These are the people Dylann Roof stayed with before the Charleston church shooting

The trailer where Dylann Roof found refuge is faded yellow with a thousand tiny dents.

迪伦·鲁夫 (Dylann Roof) 避难的拖车已褪成黄色，有一千个小凹痕。

It is on the western edge of Columbia, S.C., along an unpaved road strewn with damp garbage, and it is where Roof briefly lived until the day he allegedly killed nine black church members at Emanuel AME Church in Charleston.

它位于南卡罗来纳州哥伦比亚市的西部边缘，沿着一条布满潮湿垃圾的未铺砌道路，鲁夫曾在这里短暂居住过，直到据称他在查尔斯顿的伊曼纽尔 AME 教堂杀害了九名黑人教会成员。

Now, a month after the June 17 shooting, the blinds are drawn at noon and the family that hosted Roof is inside, where the boom of gunfire and explosions is so loud the trailer vibrates.

现在，6 月 17 日枪击事件发生一个月后，百叶窗在中午拉上，接待鲁夫的一家人就在里面，枪声和爆炸声如此之大，拖车都在震动。

Above: The trailer where the Meek brothers live with their mother is in Red Bank, S.C., on the western edge of Columbia.

上图：米克兄弟与母亲居住的拖车位于哥伦比亚西部边缘的南卡罗来纳州雷德班克。

The brothers call the town Dead Bank.

兄弟俩称这个小镇为“死亡银行”。

“Ha ha.

”“哈哈。

I just killed all them mothers,” says Justin Meek, 18, playing a video game in which blood and body parts fly across a 42-inch TV screen.

我刚刚杀了他们所有的母亲，”18 岁的贾斯汀·米克 (Justin Meek) 说道，他正在玩一款视频游戏，其中血液和身体部位在 42 英寸电视屏幕上飞舞。

“You got enemy on the other side!

“你的另一边有敌人！

Use a grenade!” says his brother Jacob, 15.

使用手榴弹！”他的兄弟雅各布说，15 岁。

“Kill yourself!

“自杀吧！

Kill yourself!”

自杀吧！”

On a lopsided couch is Lindsey Fry, 19, flicking her tongue ring, eyes locked on a cracked cellphone for news about the shooting, which has lately included her boyfriend Joey, 21, the third Meek brother who lives in the trailer, which is in a town called Red Bank that the Meeks call Dead Bank.

19 岁的林赛·弗莱 (Lindsey Fry) 坐在倾斜的沙发上，轻弹着舌环，眼睛盯着一部破裂的手机，寻找有关枪击事件的消息，最近的消息包括她 21 岁的男友乔伊 (Joey)，他是住在拖车里的米克的第三个兄弟，拖车所在的小镇名叫红岸 (Red Bank)，米克一家称之为死岸 (Dead Bank)。

“Wow,” she suddenly says and reads aloud what she is seeing on her phone: “The expanded scope of the investigation now includes people with whom Roof associated in the weeks before the June 17 shooting.”

“哇哦，”她突然说道，并大声读出了她在手机上看到的内容：“调查范围扩大了，现在包括了与鲁夫在 6 月 17 日枪击事件发生前几周有联系的人。”

She looks at Joey.

她看着乔伊。

Joey looks at his two brothers and his mother, Kim Konzny.

乔伊看着他的两个兄弟和他的母亲金·康兹尼。

They are the people with whom Roof was associating in the weeks before the shooting, and this is the place he drifted into with little resistance, an American void where little is sacred and little is profane and the dominant reaction to life is what Joey does now, looking at Lindsey.

他们是鲁夫在枪击事件发生前几周与之交往的人，他几乎没有遇到阻力就进入了这个地方，这是一个美国的空虚，没有什么是神圣的，也没有什么是亵渎的，对生活的主要反应就是乔伊现在看着林赛所做的事情。

He shrugs.

他耸耸肩。

For several weeks, Dylann Roof slept on the floor here.

迪伦·鲁夫 (Dylann Roof) 连续几个星期都睡在这里的地板上。

He played video games.

他玩电子游戏。

According to the Meeks, he showed off his new Glock .45-caliber handgun, drank heavily and retreated to his car to listen to opera.

据米克斯夫妇称，他展示了他的新格洛克 0.45 口径手枪，喝了很多酒，然后回到车里听歌剧。

And sometimes he confided in his childhood friend Joey, who wasn’t the type to ask questions.

有时他会向儿时的朋友乔伊吐露心声，但乔伊不是那种爱问问题的人。

When Roof showed up asking Joey for a place to stay, Joey says, he invited him in without hesitation.

乔伊说，当鲁夫出现向乔伊询问住宿地点时，他毫不犹豫地邀请他进来。

When Roof told him that he believed in segregation, Joey didn’t ask why.

当鲁夫告诉他他相信种族隔离时，乔伊没有问为什么。

When Roof mentioned driving two hours to Charleston and visiting a church called Emanuel AME, he didn’t ask anything about it.

当鲁夫提到开车两个小时去查尔斯顿并参观一座名为伊曼纽尔 AME 的教堂时，他没有询问任何事情。

When Roof said that he was going to “do something crazy,” as Joey remembers it, he and Lindsey hid Roof’s gun but then gave it back, blowing it all off as a drunken episode.

正如乔伊所记得的那样，当鲁夫说他要“做一些疯狂的事情”时，他和林赛藏起了鲁夫的枪，但后来又把它归还，把这一切都当作醉酒事件来了。

“I didn’t take him seriously,” is what Joey says again and again to the people who keep asking the same questions again and again, including investigators who arrived at the trailer after one of the most notorious mass killings in recent American history.

“我没有认真对待他，”乔伊一次又一次地对那些不断问同样问题的人说，其中包括在美国近代历史上最臭名昭著的大规模屠杀之一后到达拖车的调查人员。

The Meek brothers -- from left to right Jacob, Joey and Justin -- constantly peek out the window of the trailer.

米克兄弟——从左到右雅各布、乔伊和贾斯汀——不断地向拖车窗外看去。

Law enforcement officials have visited the trailer park several times since Dylann Roof was arrested after nine people were killed at Emanuel AME church in Charleston, S.C.

自从迪伦·鲁夫 (Dylann Roof) 在南卡罗来纳州查尔斯顿的伊曼纽尔 AME 教堂杀害 9 人而被捕以来，执法人员已多次到访拖车公园。

“Who’s here?” Jacob says, jumping up and peeking through the blinds, but the view is the same as ever — no people, an abandoned trailer next door, a skinny pine tree and some empty vodka minis in a patch of weedy grass.

“谁在这里？”雅各布跳起来，透过百叶窗往里看，但景色还是和以前一样——没有人，隔壁有一辆废弃的拖车，一棵瘦小的松树，一片杂草丛生的草地上有一些空的伏特加迷你酒。

Beyond is the whoosh of highway traffic and the rest of Lexington County, a place that is roughly 80 percent white, the result of decades of white flight from neighboring counties and Ku Klux Klan activity, including a drive-by shooting of three black teenagers in 1996 — not that any sense of history filters into the trailer.

远处是公路交通的喧嚣和列克星敦县的其他地方，这个地方大约有 80% 是白人，这是数十年来白人从邻近县逃离和三K党活动的结果，其中包括 1996 年三名黑人青少年的驾车枪击事件——预告片中并没有渗透任何历史感。

“The KKK, that’s one thing I don’t understand,” as Joey says.

“三K党，这是我不明白的一件事，”乔伊说。

“Was the KKK an actual violent thing?”

“三K党真的是暴力组织吗？”

There are no books here, no magazines, and the wood-paneled walls are bare.

这里没有书，没有杂志，木板墙也光秃秃的。

A stained blue towel hangs over the window in the door.

门上的窗户上挂着一条染色的蓝色毛巾。

The only furniture in the living room is the couch, two side tables and a metal stool positioned in front of the TV, which is wired to two large speakers and the Xbox that one of the Meek brothers is always playing.

客厅里唯一的家具是沙发、两张边桌和一个位于电视前面的金属凳子，电视连接着两个大扬声器和米克兄弟之一经常玩的 Xbox。

“Man, blew my car up,” says Justin, 18, a high school dropout who is sitting shirtless on the stool.

“伙计，炸毁了我的车，”18 岁的贾斯汀说，他是一名高中辍学者，光着膀子坐在凳子上。

Kim, 41 and twice divorced, is cleaning.

41 岁的金 (Kim) 曾两次离婚，正在打扫卫生。

She is constantly cleaning.

她不断地打扫卫生。

She wipes the kitchen counters.

她擦厨房柜台。

She straightens the blinds.

她拉直百叶窗。

She folds up the sofa where Lindsey and Joey sleep, folds the sheet and zebra blanket, and drops them in the corner where Roof often lounged, as Jacob does now.

她把林赛和乔伊睡觉的沙发折叠起来，折叠床单和斑马毛毯，然后把它们放在屋顶经常休息的角落里，就像雅各布现在所做的那样。

The trailer's residents: Justin Meek, 18; Jacob Meek, 15; Kim Konzny, 41; Lindsey Fry, 19; and Joey Meek, 21.

拖车里的居民：Justin Meek，18 岁；雅各布·米克，15 岁；金·康兹尼 (Kim Konzny)，41 岁；林赛·弗莱，19 岁；和乔伊·米克，21 岁。

The trailer's residents: Kim Konzny, 41; Joey Meek, 21; Lindsey Fry, 19; Justin Meek, 18; and Jacob Meek, 15.

拖车里的居民：Kim Konzny，41 岁；乔伊·米克，21 岁；林赛·弗莱，19 岁；贾斯汀·米克，18 岁；和雅各布·米克，15。

“Mom, want to know my theory?

“妈妈，想知道我的理论吗？

Dylann stayed here to get revenge on Joey,” says Jacob, but no one pays attention.

迪伦留在这里是为了向乔伊报仇。”雅各布说道，但没有人注意。

He is 15, and wears long-sleeved T-shirts that flop over his hands, a habit developed in middle school, when he used to cut himself.

他今年 15 岁，穿着长袖 T 恤，长袖 T 恤垂在手上，这是他在中学时养成的习惯，当时他经常割伤自己。

He says he stopped doing that when Joey found out, held a knife to his arm and said, “You want to do it?

他说，当乔伊发现后，他就不再这样做了，他拿着一把刀抵着他的手臂说：“你想这么做吗？

Do it right.

做正确的事。

Let’s cut it open, let’s see your bone.” He wears a wristband that says “FEEL,” and he is pacing around the living room when Lindsey, who wound up here after running away from home with a heroin addict, comes out of the shower.

我们把它切开，看看你的骨头。”他戴着一条写着“FEEL”的腕带，他正在客厅里踱来踱去，这时林赛（Lindsey）从淋浴间出来，林赛带着海洛因成瘾者离家出走，来到了这里。

She adjusts a faded pink bra under a thin tank top.

她在薄背心下调整了褪色的粉色胸罩。

She yawns and steps over the floor vent where Joey had her hide Roof’s gun.

她打了个哈欠，跨过地板通风口，乔伊在那里藏了鲁夫的枪。

She settles on the couch with her pit bull puppy, Daisy.

她和她的比特犬小狗黛西坐在沙发上。

“Oh Daisy,” she coos to the dog.

“哦黛西，”她对狗咕咕叫。

She lights a cigarette and starts scrolling on her cellphone.

她点了一支烟，开始玩手机。

“It’s hot,” she says after a while.

“很热，”过了一会儿她说道。

“Jacob, you cold?”

“雅各布，你冷吗？”

“I like the cold,” Jacob says, pulling his sleeves over his hands.

“我喜欢寒冷，”雅各布说着，拉起袖子捂住双手。

“You don’t like the cold?”

“你不喜欢冷吗？”

“You like lake water,” Jacob says mysteriously, but her attention is back to the phone, which she will look at for hours as she waits for Joey, who is out building a fence, an off-the-books day job of the sort available to a high school dropout with a record of juvenile delinquency.

“你喜欢湖水，”雅各布神秘地说，但她的注意力又回到了手机上，在等待乔伊的过程中，她会连续几个小时盯着手机。乔伊正在外面建造栅栏，这是一项不公开的日常工作，适合有青少年犯罪记录的高中辍学生。

In some ways, everything happening in the trailer is because of Joey.

从某种程度上来说，预告片中发生的一切都是因为乔伊。

He has an amateur tattoo on his forearm that says “loyalty,” which translates into an open-door policy for whichever troubled friend happens to show up at the trailer.

他的前臂上有一个业余纹身，上面写着“忠诚”，这意味着对任何碰巧出现在拖车上的麻烦朋友采取开放政策。

Lindsey was one of those, and so was Roof, a childhood friend who got back in touch this spring after a lapse of several years.

林赛（Lindsey）就是其中之一，鲁夫（Roof）也是其中之一，他是一位儿时好友，时隔几年后，今年春天又重新取得了联系。

Joey was happy to hear from him.

乔伊很高兴收到他的来信。

For one thing, Roof had a car and could take them places, including, one day, a lake.

一方面，鲁夫有一辆车，可以带他们去一些地方，包括有一天，去一个湖。

He dropped the Meeks off there and disappeared.

他把米克斯一家丢在那里然后就消失了。

The next day Joey and Lindsey were in the trailer behind theirs with friends when Lindsey saw the news alert on her phone.

第二天，当林赛在手机上看到新闻提醒时，乔伊和林赛正在和朋友们一起待在拖车里。

They went back to their trailer.

他们回到了他们的拖车。

They locked the door and drew the blinds.

他们锁上门并拉上百叶窗。

They turned on the TV and watched the flashing red lights around Emanuel AME.

他们打开电视，看着伊曼纽尔·阿梅周围闪烁的红灯。

A historic black church, Joey now learned.

乔伊现在了解到，这是一座历史悠久的黑人教堂。

A Bible study.

圣经研究。

Nine people.

九个人。

The Meeks stayed up all night, peeking through the blinds, hoping that the suspect still at large was not really the person who had just been in their trailer.

米克斯一家彻夜未眠，透过百叶窗往外看，希望仍然在逃的嫌疑人不是刚刚在他们的拖车里的那个人。

But when the surveillance tape of the blond bowl cut came out the next morning, Joey cursed the TV and called the police.

但第二天早上，当金发碗切的监控录像出来时，乔伊咒骂了电视，并报了警。

He identified the Timberland boots Roof was wearing.

他认出了鲁夫所穿的 Timberland 靴子。

He identified his thin T-shirt and the black marks on it, and with an urgency that startled the Meeks, FBI agents arrived at the trailer door within the hour — coming into the wood-paneled living room, taking two shirts Roof had left, his empty vodka bottles, and then taking Joey.

他认出了他那件薄薄的 T 恤和上面的黑色痕迹，联邦调查局探员的紧迫感让米克斯一家大吃一惊，一小时内就到达了拖车门口——走进木镶板的客厅，拿走了鲁夫留下的两件衬衫和他的空伏特加酒瓶，然后带走了乔伊。

Flowers cover the sidewalk in front of Charleston's Emanuel AME Church, where nine church members were shot and killed on June 17.

查尔斯顿伊曼纽尔 AME 教堂前的人行道上铺满了鲜花，6 月 17 日，该教堂有 9 名教堂成员被枪杀。

He says he was questioned about what Roof had told him, but that after a while, it seemed like the questions were beginning to dwell on the extent of his own involvement.

他说，他被问及鲁夫告诉他的事情，但过了一段时间，问题似乎开始集中在他自己的参与程度上。

Why did he not alert police when Roof intimated his plans?

当鲁夫透露他的计划时，他为什么不报警？

If he suspected Roof on the night of the shooting, as Joey says he did, why did he not call police at that point?

如果他在枪击事件当晚怀疑鲁夫（正如乔伊所说），那么他为什么当时没有报警呢？

Why did he give Roof his gun back?

他为什么把枪还给鲁夫？

“People think it’s my fault,” he says now, home from work, talking with Lindsey.

“人们认为这是我的错，”他现在下班回家，与林赛交谈时说道。

He looks at his cellphone.

他看着手机。

“I bet they have my phone tapped,” says Lindsey, who was also questioned.

“我打赌他们已经窃听了我的电话，”同样受到询问的林赛说。

“Would you believe your friend if they said something like that when they were drunk?” Joey says, shaking his head.

“如果你的朋友喝醉了说出这样的话，你会相信吗？”乔伊摇摇头说道。

“You can’t tell me you would.

“你不能告诉我你会的。

I didn’t believe it.

我不相信。

I brushed it off.”

我把它刷掉了。”

“Well, I said to the FBI, you don’t know what it’s like to be in this situation,” says Lindsey.

“好吧，我对联邦调查局说，你不知道处于这种情况下是什么感觉，”林赛说。

“Exactly,” Joey says, and once again he is going over everything that happened.

“没错，”乔伊说，他再次回顾了所发生的一切。

How he cursed him again as he watched the court hearing where the daughter of a 70-year-old victim said to Roof, “I will never talk to her ever again,” and the mother of a 26-year-old victim said, “Every fiber in my body hurts,” and “You have killed some of the most beautifulest people that I know.”

当他观看法庭听证会时，他如何再次咒骂他，一名 70 岁受害者的女儿对鲁夫说，“我再也不会和她说话了”，而一名 26 岁受害者的母亲则说，“我身体的每一根纤维都受伤了”，“你杀死了我认识的一些最美丽的人。”

How he took away Roof’s gun that drunken night, and how he gave it back.

那个醉酒的夜晚，他如何拿走鲁夫的枪，又如何把它归还。

Why had he given it back?

他为什么还给他？

“I thought he was going to do something that night, in his drunkenness,” Joey says, and as he goes over it again, he starts thinking less about Roof than another friend of his named Shane, and what Shane had done in his own drunkenness.

“我以为他那天晚上喝醉了会做点什么，”乔伊说，当他再次回顾这件事时，他开始更多地想到他的另一个朋友肖恩，以及肖恩在自己喝醉时所做的事情，而不是鲁夫。

Joey Meek, left, watches as his brother Jacob plays a video game while Lindsey Fry does dishes.

乔伊·米克（左）看着他的兄弟雅各布玩电子游戏，而林赛·弗莱洗碗。

One or more of the Meek brothers and their friends are playing the Xbox almost constantly.

米克兄弟中的一个或多个以及他们的朋友几乎一直在玩 Xbox。

Before the trailer, the Meek brothers lived in another part of Lexington, in a house in a subdivision called Ridgewood.

在预告片发布之前，米克兄弟住在列克星敦的另一个地区，位于一个名为里奇伍德的分区的一所房子里。

A family photo from those days shows them smiling in front of a brick fireplace, the boys in button-downs and polos.

一张当时的家庭照片显示，他们在砖砌壁炉前微笑，男孩们穿着纽扣衬衫和马球衫。

Roof had lived on an adjacent street, and Shane lived nearby.

屋顶住在邻近的街道上，谢恩住在附近。

Shane boxed with Justin, taught Jacob survival skills and was closest in age and friendship to Joey.

肖恩与贾斯汀一起拳击，教雅各布生存技能，并且在年龄和友谊上与乔伊最接近。

When he was a teenager, Shane made YouTube videos with titles such as “Shane on Ambien,” in which he stumbles through a disheveled house while several younger kids laugh at him, push him around and swat him with a drumstick.

当他十几岁的时候，肖恩在 YouTube 上制作了一些标题为“Shane on Ambien”的视频，视频中他跌跌撞撞地穿过一间凌乱的房子，几个年幼的孩子嘲笑他，推搡他，还用鸡腿打他。

Shane often stayed with the Meeks, who liked having him around.

谢恩经常和米克斯一家呆在一起，他们喜欢有他在身边。

“Hi, Mom,” he would say to Kim when he came through the door, making her laugh.

“嗨，妈妈，”当他进门时，他会对金说，逗得她笑。

He would stay for weeks at the house in Ridgewood, and when Kim lost the house to foreclosure, he would stay at the trailer, even though he had his own trailer by then.

他会在里奇伍德的房子里待上几个星期，当金因丧失抵押品赎回权而失去房子时，他会留在拖车里，尽管那时他已经有了自己的拖车。

He was around when Roof arrived in May, but the two didn’t interact very much.

鲁夫五月份到来时，他就在附近，但两人互动不多。

Mostly, Shane drank and played video games.

谢恩大部分时间都在喝酒和玩电子游戏。

He was 21 at that point and saying troubling things that none of the Meeks took seriously.

那时他 21 岁，说了一些令人不安的话，但米克一家没有人认真对待。

One day it was about his sorrow over not seeing his newborn son, who was living with his estranged girlfriend in another state.

有一天，他因看不到刚出生的儿子而感到悲伤，儿子与分居的女友住在另一个州。

One day it had to do with being evicted.

有一天，这件事与被驱逐有关。

One night he messaged Justin saying that he was going to drink a bottle of bug poison, and Justin didn’t believe him and went back to playing Xbox.

一天晚上，他给贾斯汀发消息说他要喝一瓶虫药，贾斯汀不相信他，又继续玩 Xbox。

Kim was the first to find out.

金是第一个发现这一情况的人。

She called Joey to say that Shane had put a shotgun in his mouth and killed himself.

她打电话给乔伊，说谢恩把猎枪放进嘴里自杀了。

Joey remembers getting teary, and he also remembers not believing it and asking Roof to drive him over to Shane’s trailer.

乔伊记得自己泪流满面，他还记得自己不敢相信，并要求鲁夫开车送他去肖恩的拖车。

Lindsey and Roof stayed in the car, and Lindsey remembers Roof not saying a word or expressing any kind of emotion.

林赛和鲁夫留在车里，林赛记得鲁夫没有说一句话，也没有表达任何情感。

Joey and Justin, meanwhile, walked up to Shane’s door, half-expecting to see Shane waiting for them, laughing that they fell for his joke.

与此同时，乔伊和贾斯汀走到肖恩的门口，半期待着看到肖恩在等他们，笑着说他们被他的笑话迷惑了。

But then they were inside, seeing Shane’s blood all over the couch, and Joey was getting sick.

但后来他们进了屋，看到沙发上沾满了谢恩的血，乔伊也开始恶心了。

“Anyways, when I was in there I had grabbed his boots — they’re right over there,” Joey says now, pointing to a pair of worn cowboy boots he took from the trailer that night as a memento.

“不管怎样，当我在那里的时候，我抓住了他的靴子——它们就在那里，”乔伊指着那天晚上他从拖车里拿出来作为纪念品的一双破旧的牛仔靴说道。

The boots are mixed into a pile of shoes in the bedroom where sometimes Shane slept, and sometimes Roof slept, and where Justin now drops onto a twin mattress on the floor and closes his eyes.

靴子混在卧室里的一堆鞋子里，有时肖恩睡觉，有时鲁夫睡觉，贾斯汀现在倒在地板上的双人床垫上，闭上眼睛。

A neighbor named Christon Scriven comes in and lies next to Justin.

一位名叫克里斯顿·斯克里文的邻居走进来，躺在贾斯汀旁边。

Christon, who is black, also knew Roof and says of him, “I still love him as a friend.” Then comes a friend they call J.

黑人克里斯顿也认识鲁夫，并谈到他时说：“我仍然像朋友一样爱他。”然后来了一位他们称之为 J 的朋友。

Boogie, and a tattooed guy they call Gizmo, who sits on the carpet.

布吉（Boogie）和坐在地毯上的一个被他们称为“小发明”（Gizmo）的纹身男子。

A brown cigarette is rolled, lit and passed around.

一支棕色香烟被卷起、点燃并传递。

“Joey!” Christon calls into the living room.

“乔伊！”克里斯顿打电话到客厅。

“You’re stupid!”

“你真是个傻子！”

Justin laughs and falls in and out of sleep.

贾斯汀大笑起来，睡了又睡。

Gizmo stumbles to the mattress, drops and sleeps, and after a while, Christon says, “I have no sympathy for people.

小发明跌跌撞撞地走到床垫上，倒地睡着了，过了一会儿，克里斯顿说：“我对人没有同情心。

Nobody has any sympathy for me.

没有人同情我。

I care for me and me only.”

我只关心我自己，也只关心我自己。”

He passes the cigarette to Justin, and Justin drops ashes in the bed, and in the chemical-smelling haze, Christon plays a country song on his phone.

他把香烟递给贾斯汀，贾斯汀把骨灰撒在床上，在化学气味的烟雾中，克里斯顿在手机上播放着一首乡村歌曲。

“Well I caught my wife with a young man and it cost me 99,” he and Justin sing.

“我发现我的妻子和一个年轻人在一起，我花了 99 美元，”他和贾斯汀唱道。

He switches to Lil Wayne.

他换成了李尔·韦恩。

“Family first, you get your family killed,” he and Justin rap, and the dogs start barking.

“家庭第一，你会害死你的家人，”他和贾斯汀说唱，狗开始狂吠。

“The police here?” Christon says.

“警察来了？”克里斯顿说。

Justin looks up.

贾斯汀抬起头。

Joey comes in and looks through the blinds.

乔伊进来，透过百叶窗往外看。

Nothing.

没有什么。

Christon aims a finger at him — “Bang,” he whispers — and Joey leaves.

克里斯顿用一根手指指着他——“砰”，他低声说道——然后乔伊就离开了。

“Somebody!

“有人！

Anybody!” Christon yells, but nobody answers.

任何人！”克里斯顿大喊，但没有人回应。

Soon Justin is asleep again, and Christon is looking at him.

很快贾斯汀又睡着了，克里斯顿正在看着他。

He rubs the back of his hand on Justin’s cheek.

他用手背在贾斯汀的脸颊上摩擦。

He takes a lighter and flicks it at Justin’s hair.

他拿起打火机，在贾斯汀的头发上轻轻弹了一下。

Gizmo wakes up, goes to the kitchen, gets a bottle of syrup and squeezes it into his mouth.

Gizmo醒来，走进厨房，拿了一瓶糖浆，挤进嘴里。

It is nearly sundown when Kim comes home after being out all day.

外出一整天后，金回到家时已近日落。

“She’s here!” Jacob yells, and he gets up to make a frozen pizza.

“她来了！”雅各布大喊一声，然后起身去做冷冻披萨。

Kim yanks up a crumpled hamburger wrapper off the floor.

金猛地从地板上拽起一张皱巴巴的汉堡包纸。

She grabs two plastic cups filled with cigarette butts and empties them into the garbage.

她抓起两个装满烟头的塑料杯，把它们倒进垃圾桶。

“Jacob!” she snaps when he drops the pizza carton on the floor.

“雅各布！”当他把披萨​​盒掉到地板上时，她厉声说道。

“Pick up that trash!

“把那个垃圾捡起来！

Pick it up now!”

赶紧捡起来吧！”

“I’m so tired of these people over here, all day, every day,” Kim yells to no one.

“我厌倦了这里的这些人，每一天，每一天，”金没有对任何人喊道。

“I have no peace!

“我没有平安！

I have no quiet!”

我没有安静！”

She goes into her bedroom on the other side of the trailer and shuts the door.

她走进拖车另一侧的卧室，关上门。

Kim Konzny checks her phone during a break from her job at Waffle House.

金·康兹尼 (Kim Konzny) 在华夫饼屋工作期间休息时查看手机。

She previously worked as a medical technician until losing that job.

她之前曾担任医疗技术员，直到失业。

When she comes out, her long, black hair is piled into a bun.

当她出来时，一头乌黑的长发盘成了一个发髻。

It is near 10 p.m.

现在已是晚上 10 点左右。

She gets into her Toyota, a black Waffle House visor dangling from the rearview mirror, and turns onto the highway.

她钻进自己的丰田汽车，黑色的华夫饼屋遮阳板悬挂在后视镜上，然后转向高速公路。

In the dark mile ahead, the Waffle House is bright and sharp, and this is where Kim found a job after her second husband left, and, as she says, “everything went backwards.”

在前方黑暗的一英里里，华夫饼屋明亮而锐利，这是金在她的第二任丈夫离开后找到工作的地方，正如她所说，“一切都倒退了。”

“Hash browns?” she says at the start of a shift that will end near dawn.

“薯饼？”她在轮班开始时说道，轮班将在黎明时分结束。

She wipes the counters, refills the napkin holders, pours water into the Bunn Automatic, and when break time arrives, goes out into the muggy night.

她擦拭柜台，重新装满餐巾架，将水倒入邦恩自动机中，当休息时间到来时，她就出去进入闷热的夜晚。

She sits on a curb and smokes, scrolling through the phone where she keeps photos of life before the trailer.

她坐在路边抽烟，滚动着手机，手机上保存着预告片发布前的生活照片。

There is the mother and father she loved.

那里有她深爱的母亲和父亲。

A decent childhood in South Carolina.

在南卡罗来纳州度过了美好的童年。

The first husband, a military man.

第一任丈夫是军人。

Joey, Justin and Jacob, who was born in Fairbanks, Alaska, where the husband was stationed and where Kim says he started saying things like “No one could ever love you,” and she left, eventually moving the boys back to South Carolina.

乔伊、贾斯汀和雅各布出生在阿拉斯加的费尔班克斯，丈夫驻扎在那里，金说他开始说“没有人会爱你”之类的话，然后她离开了，最终把孩子们带回了南卡罗来纳州。

The second husband, Sean, her friend since kindergarten.

第二任丈夫肖恩，她从幼儿园起就是朋友。

He is the one in the photo by the fireplace where the boys are in pinstripes and polo shirts, where Kim is smiling, where Jacob, Justin and Joey are smiling, Joey’s chin tilted up slightly, an arm draped around Sean’s shoulder.

他就是照片中壁炉旁的那个人，男孩们穿着细条纹和马球衫，金在微笑，雅各布、贾斯汀和乔伊也在微笑，乔伊的下巴微微翘起，一只手臂搭在肖恩的肩膀上。

“My beautiful family whom I love greatly!” reads the caption.

“我非常爱我美丽的家人！”阅读标题。

This was at the house in Ridgewood.

这是在里奇伍德的房子里。

It was vinyl-sided with two stories and a decent yard.

它是乙烯基的，有两层楼和一个像样的院子。

And though Joey had started climbing out of his bedroom window at night, Sean was trying to keep him in line.

尽管乔伊开始在晚上从卧室窗户爬出去，肖恩还是试图让他遵守规矩。

The boys had friends Kim liked, including the quiet one with a blond bowl cut, and the funny one with dark, curly hair.

男孩们都有金喜欢的朋友，其中包括留着金色碗形发型的安静的，以及有着深色卷发的有趣的。

The family went to church, Kim got her degree as a medical technician and a job in her field, and this was how life was going, she says, until the Friday she came home from Aaron’s rent-to-own furniture store — “He said he wanted an L-shaped couch,” she says.

一家人去教堂，金获得了医疗技术人员的学位，并在她的领域找到了一份工作，她说，这就是生活，直到周五她从亚伦的先租后买的家具店回家——“他说他想要一张 L 形沙发，”她说。

“He said he wanted an ottoman” — and Sean said he was leaving her.

“他说他想要一个脚凳”——肖恩说他要离开她了。

That fall was when Jacob started cutting his arms.

那年秋天，雅各布开始割伤手臂。

Joey dropped out of high school.

乔伊从高中退学。

Kim lost her job, couldn’t afford the house and rented the banged-up trailer off the highway.

金丢了工作，买​​不起房子，于是在高速公路边租了一辆破旧的拖车。

She lost 10 pounds, then 20, and went to a doctor who diagnosed her with anxiety and depression.

她减掉了 10 磅，然后减掉了 20 磅，去看医生，医生诊断她患有焦虑症和抑郁症。

She got the job at Waffle House.

她在华夫饼屋找到了工作。

She got on food stamps.

她领取了食品券。

She started spending hours shut in her bedroom, posting self-help mantras on Facebook, and it was somewhere between “God can restore what is broken” and “Pray to have eyes to see the best in people” that the blond kid became an alleged mass murderer, and the curly-headed one killed himself, and Kim became someone who tries hard not to think about much beyond the next cigarette, which she finishes now as she keeps scrolling in the last minutes of her break.

她开始把几个小时关在卧室里，在脸书上发布自助咒语，介于“上帝可以恢复破碎的东西”和“祈祷有眼睛看到人们最好的一面”之间，金发男孩成为了所谓的大屠杀凶手，卷发男孩自杀了，而金成了一个努力不去想除了下一支烟之外的事情的人，现在她在休息的最后几分钟继续滚动鼠标，现在已经完成了。

“Friend says shooting suspect supported segregation,” reads another.

“朋友说枪击嫌疑人支持种族隔离，”另一位写道。

“Hi Kimmy,” reads a text message from Shane’s mother.

“嗨，金米，”肖恩母亲发来的短信中写道。

“I’ve been a wreck.

“我已经是一片废墟了。

I don’t know how he could have done it.

我不知道他是怎么做到的。

Kimmy, I loved him so much and I can’t stop crying.”

Kimmy，我非常爱他，我无法停止哭泣。”

Kim drops her phone.

金的手机掉了。

The screen cracks.

屏幕破裂。

“Dammit,” she says, and break is over.

“该死，”她说，休息结束了。

Konzny sometimes hangs around at the Waffle House after her shift is over.

康兹尼有时下班后会在华夫饼屋闲逛。

She goes back inside, where a regular says to her, “Hello, little girl.”

她回到里面，一位常客对她说：“你好，小女孩。”

“Working,” she says of the son she is constantly telling to “go out there and grow as a young man” and “get it together” and “stop hanging onto my coat feathers,” and whose video she now shows to the cook.

“工作，”她谈到儿子时，她经常告诉儿子“走出去，成长为一个年轻人”，“振作起来”，“别再挂在我外套的羽毛上”，她现在把儿子的视频拿给厨师看。

“Look, my son’s on TV,” she says, showing him a video of an interview Joey gave after the shooting, talking about Roof.

“看，我儿子上电视了，”她边说边给他看了一段乔伊在枪击事件后接受采访的视频，谈到了屋顶。

The cook glances at the screen and goes back to frying.

厨师看了一眼屏幕，又继续煎炸。

“My son called the FBI at 8:15 that morning — yep.

“那天早上 8 点 15 分，我儿子给 FBI 打电话——是的。

He’s his best friend.

他是他最好的朋友。

Maybe his only friend.” She puts the phone back in her pocket and moves on to her tables.

也许是他唯一的朋友。”她把手机放回口袋，然后走到桌子旁。

After 2 a.m., it is quiet again, and she sits at the counter to eat a plate of scrambled eggs.

凌晨两点多，又安静了，她坐在柜台前吃一盘炒鸡蛋。

“My last day at McDonald’s I wanted to kill everyone,” she says.

“我在麦当劳的最后一天，我想杀掉所有人，”她说。

“I can’t kill myself, because then I’d go to hell, so I’m stuck here,” he says, and fake punches her in the arm.

“我不能自杀，因为那样我就会下地狱，所以我被困在这里，”他说，假装打了她的手臂。

She flinches.

她退缩了。

He holds up a large steak knife and smiles.

他举起一把大牛排刀，微笑着。

She winces and laughs weakly, and Kim finishes eating, drops the heavy plate in the sink and, three hours later, goes back to the trailer to see what is waiting for her there.

她皱起眉头，虚弱地笑了笑，金吃完饭，把沉重的盘子扔进水槽，三小时后，她回到拖车那里，看看那里有什么在等着她。

“You see that?” Lindsey says one day, looking through the blinds, the dogs barking.

“你看到了吗？”林赛说，有一天，她透过百叶窗往外看，狗在吠叫。

“They stopped in the driveway — a white Jeep,” she says, but the white Jeep leaves, and she goes back to scrolling on her cellphone.

“他们停在车道上——一辆白色吉普车，”她说，但白色吉普车离开了，她又继续刷手机。

Another day, Justin is playing Xbox, grenades exploding, bodies flying, and he says, “Mom, when did Shane die?”

另一天，贾斯汀正在玩 Xbox，手榴弹爆炸，尸体飞扬，他说：“妈妈，肖恩什么时候死的？”

“Why bring up that subject?” Jacob says, pacing, sleeves flopping.

“为什么要提这个话题？”雅各布一边踱着步，一边说着，袖子随风飘动。

“Why?”

“为什么？”

Another day, Kim goes into her bedroom, closes the door, smokes a cigarette and says, “It’s like we’re being punished for something, only I can’t figure out what.”

另一天，金走进她的卧室，关上门，抽了一支烟，说道：“就像我们因为某件事而受到惩罚，只是我不知道是什么。”

Another day, Jacob opens the door and stands next to Kim, who is in bed scrolling with one hand, smoking with the other.

另一天，雅各布打开门，站在金旁边，金正躺在床上，一只手滚动，另一只手抽烟。

“Mom, Mom,” he says, nudging close to her, but she inches away, and he goes back to the living room, where Lindsey is hugging her puppy, who keeps throwing up.

“妈妈，妈妈，”他说着，轻轻地靠近她，但她离她只有几英寸远，然后他回到客厅，林赛正在拥抱她的小狗，它一直在呕吐。

Another day, Joey comes home from work with another friend in need of a place to stay for a while, this one named Brandon, who pours himself a glass of iced tea and sits on the living-room floor.

另一天，乔伊和另一位朋友下班回家，需要一个地方住一段时间，这个朋友名叫布兰登，他给自己倒了一杯冰茶，坐在客厅地板上。

The drinking continues.

喝酒还在继续。

The smoking continues.

抽烟还在继续。

The chemical haze continues.

化学烟雾仍在持续。

The cellphone scrolling continues.

手机继续滚动。

The blinds stay shut.

百叶窗保持关闭状态。

The blue towel hangs, and the shrugging continues, too, right up until one night when, as they will recall later, there’s a knock at the door.

蓝色的毛巾挂在上面，耸肩的动作也在继续，直到有一天晚上，正如他们后来回忆的那样，有人敲门。

It is a man no one knows except Brandon, who had argued with Brandon earlier and who now barges into the trailer, pulls out a handgun and cocks it.

这是一个除了布兰登之外没有人认识的人，他早些时候曾与布兰登发生争执，现在他闯入拖车，掏出一把手枪并拉上扳机。

He points the gun at Brandon.

他用枪指着布兰登。

He points it at Jacob.

他把它指向雅各布。

He points it at Justin.

他把它指向贾斯汀。

He points it at Lindsey.

他把它指向林赛。

He points it at Joey, who stands up in the middle of the living room and says, “Shoot me.”

他把枪指向乔伊，乔伊站在客厅中央说：“开枪打我。”

“Shoot me,” he says again, moving closer, and he keeps saying it.

“开枪打我，”他再次说道，靠近了一些，并且一直这样说。

“If you’re going to shoot anybody, shoot me,” he says, and as he closes in on the man, the man begins backing up.

“如果你要开枪打死任何人，那就开枪打死我吧。”他说道，当他逼近那个人时，那个人开始后退。

“Shoot me,” Joey keeps saying, and now the man is out of the trailer and putting his gun back into his waistband, and Joey is escorting him up the rutted road, and the man is walking toward the highway, disappearing into the dark, and now Joey is shaking.

“开枪打我，”乔伊不停地说，现在那个人从拖车里出来，把枪插回腰带，乔伊护送他走上车辙痕迹的道路，那个人朝高速公路走去，消失在黑暗中，现在乔伊浑身发抖。

He keeps shaking and is unable to stop.

他一直在颤抖，无法停止。

He tries to steady himself by sitting down on his knees.

他坐在膝盖上试图稳定自己。

He tries to breathe.

他试着呼吸。

He curses.

他咒骂道。

He gets up, and as he walks back toward the trailer, he punches a tree trunk twice, hard enough to bloody his knuckles.

他站起来，当他走回拖车时，他用拳头打了树干两拳，力度大到让他的指关节流血。

It's a common scene in the trailer: Kim Konzny vacuums as her son Jacob plays video games and Lindsey checks her phone.

这是预告片中常见的场景：金·康兹尼 (Kim Konzny) 在儿子雅各布 (Jacob) 玩电子游戏时用吸尘器吸尘，而林赛 (Lindsey) 在检查她的手机。

A parade of visitors to the trailer is not uncommon.

一大群游客参观拖车的情况并不少见。

“I’m so tired of these people over here, all day, every day,” Kim said.

“我厌倦了这里的这些人，每一天，每一天，”金说。

“I thought I was about to die.

“我以为我快要死了。

I thought we were all about to die,” says Lindsey, but the emotion is drained from her voice, and from all their voices, and Lindsey goes back to scrolling through her phone, where a friend has posted a photo of a blank white flag and the caption, “Welcome to the new U.S.A.

我以为我们都快要死了，”林赛说，但她的声音和他们所有人的声音中的情感都消失了，林赛又继续滚动她的手机，一位朋友贴出了一张空白白旗的照片和标题，“欢迎来到新的美国。

— We stand for nothing.”

——我们毫无意义。”

Kim is in her bedroom, the door shut.

金在她的卧室里，门关着。

Jacob is pacing around the living room, sleeves flopping.

雅各布在客厅里踱来踱去，衣袖随风飘动。

Justin is on the Xbox, and the sound of explosions rattles the walls.

贾斯汀正在玩 Xbox，爆炸声震得墙壁震颤。

When Joey comes home, he lays on the plastic-covered twin mattress where Dylann Roof once slept, and now Lindsey and Daisy lie down next to him.

当乔伊回家时，他躺在迪伦·鲁夫曾经睡过的塑料单人床垫上，现在林赛和黛西躺在他旁边。

“I’m wondering how I can get away from all this,” he says.

“我想知道如何才能摆脱这一切，”他说。

“If it was my choice and I had the money?

“如果这是我的选择并且我有钱呢？

I’d have a mile-long driveway surrounded by acres of woods.

我有一条一英里长的车道，周围环绕着几英亩的树林。

Have nothing to worry about.

无需担心。

People’d be scared to walk down the driveway it’d be so dark.”

天这么黑，人们会害怕走在车道上。”

“What time is it?” Lindsey asks after a while, but Joey doesn’t answer.

“现在是几奌？”过了一会儿，林赛问道，但乔伊没有回答。

He is looking at the puppy, who has been throwing up again.

他看着小狗，它又吐了。

He’s trying to see what’s wrong.

他想看看出了什么问题。

“7:22,” Joey finally says, putting his hand on Daisy’s chest.

“7点22分，”乔伊最后说道，把手放在黛西的胸口上。

He holds it there.

他把它放在那里。

He looks at Lindsey.

他看着林赛。

He looks at Daisy.

他看着黛西。

He is startled.

他吓了一跳。

“I don’t feel a heartbeat,” he says, even though it is there.

“我感觉不到心跳，”他说，尽管心跳就在那里。

“How come I can’t feel it?”

“我怎么感觉不到？”

The Williams family fled to rural Nebraska for the promise of a fresh start.

威廉姆斯一家逃到内布拉斯加州乡村，寻求新的开始。

Now they’re in need of rescue again.

现在他们再次需要救援。

Paul Gayle had no job, no money, a new baby and 16 lessons from the Obama administration to teach him what to do next.

保罗·盖尔 (Paul Gayle) 没有工作，没有钱，没有新生儿，也没有奥巴马政府给他的 16 堂课来教他下一步该做什么。