th and 14th on V street.
我们去了哈里森游乐场，位于V街13号和14号之间。
And that's a rough neighborhood.
那是一个简陋的街区。
And as soon as we got on the field, my kids started to act up right away, right away.
我们一上场，我的孩子们就开始表现得很快。
And I think they were afraid.
我认为他们很害怕。
I was a little afraid.
我有点害怕。
OK, he was picking who was going to be right field or whatever.
好吧，他正在挑选谁是正确的领域或其他什么。
But then, everybody was just yelling at each other and jonesing on each other.
但随后，每个人都只是互相大喊大叫，互相嘲笑。
I was trying to get them to chill and relax and play ball, focus on the game.
我试图让他们放松下来，打球，专注于比赛。
They started cursing me-- a few of them-- cursing me and cursing each other.
他们开始咒骂我——其中有几个人——咒骂我并互相咒骂。
One kid spit at me.
一个孩子向我吐口水。
And he got mad and said practice was over.
他生气了，说练习结束了。
And I cursed them and I told them they didn't [BLEEP] impress me.
我咒骂他们并告诉他们他们没有[哔]给我留下深刻的印象。
Before they were born, I was in penitentiary.
在他们出生之前，我在监狱里。
So if they're trying to act like they're bad, they're not impressing me.
因此，如果他们试图表现得像个坏人，他们就不会给我留下深刻的印象。
And right when I did that, I felt in my gut that I had just screwed up.
当我这么做的时候，我内心深处觉得我搞砸了。
I felt right then that, you know what?
我当时就有这样的感觉，你知道吗？
You just laid all of your cards on the table.
你刚刚把所有的牌都摊在了桌子上。
You don't have a hole card anymore.
你已经没有底牌了。
Now they know you.
现在他们认识你了。
Then Shannon said, maybe he got pumped in the butt by lots of men.
然后香农说，也许他被很多男人抽屁股了。
And that's why everybody was laughing.
这就是为什么每个人都在笑。
One kid says, "Well, while you were in prison, were you getting humped?" And then I knew I screwed up.
一个孩子说：“嗯，当你在监狱里的时候，你被驼背了吗？”然后我知道我搞砸了。
I said, "No, that didn't happen to me." Another one said, "Oh, because you were the humper, right?"
我说：“不，那件事没有发生在我身上。”另一个人说：“哦，因为你是骗子，对吧？”
Three days later, they hold a second practice, this time at a field in our neighborhood.
三天后，他们举行了第二次训练，这次是在我们附近的一块场地上。
Bobby's back for more salvation through Little League.
鲍比回来了，希望通过少年棒球联盟获得更多拯救。
Shut up before I smack the shit out you.
在我打死你之前闭嘴。
Do it.
做吧。
Katie Davis What's your strategy?
凯蒂·戴维斯 你的策略是什么？
Or maybe you're formulating.
或者也许你正在制定。
I'm formulating it.
我正在制定它。
But my strategy, short-term, is to-- my strategy is to remember I'm the adult.
但我的短期策略是——我的策略是记住我是成年人。
Good stick, go, go, go, go, go.
好棍子，走，走，走，走，走。
Run it out.
运行它。
He might fall.
他可能会摔倒。
He might break his ankle.
他可能会摔断脚踝。
All right.
好的。
Good stick, good hustle.
好棍子，好热闹。
Hey, every first baseman don't play as good as him.
嘿，每个一垒手都打得不如他。
This second practice is going a lot better.
第二次练习进展得好多了。
The only tantrums being thrown are by the kids.
唯一发脾气的是孩子们。
Bobby stands by the backstop in our park, pushing away a locust sapling that's grown up through the fence.
鲍比站在我们公园的护栏旁，推开从栅栏外长出来的一棵槐树苗。
There are no bases and only a warped piece of rubber for the pitcher's mound.
投手丘没有底座，只有一块扭曲的橡胶。
That's how it goes around here.
这里就是这样的。
Anyone with any money drives their kids to the wealthier neighborhoods to play, leaving this misshapen field for Bobby's team.
任何有钱的人都会开车带孩子去较富裕的社区玩耍，把这个畸形的场地留给了鲍比的团队。
Come on, man.
来吧，伙计。
I'm not going to tell you where it's going, but I want you to bring it home when it comes to you.
我不会告诉你它要去哪里，但我希望你在需要时把它带回家。
Wake up.
醒来吧。
Wake up.
醒来吧。
That's what I'm saying, see?
这就是我要说的，明白吗？
The guy in the game, the batter's not going to tell you where the ball's going, guys.
比赛中的那个人，击球手不会告诉你球的去向，伙计们。
Talent level-- Bad News Bears.
天赋等级——坏消息熊。
They're horrible, as far as talent.
就天赋而言，他们是可怕的。
I think they're wonderful kids, and I'm not going to give up on them.
我认为他们是很棒的孩子，我不会放弃他们。
But God, man, they can't throw a ball, they can't catch a ball, they can't hit a ball, and they've never learned.
但是天啊，伙计，他们不会投球，他们不会接球，他们不会击球，而且他们从来没有学过。
No one's ever taught them.
从来没有人教过他们。
Oh, OK.
哦，好吧。
You've got-- good stop, good throw.
你有——很好的停球，很好的投球。
That's the way to play, fellas.
这就是玩的方式，伙计们。
That's the way to play.
这就是玩的方式。
Think it's coming your way?
你觉得它会来吗？
The third practice starts around 5 o'clock on a humid April afternoon.
第三次练习于四月潮湿的下午五点左右开始。
Kids are scattered around the field, squatting down, twirling their gloves.
孩子们分散在操场周围，蹲下来转动手套。
Joey is throwing rocks at his brother.
乔伊正在向他的兄弟扔石头。
Joey is always throwing rocks.
乔伊总是扔石头。
Benjamin thinks he should be pitching.
本杰明认为他应该投球。
Bobby tells him to stay right where he is and keep catching.
鲍比告诉他留在原地并继续接球。
That's what I'm talking about right there.
这就是我正在谈论的。
Come on, Benjamin.
来吧，本杰明。
You know?
你知道？
Bobby Get in front of that ball.
鲍比 走到那个球前面。
Oh, you didn't know?
哦，你不知道吗？
Bobby Now, I do know.
鲍比现在，我知道了。
You need to learn.
你需要学习。
Get in front of that ball.
走到那个球前面。
Bring it home.
把它带回家。
After a half hour, things start to spin out of control.
半小时后，事情开始失控。
Benjamin, the most volatile of the kids, throws a rock at Joey.
本杰明是孩子们中情绪最不稳定的一个，他向乔伊扔石头。
Bobby tells him to run a lap.
鲍比让他跑一圈。
"You must be tripping," says Benjamin.
“你一定是绊倒了，”本杰明说。
"I might be tripping, but you need to be lapping," says Bobby.
“我可能会绊倒，但你需要拍圈，”鲍比说。
He's going to make me run a lap.
他要让我跑一圈。
And I didn't even throw nothing.
而我什至什么也没扔。
Maybe you need exercise.
也许你需要锻炼。
Bobby Benjamin, he's my favorite because I just see me, more so than any other child on that team.
鲍比·本杰明，他是我最喜欢的，因为我只看到我，比队里的任何其他孩子都更喜欢他。
I don't know what his home life is like.
不知道他的家庭生活是怎样的。
But from what I can see, he's emotional.
但从我看来，他很情绪化。
And when he feels cheated or done wrong, he reacts exactly like I always reacted-- violently, verbally with the violence.
当他感到被欺骗或做错事时，他的反应就像我一贯的反应一样——暴力，口头上的暴力。
And he just goes off, [BLEEP] you and [BLEEP] the team.
然后他就走了，[哔]你和[哔]团队。
And well, that's me.
好吧，那就是我。
That was me, and in ways, it still is.
那就是我，从某种程度上来说，现在仍然如此。
When I get my feelings hurt, I don't always say, "Well, you really hurt my feelings." I say, "[BLEEP] you, mother-[BLEEP]."
当我的感情受到伤害时，我并不总是说：“好吧，你真的伤害了我的感情。”我说，“[嘟嘟]你，妈妈——[嘟嘟]。”
And you know what I do?
你知道我做什么吗？
What I've done for a lot of years is I would hurt myself because someone hurt me.
多年来我所做的就是因为有人伤害我而我会伤害自己。
Well, Benjamin does that at practice.
嗯，本杰明在练习中就是这么做的。
No, man, he's always getting on somebody's nerves.
不，伙计，他总是让人心烦意乱。
[BLEEP] Getting on everybody's nerves.
[BLEEP] 让每个人都感到紧张。
Bobby finally asked Benjamin to go home and come back next practice.
鲍比最后让本杰明回家，下次训练再回来。
Instead, Benjamin stands over my microphone and starts calling the game as he sees it.
相反，本杰明站在我的麦克风前，开始按照他所看到的方式宣布比赛。
Who are you talking about?
你在说谁？
Benjamin The coach.
本杰明教练。
He always-- he press, "Oh, I've been in the penitentiary.
他总是——他追问，“哦，我进过监狱。
I know all this stuff." Man, bump all that, man.
我知道所有这些事情。”伙计，打破这一切，伙计。
Bobby pauses as Benjamin mimics him, then throws the ball up and cracks it to the outfield.
博比停了下来，本杰明模仿他，然后把球扔到外场。
[BAT PINGS] Katie Davis A few minutes later, Benjamin finally does a lap, but he walks it.
[蝙蝠声] 凯蒂·戴维斯 几分钟后，本杰明终于跑了一圈，但他步行了。
Watch the hop.
观察跳跃。
You still got him.
你还是得到了他。
Good throw now, Monty.
现在投得好，蒙蒂。
Thank you.
谢谢。
Thank you.
谢谢。
When he was these kids' ages, Bobby ran wild at night, taking money, stealing bikes.
当鲍比在这些孩子的年纪时，他会在夜里狂奔，抢钱，偷自行车。
Most kids were afraid of him, but he never messed with me and my brothers.
大多数孩子都害怕他，但他从不惹我和我的兄弟们。
I even remember Bobby and his sister eating with us a couple of times because his mom never made dinner.
我什至记得鲍比和他的妹妹和我们一起吃饭过几次，因为他妈妈从来不做饭。
When Bobby was 13, his mother caught him stealing change out of her purse and kicked him out of the house.
鲍比 13 岁时，他的母亲发现他从钱包里偷零钱，并将他赶出了家门。
The only place Bobby knew to go was right here to this field, where he now coaches baseball.
鲍比唯一知道要去的地方就是这个球场，他现在在那里担任棒球教练。
You got one more shot at it.
你还有一次机会。
Katie Davis It used to be an abandoned lot full of old cars and refrigerators.
凯蒂·戴维斯 这里曾经是一片废弃的土地，堆满了旧汽车和冰箱。
Here in the left outfield-- where Joey's pacing and muttering because Bobby told him to quit looking for a fight-- right here, there used to be a white '69 Ford Falcon.
在左外场，乔伊在这里踱步，嘟囔着，因为鲍比告诉他不要再打架了，就在这里，曾经有一辆白色的 69 年福特猎鹰。
That's where Bobby went when his mother threw him out.
当鲍比的母亲把他赶出去时，他就去了那里。
I spray painted all the windows black so no one could see in, and I would shoplift food from the corner store, Matty's Delicatessen, neighborhood deli-- stuff like Vienna sausages and a bottle of wine and go to sleep with at night and sardines.
I spray painted all the windows black so no one could see in, and I would shoplift food from the corner store, Matty's Delicatessen, neighborhood deli-- stuff like Vienna sausages and a bottle of wine and go to sleep with at night and sardines.
And that was dinner.
那就是晚餐。
Bobby says that alcohol helped him feel less afraid late at night in that old Ford.
鲍比说，酒精帮助他在深夜驾驶那辆旧福特车时不再感到害怕。
Soon, he found pot, then PCP.
很快，他找到了大麻，然后是PCP。
In his 20s, he started shooting heroin.
20多岁时，他开始吸食海洛因。
Sorry, that little big-headed little kid, like a whole bunch of little leprechauns running around.
对不起，那个大头小孩，就像一群跑来跑去的小妖精。
Trash is talked at every practice, and Bobby is teased relentlessly for wearing Payless shoes, which the kids would never be caught dead in.
每次训练时都会说垃圾话，鲍比因为穿着无薪鞋而受到无情的嘲笑，而孩子们永远不会被困在其中。
Brandon, the eight-year-old, calls Bobby powdered doughnut because he's white.
八岁的布兰登称鲍比为粉甜甜圈，因为他是白人。
And he likes to lean into Bobby and whisper, "Punk."
他喜欢靠在鲍比身上低声说：“朋克。”
Mostly, Bobby laughs.
大多数时候，鲍比都会笑。
Other times, though, especially when the kids start in on each other, it can get to him.
但其他时候，尤其是当孩子们开始互相攻击时，他可能会受到影响。
Fellas, fellas, I can't talk if you're talking.
伙计们，伙计们，如果你们在说话，我就没法说话了。
I'm about ready to put the gloves in the bag and go home.
我正准备把手套放进包里回家。
Give me this stuff.
把这个东西给我。
Let me roll.
让我滚吧
No, man.
不，伙计。
No, man.
不，伙计。
Bobby I'm serious, boys.
鲍比，我是认真的，孩子们。
Shut up.
住口。
Everybody shut up, please.
请大家闭嘴。
Bobby picks up the bat bag and slams it against a brick wall.
鲍比拿起蝙蝠袋，将其猛击到砖墙上。
Chill, OK?
冷静点，好吗？
Chill.
寒意。
I can't talk if you're all talking.
如果你们都在说话，我就无法说话。
OK, look here.
好的，看这里。
I'm sorry--
对不起——
Somewhere around the third or fourth practice, without announcing it in any way, the boys start calling Bobby "Coach." "Coach, can you fix this glove?
在第三或第四次训练的某个时候，男孩们在没有以任何方式宣布的情况下开始称呼鲍比为“教练”。 “教练，你能修理一下这只手套吗？
Coach, which bat should I use?"
教练，我应该用哪支球棒？”
What's it like when the kids call you Coach?
当孩子们叫你教练时，感觉如何？
You know, it didn't really hit me at first, you know?
你知道，一开始它并没有真正击中我，你知道吗？
I took them to a picnic a couple of weekends ago that some recovering alcoholic and addict friends of mine threw.
几个周末前，我带他们去野餐，那是我的一些正在康复的酗酒者和瘾君子朋友举办的。
And to hear people there-- "hey, Bobby, hey, Bobby"-- and then to hear this group of kids that I came with-- "hey, Coach, hey, Coach"-- that's when it sort of hit me that, hey, man, that's just who you are.
听到那里的人们——“嘿，鲍比，嘿，鲍比”——然后听到和我一起来的这群孩子——“嘿，教练，嘿，教练”——那时我突然意识到，嘿，伙计，这就是你。
And these people now see me as Coach, not just Bobby the recovering dope fiend, you know?
这些人现在将我视为教练，而不仅仅是正在康复的吸毒者鲍比，你知道吗？
He's Coach.
他是教练。
So that makes me feel good to have these kids call me Coach.
所以让这些孩子们叫我教练让我感觉很好。
So I don't know.
所以我不知道。
Now I have this little small part in shaping what their day is going to be like, you know?
现在，我在塑造他们的一天中扮演着这一小小角色，你知道吗？
When he told me that he had come from prison and he got shot in his neck, I thought he was just another one of them people who like to talk about their life and then get over it.
当他告诉我他从监狱出来，脖子中弹时，我以为他只是他们中的另一位，喜欢谈论自己的生活，然后就克服它。
But I learned to understand him.
但我学会了理解他。
How do you understand him?
你怎么理解他？
Bobby He don't want no trouble.
鲍比 他不想惹麻烦。
He just wants us to listen to him.
他只是想让我们听他的。
But I guess as you grow into people, you start to have more patience.
但我想，当你成长为人时，你就会开始变得更有耐心。
As you roll into people?
当你滚入人们之中时？
Boy Grow.
男孩成长。
You start to have more patience.
你开始变得更有耐心。
And I think that's what's happening.
我认为这就是正在发生的事情。
The Department of Recreation gives Bobby an ID badge, which he wears around his neck when he comes down to the neighborhood, like a sign-- I am no longer a dope fiend.
娱乐部给了鲍比一枚身份徽章，当他来到附近时，他把它戴在脖子上，就像一个标志——我不再是吸毒者了。
I'm doing something good.
我正在做一些好事。
Most people might keep it in their pocket.
大多数人可能会把它放在口袋里。
Bobby wears it right on his chest.
鲍比把它戴在胸前。
I just walk around with my head high and feeling proud, for the most part, very proud of what I'm doing.
我只是昂首阔步地走来走去，在很大程度上感到自豪，对我所做的事情感到非常自豪。
The skeptics are everywhere, though-- neighbors who gave him advances for paint jobs he never did, people he stole bank cards from, people he actually spit on.
然而，怀疑论者无处不在——邻居为他预付了他从未做过的油漆工作，有人偷了他的银行卡，有人实际上被他吐口水。
What is that like for you to walk around in the neighborhood, and you might even walk by somebody that you owe money to or conned money out of?
当你在附近走来走去，甚至可能经过一个欠你钱或被骗钱的人时，你会遇到什么感觉？
It's hard to explain, really.
真的很难解释。
It's a roller coaster of emotions.
这是情绪的过山车。
There's times-- and right when I'm feeling like the world is wonderful, when everything is going my way, I'll see someone that I had conned out of a few hundred bucks.
有时候，当我感觉世界很美好，一切都按我的意愿进行时，我会看到一个被我骗了几百美元的人。
And the voice in my head will immediately say, "See there?
我脑子里的声音会立即说：“看到了吗？
You're still a scumbag.
你还是个渣男。
Remember when-- look, that's who you really are."
记住当——看，这就是你真正的样子。”
So what do you do when you see that person?
那么当你看到那个人的时候你会怎么做呢？
It depends.
这取决于。
It depends on how I feel.
这取决于我的感受。
And there's times when I might be feeling real insecure and I'll put that macho thing up.
有时我可能会感到非常不安全，所以我会把男子气概的事情提出来。
And I'll put the cocky thing up and hope they say something wrong to me so that I can go south with them, you know?
我会把自大的事情挂起来，希望他们对我说错话，这样我就可以和他们一起去南方，你知道吗？
Do you do that?
你这样做吗？
Bobby No, but I want to.
鲍比 不，但我想。
I want to.
我想要。
I mean, there's a part of me that still wants to be a thug.
我的意思是，我的一部分仍然想成为一名暴徒。
There's a part of me still very capable of being a thug.
我的一部分仍然非常有能力成为一名暴徒。
I just wouldn't be able to be a real good thug with my hands because I'm older.
因为我年纪大了，我无法用我的双手成为一个真正的好暴徒。
I'd have to get a weapon now.
我现在必须去拿武器。
It's early May.
现在是五月初。
And after 10 practices, the kids are finally stepping into their uniforms at the local recreation center.
经过 10 次训练后，孩子们终于在当地的娱乐中心穿上了队服。
This is the first new thing they've seen all season.
这是他们整个赛季看到的第一个新事物。
Their bats and gloves are splintered and old.
他们的球棒和手套又破又旧。
But the uniforms are bright blue and gray, Texas Ranger uniforms with red caps.
但制服是亮蓝色和灰色的，德克萨斯游骑兵队的制服，戴着红色的帽子。
Bobby is tanned and relaxed, dancing around, faking jabs, counting the kids to see if he can field a team-- never a sure thing.
鲍比晒黑了，很放松，到处跳舞，假装刺拳，数孩子们，看看他是否能派出一支球队——这从来都不是一件确定的事情。
Today, they're exactly nine boys, the day of their first game against another team.
今天，他们正好是九个男孩，这是他们与另一支球队的第一场比赛。
The recreation bus is an hour late to take the team to their game, so some of us go on a taxi, six kids and I all squished together.
载着球队去看比赛的休闲巴士晚了一个小时，所以我们中的一些人乘坐出租车，我和六个孩子挤在一起。
Bobby and the others are hailing a cab when the bus finally shows up.
当公共汽车终于出现时，鲍比和其他人正在叫出租车。
We all pile out at what is supposedly the best Little League field in the city.
我们都聚集在据说是城里最好的少年棒球联盟球场上。
The grass is shin-high.
草高至小腿。
There's a pile of dirt in the outfield.
外场有一堆泥土。
No fans, no parents-- just Bobby and the team.
没有球迷，没有父母——只有鲍比和他的团队。
That means I have a feel, I can slap him.
这意味着我有一种感觉，我可以扇他一巴掌。
Hey, what time is it?
嘿，现在几点了？
Katie Davis About 5:06.
凯蒂·戴维斯 大约 5:06。
Dang, man.
当当，伙计。
Boy 3 Oh, the other team forfeited.
男孩3 哦，对方队认输了。
The other team never shows, so Bobby's team wins by default.
另一支球队从未出现，因此鲍比的球队默认获胜。
Some other kids are in the same boat, so there's an impromptu scrimmage.
其他一些孩子也有同样的情况，所以就发生了即兴的混战。
And official or not, this is the first baseball game that most of these kids have ever played.
无论是否正式，这都是大多数孩子第一次参加的棒球比赛。
It's too damn small, man.
这实在是太小了，伙计。
We would tear them up.
我们会把它们撕碎。
Uh-huh, OK, what's up, shut up, uh-huh, OK.
嗯嗯，好吧，怎么了，闭嘴，嗯嗯，好吧。
The other team is small but very fast, and they have three coaches who tell them when to steal bases.
另一队规模虽小，但速度很快，他们有三位教练告诉他们何时盗垒。
So a line drive becomes a run, then another run, and another run.
因此，线路驱动变成一次运行，然后是另一次运行，然后是另一次运行。
And it's 5-0.
比分是5-0。
He stole home on y'all.
他偷偷带你们回家了。
Coach Good play, good play, Carlos.
教练 打得好，打得好，卡洛斯。
So we'll see what we need to work on today instead of looking good in our uniforms.
所以我们要看看今天需要做什么，而不是穿制服好看。
Come on, let's get an out.
来吧，我们出去吧。
We've got to force to second.
我们必须强行争取第二名。
Get the force to second.
将力量推向第二位。
The season lurches forward with DC Recreation canceling games for no reason, never rescheduling rainouts.
随着 DC Recreation 无缘无故地取消比赛，并且从不重新安排降雨时间，赛季突然向前推进。
The uniforms are not washed for three weeks.
制服已经三个星期没有洗了。
And one day, no one shows up to let the boys in to suit up for a game, so they have to forfeit.
有一天，没有人出现让孩子们进去参加一场比赛，所以他们不得不放弃。
By June, Bobby's team has only played one real game-- one game in four months.
到六月，鲍比的球队只打了一场真正的比赛——四个月内一场比赛。
In this inconsistent world, Bobby is someone the kids can count on.
在这个不稳定的世界里，鲍比是孩子们可以信赖的人。
He never misses practice, coming in his painter's pants most days to hit the ball to them.
他从不错过训练，大部分时间都穿着画家的裤子来把球击向他们。
And while it might seem like Bobby's keeping the kids in line, he'll tell you that's what they're doing for him.
虽然看起来鲍比在让孩子们遵守规矩，但他会告诉你这就是他们为他做的事情。
I don't want to have to avoid my neighborhood.
我不想避开我的邻居。
I don't want to have to avoid my community playground because I let these kids down because I'm a drunken dope fiend [BLEEP] bum, which is what I become if I go have a beer right now or some dope right now.
我不想避开我的社区游乐场，因为我让这些孩子们失望了，因为我是一个醉酒的毒品恶魔 [BLEEP] 流浪汉，如果我现在去喝啤酒或喝点毒品，我就会变成这样。
Tomorrow, I'm a bum because all the good feelings are gone.
明天，我会变成一个流浪汉，因为所有美好的感觉都消失了。
I don't want to feel the shame which I felt from relapses.
我不想因为旧病复发而感到羞耻。
And it's big-time shame.
这是巨大的耻辱。
It's shame.
这是耻辱。
I won't be able to look these kids in their eyes, in their faces.
我将无法看着这些孩子的眼睛和脸。
I'll duck them.
我会躲开他们。
God, I'm 42 years old, and I would have to come to my own neighborhood and duck children because I'm ashamed.
天哪，我已经 42 岁了，我必须回到自己的邻居家，鸭子孩子们，因为我感到羞耻。
I don't want that.
我不想要这样。
Throw that smoke.
把那烟扔掉。
Throw that smoke.
把那烟扔掉。
Throw that smoke.
把那烟扔掉。
You're the man out there.
你就是那个人。
You're the man.
你就是那个男人。
By June, Bobby's team gets its first win with some great pitching from Donald and a catch by Ricardo in the third inning that looks more like a football interception.
到了六月，鲍比的球队凭借唐纳德的出色投球和里卡多在第三局的接球（看起来更像是足球拦截）赢得了第一场胜利。
Woo-hoo!
呜呼！
Yeah!
是的！
Oh, man.
哦，伙计。
Boy, that was a major-league catch, man.
天哪，那是大联盟的收获，伙计。
I don't make catches like that.
我不会那样做。
Woo-hoo!
呜呼！
And while they wait for their bus to take them back home, the boys start tussling with each other, rolling around on a grassy hill.
当他们等待巴士送他们回家时，男孩们开始互相扭打，在长满青草的小山上滚来滚去。
They are celebrating their win by wrestling.
他们正在通过摔跤庆祝胜利。
I'm about to myself.
我快要对自己了
This is easily the sweetest moment of the season, not only because of the win, but because it's amazing to see the boys so happy.
这无疑是本赛季最甜蜜的时刻，不仅因为胜利，还因为看到孩子们如此高兴真是令人惊奇。
And this is what Bobby will remember when Justin and Ricardo get in a real fight an hour later, when he has to suspend Benjamin not once, but twice, and when Joey threatens to beat up a kid from another team.
一个小时后，当贾斯汀和里卡多真正打架时，当他不得不让本杰明停赛一次，而是两次，当乔伊威胁要殴打另一支球队的一个孩子时，鲍比会记住这一点。
Always that delicate balance-- fragile, like sobriety.
总是那种微妙的平衡——脆弱，就像清醒一样。
Time out, time out.
超时了，超时了。
I got to tie my shoe.
我得系鞋带。
I always thought I was going to be a loser forever.
我一直以为我会永远是一个失败者。
First of all, being clean makes me feel like, OK, I've got a chance to be a winner.
首先，保持干净让我感觉，好吧，我有机会成为赢家。
But the kids, especially-- it's something about kids, you know?
但孩子们，尤其是——这是关于孩子的事情，你知道吗？
This is something I never thought, man, that I'd be able to do.
这是我从未想过的事情，伙计，我能够做到。
When I was walking after a practice, like, a week or two ago, I swear to God, I walked across Duke Ellington Bridge to the subway, and I started crying.
当我训练结束后步行时，大概是一两周前，我向上帝发誓，我穿过艾灵顿公爵大桥去地铁，然后我开始哭泣。
I started crying because I was so [BLEEP] happy-- so happy that, damn, this is probably going to work out.
我开始哭，因为我太高兴了——太高兴了，该死的，这可能会成功。
I'm probably going to be able to pull this off.
我可能能够成功。
By the end of the season, the kids have a record of two wins and no losses.
到赛季结束时，孩子们取得了2胜0负的战绩。
Playoffs never get scheduled, so there's no reason to practice anymore.
季后赛从来没有安排过，所以没有理由再训练了。
No one knows where Benjamin is these days.
这些天没人知道本杰明在哪里。
And just this week, I saw Joey stealing a soda from the corner store, and I made him take it back.
就在本周，我看到乔伊从街角商店偷了一瓶苏打水，我让他收回了它。
Bobby still comes around, though, and hangs out in the park, talks with the boys.
不过，鲍比仍然会过来，在公园里闲逛，和孩子们聊天。
And he sometimes shoots one-on-one with them.
他有时会与他们进行一对一的射击。
And he says, "Stick with me.
他说：“跟我在一起。
I'm going to have tryouts for 12-and-under basketball team.
我将参加 12 岁及以下篮球队的选拔赛。
I'm going to still be coming around here."
我还会来这里的。”
Act Four, What Police Cannot Do.
第四幕，警察不能做什么。
The clues at a crime scene are not always conclusive, of course.
当然，犯罪现场的线索并不总是决定性的。
Lots of crimes are forever unsolved.
许多罪行永远悬而未决。
People die and it's never explained why.
人们会死，但从来没有解释过为什么。
Stuff disappears and is never found again, though we want it to be.
东西消失了，再也找不到了，尽管我们希望如此。
We end our program today with this crime scene story from writer Aimee Bender, read for us by Matt Malloy.
我们以作家艾米·本德（Aimee Bender）撰写的犯罪现场故事结束今天的节目，马特·马洛伊（Matt Malloy）为我们朗读。
Once there was an orphan who had a knack for finding lost things.
从前有一个孤儿，他有寻找丢失东西的本领。
Both his parents had been killed when he was eight years old.
他八岁时，他的父母双双被杀。
They were swimming in the ocean when it turned wild with waves, and each had tried to save the other from drowning.
当他们在海里游泳时，海浪汹涌起来，每个人都试图拯救对方免于溺水。
The boy woke up from a nap on the sand, alone.
男孩在沙滩上小睡中醒来，独自一人。
After the tragedy, the community adopted and raised him.
悲剧发生后，社区收养并抚养了他。
And a few years after the death of his parents, he began to have a sense of objects, even when they weren't visible.
父母去世几年后，他开始对物体产生感觉，即使它们是看不见的。
This ability continued growing in power through his teens.
这种能力在他十几岁的时候继续增强。
And by his 20s, he was able to actually sniff out lost sunglasses, keys, contact lenses, and sweaters.
到了 20 多岁，他已经能够真正嗅出丢失的太阳镜、钥匙、隐形眼镜和毛衣。
The neighbors discovered his talent accidentally.
邻居们无意中发现了他的才华。
He was over at Jenny Sugar's house one evening, picking her up for a date, when Jenny's mother misplaced her hairbrush and was walking around complaining about this.
一天晚上，他在珍妮·舒格家接她去约会，这时珍妮的妈妈把发刷放错了地方，并四处走动，抱怨这件事。
The young man's nose twitched, and he turned slightly towards the kitchen and pointed to the drawer where the spoons and knives were kept.
青年鼻子一抽，微微侧头看向厨房，指了指放勺子和刀子的抽屉。
His date burst into laughter.
他的约会对象突然大笑起来。
"Now, that would be quite a silly place to put the brush," she said, "among all that silverware." And she opened the door to make her point, to wave with a knife or brush her hair with a spoon.
“现在，把刷子放在所有银器中间是一个非常愚蠢的地方，”她说。她打开门来表达自己的观点，挥动刀子或用勺子梳理头发。
But when she did, boom-- there was the hairbrush, matted with gray curls, sitting on top of the pile.
但当她这么做的时候，砰——那把梳子上堆满了灰色的卷发，就放在了上面。
Jenny's mother kissed the young man on the cheek, but Jenny herself looked at him suspiciously all night long.
珍妮的母亲亲吻了年轻人的脸颊，但珍妮自己却一整晚都怀疑地看着他。
"You planned all that, didn't you?" she said over dinner.
“这一切都是你计划好的，不是吗？”晚餐时她说道。
"You were trying to impress my mother.
“你试图给我妈妈留下好印象。
Well, you didn't impress me," she said.
好吧，你没有给我留下深刻的印象，”她说。
He tried to explain himself, but she would hear none of it.
他试图解释自己，但她根本听不进去。
And when he drove his car up to her house, she fled before he could even finish saying he'd had a nice time, which was a lie anyway.
当他开车到她家时，她还没来得及说完他玩得很开心，她就逃跑了，无论如何，这都是谎言。
He went home to his tiny room and thought about the word "lonely," and how it sounded and looked so lonely, with those two Ls in it, each standing tall by itself.
他回到家，回到自己的小房间，想着“孤独”这个词，想着它的发音和看起来是多么孤独，里面有两个“L”，每个都独自高高地矗立着。
As news spread around the neighborhood about the young man's skills, people reacted in two ways.
当有关这个年轻人的技能的消息在附近传开时，人们有两种反应。
There were the deeply appreciative and the skeptics.
有深深的赞赏者和怀疑者。
The appreciative ones called up the young man regularly.
心怀感激的人们定期给这位年轻人打电话。
He'd stop by on his way to school, find their keys, and they'd give him a homemade muffin.
他会在去学校的路上顺道拜访他们，找到他们的钥匙，然后他们会给他一个自制的松饼。
The skeptics called him over, too, and watched him like a hawk.
怀疑论者也把他叫了过来，像鹰一样盯着他。
He'd still find their lost items, but they'd insist it was an elaborate scam and he was doing it all to get attention.
他仍然会找到他们丢失的物品，但他们坚称这是一个精心设计的骗局，而他所做的一切都是为了引起注意。
"Maybe," declared one woman, waving her index finger in the air, "maybe," she said, "he steals the thing so we think it's lost, moves the item, and then comes over to save it.
“也许，”一位女士在空中挥舞着食指说道，“也许，”她说，“他偷了那东西，所以我们认为它丢失了，移动了它，然后过来救它。
How do we know it was really lost in the first place?
我们怎么知道它一开始就真的丢失了？
What is going on?"
这是怎么回事？”
The young man didn't know, himself.
年轻人自己也不知道。
All he knew was the feeling of a tug-- light but insistent-- like a child at his sleeve.
他只知道一种拉扯的感觉——轻微但持续——就像一个孩子在他的袖子里。
And that tug would turn him in the right direction and show him where to look.
那股拉力会让他转向正确的方向，并告诉他该往哪里看。
Each object had its own way of inhabiting space, and therefore, messaging its location.
每个物体都有自己的居住空间方式，因此会传递其位置信息。
The young man could sense, could smell an object's presence.
年轻人能感觉到、能闻到某种物体的存在。
He did not need to see it to feel where it put its gravity down.
他不需要看到它就能感觉到它的重力落在哪里。
As would be expected, items that turned out to be miles away took much harder concentration than the ones that were two feet to the left.
正如所预料的那样，距离几英里远的物体比左侧两英尺远的物体更难集中注意力。
When Mrs. Allen's little boy didn't come home one afternoon, that was the most difficult of all.
当艾伦太太的小男孩有一天下午没有回家时，那是最困难的一天。
Leonard Allen was eight years old and usually arrived home from school at 3:05.
伦纳德·艾伦 (Leonard Allen) 八岁，通常在 3 点 05 分放学回家。
He had allergies and needed a pill before he went back out to play.
他有过敏症，在出去打球之前需要吃药。
That day by 3:45, alone, Mrs. Allen was a wreck.
那天下午 3 点 45 分，艾伦夫人孤身一人，彻底崩溃了。
Her boy rarely got lost.
她的儿子很少迷路。
Only once had that happened in the supermarket, but he'd been found quite easily under the produce tables, crying.
这种事在超市只发生过一次，但很容易被发现他在农产品桌下哭泣。
The walk home from school was a straight line, and Leonard was not the wandering kind.
从学校回家的路是一条直线，伦纳德不是那种徘徊的人。
Mrs. Allen was just a regular neighbor, except for one extraordinary fact.
除了一件非同寻常的事情之外，艾伦夫人只是一位普通邻居。
Through an inheritance, she was the owner of a gargantuan emerald she called the Green Star.
通过继承，她拥有一颗巨大的祖母绿，她称之为绿星。
It sat glass-cased in her kitchen where everyone could see it, because she insisted that it be seen.
它放在她厨房的玻璃柜里，每个人都可以看到它，因为她坚持要让人们看到它。
Sometimes, as a party trick, she'd even cut steak with its beveled edge.
有时，作为派对上的把戏，她甚至会用斜边切牛排。
On this day, she took the Green Star out of its case and stuck her palms on it.
这一天，她将绿星从盒子中取出，将手掌贴在上面。
"Where is my boy?" she cried.
“我的孩子在哪儿？”她哭了。
The Green Star was cold and flat.
绿星寒冷而平坦。
She ran weeping to her neighbor, who calmly walked her back home.
她哭着跑到邻居家，邻居平静地送她回家。
Together, they gave the house a thorough search, and then the neighbor, a believer, recommended calling the young man.
他们一起彻底搜查了房子，然后邻居，一位信徒，建议给年轻人打电话。
Although Mrs. Allen was a skeptic, she thought anything was a worthwhile idea.
尽管艾伦夫人持怀疑态度，但她认为任何事情都是值得的。
And when the phone answered, she said in a trembling voice, "You must find my boy."
当电话接通时，她用颤抖的声音说道：“你必须找到我的儿子。”
The young man had been just about to go play basketball with his friends.
这个年轻人正准备和他的朋友们去打篮球。
He'd located the basketball in the bathtub.
他在浴缸里找到了篮球。
"You lost him?" said the young man.
“你把他弄丢了？”年轻人说道。
Mrs. Allen began to explain, and then her phone clicked.
艾伦夫人开始解释，然后她的手机响了。
"One moment, please," she said.
“请稍等，”她说。
And the young man held on.
而年轻人坚持了下来。
When her voice returned, it was shaking with rage.
当她的声音再次响起时，她的声音因愤怒而颤抖。
"He's been kidnapped," she said.
“他被绑架了，”她说。
"They want the Green Star."
“他们想要绿星。”
The young man realized then that it was Mrs. Allen he was talking to and nodded.
年轻人这才意识到正在和他说话的是艾伦夫人，于是点了点头。
"Oh," he said, "I see."
“哦，”他说，“我明白了。”
Everyone in town was familiar with Mrs. Allen's Green Star.
镇上的每个人都熟悉艾伦夫人的绿星。
"I'll be right over," he said.
“我马上过去，”他说。
The woman's voice was too run with tears to respond.
女人的声音里充满了泪水，无法回应。
In his basketball shorts and shirt, the young man jogged over to Mrs. Allen's house.
年轻人穿着篮球短裤和衬衫，慢跑到艾伦夫人家。
He was amazed at how the Green Star was all exactly the same shade of green.
他惊讶于绿星的绿色色调完全一样。
He had a desire to lick it.
他有一种想舔它的欲望。
By then, Mrs. Allen was in hysterics.
那时，艾伦夫人已经歇斯底里了。
"They didn't tell me what to do," she sobbed.
“他们没有告诉我该怎么做，”她抽泣道。
"Where do I bring my emerald?
“我该把我的祖母绿带到哪里去？
How do I get my boy back?"
我怎样才能让我的孩子回来？”
The young man tried to feel the scent of the boy.
年轻人试图感受男孩的气味。
He asked for a photograph and stared at it, a brown-haired kid at his kindergarten graduation.
他要了一张照片，盯着照片看，照片上是一个棕色头发的孩子在幼儿园毕业典礼上的照片。
But the young man had only found objects before, and lost objects at that.
但年轻人之前只发现过东西，然后就失去了东西。
He'd never found anything or anybody stolen.
他从未发现任何东西或任何人被盗。
He wasn't a policeman.
他不是警察。
Mrs. Allen called the police, and one officer showed up at the door.
艾伦夫人报了警，一名警官出现在门口。
"Oh, it's the finding guy," the officer said.
“哦，是那个发现的人，”警官说。
The young man dipped his head modestly.
年轻人谦虚地低下了头。
He turned to his right, to his left, north, south.
他向右转，向左转，向北，向南。
He got a glimmer of a feeling towards the north and walked out the back door through the backyard.
他心中隐隐有一丝向北的感觉，便从后门穿过后院走了出去。
Night approached, and the sky seemed to grow and deepen in the darkness.
夜幕降临，天空似乎在黑暗中变得越来越深。
"What's his name again?" he called back to Mrs. Allen.
“再说一遍，他叫什么名字？”他回拨电话给艾伦太太。
"Leonard," she said.
“伦纳德，”她说。
He heard the policeman pull out a pad and begin to ask basic questions.
他听到警察拿出一本便笺簿，开始问一些基本问题。
He couldn't quite feel him.
他不太能感觉到他。
He felt the air, and he felt the tug inside the Green Star, an object displaced from its original home in Asia.
他感觉到了空气，也感觉到了绿星号内部的拉力，绿星号是一个离开了它原来在亚洲的家园的物体。
He felt the tug of a tree in the front yard, which had been uprooted from Virginia to be replanted here.
他感觉到前院一棵树被拉扯，这棵树是从弗吉尼亚连根拔起，重新栽种在这里的。
And he felt the tug of his own watch, which was from his uncle.
他感觉到自己的手表被拉了一下，那是他叔叔送的。
In an attempt to be fatherly, his uncle had insisted he take it, but they both knew the gesture was false.
为了表现出父亲的慈爱，他的叔叔坚持让他接受，但他们都知道这个举动是错误的。
Maybe the boy was too far away by now.
也许男孩现在已经离得太远了。
He heard the policeman ask, "What is he wearing?"
他听到警察问：“他穿什么？”
Mrs. Allen described a blue shirt, and the young man focused in on the blue shirt.
艾伦夫人描述了一件蓝色衬衫，年轻人把注意力集中在蓝色衬衫上。
He turned off his distractions, and the blue shirt came calling from the northwest, like a distant radio station.
他关掉杂念，蓝色衬衫从西北方向传来呼唤声，就像遥远的广播电台。
The young man went walking and walking.
年轻人走啊走啊。
And about 14 houses down, he felt the blue shirt shrieking at him.
大约 14 栋房子外，他感觉到那件蓝色衬衫在向他尖叫。
And he walked right into the backyard, right through the back door.
他直接从后门走进后院。
And sure enough, there were four people watching TV, including the tear-stained boy with a runny nose eating a candy bar.
果然，有四个人在看电视，其中包括那个流着泪、吃着棒棒糖的男孩。
The young man scooped up the boy while the others watched, so surprised they did nothing.
年轻人抱起了男孩，其他人则在一旁观看，惊讶的是他们什么也没做。
And one even muttered, "Sorry, man."
其中一人甚至嘀咕道：“对不起，伙计。”
For 14 houses back, the young man held Leonard in his arms like a bride.
回到14栋，年轻人像新娘一样将伦纳德抱在怀里。
Leonard stopped sneezing and looked up at the stars.
伦纳德停止了喷嚏，抬头看着星空。
And the young man smelled Leonard's hair, rich with the memory of peanut butter.
年轻人闻到了伦纳德的头发的味道，头发里充满了花生酱的记忆。
He hoped Leonard would ask him a question, any question.
他希望伦纳德能问他一个问题，任何问题。
But Leonard was quiet.
但伦纳德却很安静。
The young man answered in his head.
年轻人在心里回答道。
"Son," he said to himself.
“儿子，”他自言自语道。
And the word rolled around the marble, on a marble floor.
这个词在大理石周围滚动，在大理石地板上滚动。
"Son," he wanted to say.
“儿子，”他想说。
When he reached Mrs. Allen's door, which was wide open, he walked in with quiet Leonard, and Mrs. Allen promptly burst into tears.
当他到达艾伦夫人的门时，门敞开着，他带着安静的伦纳德走进来，艾伦夫人立即泪流满面。
And the policeman slunked out the door.
然后警察就偷偷溜出了门。
She thanked the young man a thousand times, even offered him the Green Star, but he refused it.
她对这个年轻人千谢万谢，甚至向他赠送了绿星勋章，但他拒绝了。
Leonard turned on the TV and curled up on the sofa.
伦纳德打开电视，蜷缩在沙发上。
The young man walked over and asked him about the program he was watching, but Leonard stuck his thumb in his mouth and didn't respond.
年轻人走过去询问他正在看的节目，伦纳德却将拇指放在嘴里，没有回应。
"Feel better," he said softly.
“感觉好多了，”他轻声说道。
Tucking the basketball beneath his arm, the young man walked home, shoulders low.
年轻人把篮球夹在腋下，低着肩膀走回家。
In his tiny room, he undressed and lay in bed.
在狭小的房间里，他脱掉衣服，躺在床上。
Had it been a naked child with nothing on-- no shoes, no necklace, no hair bow, no watch-- he could not have found it.
如果这是一个赤身裸体的孩子，什么也没穿——没有鞋子，没有项链，没有发饰，没有手表——他就不可能找到它。
He lay in bed that night with the trees from other places rustling, and he could feel their confusion.
那天晚上，他躺在床上，外面的树木沙沙作响，他能感觉到它们的困惑。
No snow here, not a lot of rain-- where am I?
这里没有雪，也没有下很多雨——我在哪里？
What is wrong with this dirt?
这污垢有什么问题吗？
Crossing his hands in front of him, he held on to his shoulders.
他双手交叉在身前，抓住了他的肩膀。
Concentrate hard, he thought.
集中精神，他想。
Where are you?
你在哪里？
Everything felt blank and quiet.
一切都显得空白而安静。
He couldn't feel a tug.
他感觉不到拉力。
He squeezed his eyes shut and let the question bubble up.
他闭上眼睛，让问题浮出水面。
Where did you go?
你去哪儿？
Come find me.
来找我吧。
I'm over here.
我在这儿。
Come find me.
来找我吧。
If he listened hard enough, he thought he could hear the waves hitting.
如果他仔细听的话，他想他能听到海浪拍击的声音。
Aimee Bender's short story is called "Loser." It's from her collection of short fiction called The Girl in the Flammable Skirt.
艾米·本德的短篇小说名为《失败者》。这是她的短篇小说集《穿易燃裙子的女孩》的一部分。
It was read for us by Matt Malloy.
马特·马洛伊为我们朗读了这本书。
Well, our program was produced today by Alex Blumberg and myself, with Susan Burton, Blue Chevigny, and Julie Snyder.
好吧，我们今天的节目是由亚历克斯·布隆伯格和我、苏珊·伯顿、布鲁·切维尼和朱莉·斯奈德共同制作的。
Contributing editors, Paul Tough, Jack Hitt, Margy Rochlin, Alix Spiegel, Nancy Updike, and consigliere Sarah Vowell.
特约编辑 Paul Tough、Jack Hitt、Margy Rochlin、Alix Spiegel、Nancy Updike 和顾问 Sarah Vowell。
Production help from Todd Bachmann and Mary Wiltenburg.
托德·巴赫曼 (Todd Bachmann) 和玛丽·威尔滕伯格 (Mary Wiltenburg) 为制作提供帮助。
Marketing help from Marijus Drousceau and the folks at PRI.
Marijus Drousceau 和 PRI 人员提供的营销帮助。
Special thanks today to Marion Roach, Cheryl Miller, Bob Cargee, Robert Kershner, and John O'Leary.
今天特别感谢 Marion Roach、Cheryl Miller、Bob Cargee、Robert Kershner 和 John O'Leary。
To buy a cassette of this or any of our programs, call us here at WBEZ in Chicago, 312-832-3380.
要购买该节目或我们任何节目的磁带，请致电芝加哥的 WBEZ，电话：312-832-3380。
Or you know you can listen to most of our programs for free on the internet at our website, www.thislife.org.
或者您知道您可以在我们的网站 www.thislife.org 上免费收听我们的大部分节目。
Thanks to Elizabeth Meister, who runs the site.
感谢该网站的运营者伊丽莎白·梅斯特 (Elizabeth Meister)。
Thanks to Joanne, Rob, and Dale of the Cola Mail system for hosting our weekly email news update.
感谢 Cola Mail 系统的 Joanne、Rob 和 Dale 主持我们每周的电子邮件新闻更新。
This American Life is distributed by Public Radio International.
《美国生活》由国际公共广播电台发行。
Funding for our show has been provided by Amazon.com, helping you find your next favorite book with over 13 million titles online at Amazon.com.
我们的节目由 Amazon.com 提供资金，帮助您在 Amazon.com 上找到您最喜欢的下一本图书，其中包含超过 1300 万种图书。
Other funding comes from the Capital Group companies, investing for individuals and institutions throughout the world and sponsor of the American Funds group of mutual funds, and from the Corporation for Public Broadcasting, the National Endowment for the Arts, the Albert A.
其他资金来自资本集团公司（为世界各地的个人和机构进行投资）以及美国基金共同基金集团的赞助商，以及来自公共广播公司、国家艺术基金会、阿尔伯特·A·
List Foundation, and the listeners of WBEZ Chicago.
List 基金会和 WBEZ 芝加哥听众。
WBEZ management oversight by Torey Malatia.
WBEZ 管理由 Torey Malatia 监督。
And who does Torey believe when it comes to climate change and global warming?
当谈到气候变化和全球变暖时，托里相信谁？
About a 10-by-5-foot square pool of just gore.
大约有一个 10 乘 5 英尺见方的血池。
I'm Ira Glass, back next week with more stories of This American Life.
我是艾拉·格拉斯，下周回来，带来更多《美国生活》的故事。
This American Life is produced in collaboration with WBEZ Chicago and delivered to stations by PRX The Public Radio Exchange.
《This American Life》与 WBEZ Chicago 合作制作，并由 PRX 公共广播电台传送到各电台。