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The English language has a million words, but only one for the two kinds of forgiveness.

英语有一百万个单词，但只有一个单词代表两种宽恕。

This is a major failure.

这是一个重大失败。

The two kinds may be similar at the molecular level but they are far removed in magnitude.

这两种类型在分子水平上可能相似，但在数量上却相差甚远。

Like a candle flame and a volcano, an April shower and a hurricane, a soft tremor beneath your feet and the great San Francisco earthquake.

就像蜡烛的火焰和火山，四月的阵雨和飓风，脚下的轻微颤抖和旧金山大地震。

The first kind of forgiveness is the easy kind.

第一种宽恕是简单的宽恕。

Someone wounds you, and in time this offender comes to see what he has done.

有人伤害了你，这个罪犯最终会过来看看他做了什么。

He returns to lay the crime at your feet.

他回来将罪行归咎于你。

And when you reach down to pull him up a sort of charge passes between you, a cleansing force that refreshes both souls.

当你伸手把他拉起来时，一种电荷在你们之间传递，一种净化的力量，让双方的灵魂都焕然一新。

Candle flame and volcano.

蜡烛火焰和火山。

The second kind of forgiveness is a rare occurrence that becomes rarer as the crime grows more severe.

第二种宽恕是一种罕见的情况，随着犯罪变得更加严重，这种情况也会变得更加罕见。

In this case the offender gives nothing.

在这种情况下，犯罪者什么也不提供。

He never comes to you.

他永远不会来找你。

And when you go to him, he turns you away.

当你去找他时，他却把你拒之门外。

This leaves you alone with your open wound and a solitary choice.

这让你独自面对开放性伤口和孤独的选择。

No one will blame you either way.

无论哪种方式都没有人会责怪你。

But the wound is yours to keep, or let go, and that choice may plot the course for the rest of your life.

但伤口是你的，要么保留，要么放开，这个选择可能会影响你的余生。

One night 13 years ago a wound was opened in the dark, in a place deep in the abdomen that surgeons call the seat of the soul.

13年前的一个晚上，腹部深处的一个伤口在黑暗中被切开，这个地方被外科医生称为灵魂之所在。

The wound was a subterranean river, and it was not closed off until there was no more blood to lose.

伤口是一条地下河，直到不再流血才将其封闭。

Professional athletes have done many terrible things over the years, but this was probably the worst.

多年来，职业运动员做了很多可怕的事情，但这可能是最糟糕的。

An unborn boy lay in the dark near the rising lake of his mother's blood, and soon he would join her on the brink of death.

一个未出生的男孩躺在黑暗中，靠近他母亲不断上涨的血湖，很快他就会和她一起濒临死亡。

The mother had a mother, and this story is about her.

母亲有母亲，这个故事就是关于她的。

She came from the Piedmont of North Carolina, with its valleys full of corn and cotton, and her people were good and prosperous.

她来自北卡罗来纳州的皮埃蒙特，那里的山谷里盛产玉米和棉花，她的人民善良而繁荣。

You can go to Kings Mountain today and find Jack Adams Road, named for her father.

今天您可以前往国王山，找到以她父亲的名字命名的杰克·亚当斯路 (Jack Adams Road)。

He was one of six brothers who sang in a gospel group and worshipped in a redbrick edifice called Mount Olive Baptist Church.

他是福音团体中的六位兄弟之一，他们在一座名为橄榄山浸信会教堂的红砖建筑中进行礼拜。

You can go to this church today and see the place where Saundra Adams grew up.

今天你可以去这座教堂，看看桑德拉·亚当斯长大的地方。

That is her name.

那是她的名字。

Saundra Adams.

桑德拉·亚当斯。

What she learned at Mount Olive was an overwhelming sense of gratitude for life.

她在橄榄山学到的是对生活的强烈感激之情。

The sense that you don't wake up unless God opens your eyes, don't see the rising sun unless God pulls it from the horizon, don't put food in your mouth unless God helps you hold the fork.

除非上帝睁开你的眼睛，否则你不会醒来；除非上帝把它从地平线拉出来，否则你不会看到冉冉升起的太阳；除非上帝帮助你握住叉子，否则你不会把食物放进嘴里。

And you do all these things and you rejoice.

当你做所有这些事情时，你会感到高兴。

Saundra was 16 when she and a boy gave in to their desires, and she was 17 when Cherica was born.

桑德拉 (Saundra) 16 岁时，她和一个男孩屈服于自己的欲望；切里卡 (Cherica) 出生时，她 17 岁。

About to start her senior year in high school.

即将开始她的高中四年级。

Saundra's father was plowing his cornfield when she went into labor, and he wanted to finish, so they were late to the hospital.

当桑德拉临产时，她的父亲正在犁玉米地，他想完成工作，所以他们迟到了医院。

There Saundra was in the backseat of that Chevy Caprice, trying to hold Cherica in, and Cherica kept coming, and Saundra kept holding, and Cherica kept coming, and from the day she was born to the day she died she had a bald spot on top of her head about the size of her mother's fingertip.

桑德拉坐在那辆雪佛兰随想曲的后座上，试图把切里卡抱住，切里卡不断地来，桑德拉不断地抱着，切里卡不断地来，从她出生的那天到她去世的那天，她的头顶上有一个秃顶，大约有她母亲的指尖那么大。

It was 1975 in rural North Carolina.

那是 1975 年的北卡罗来纳州乡村。

A girl in this situation was expected to move away or at least quit school.

处于这种情况的女孩应该搬走或至少退学。

But they were Adamses, hardworking, successful, and her mother and father expected her to graduate.

但他们是亚当斯，勤奋、成功，她的父母希望她毕业。

They would help with the baby.

他们会帮忙带孩子。

They were disappointed by her reckless behavior, but Jack was thrilled for another chance to sustain the Adams bloodline.

他们对她鲁莽的行为感到失望，但杰克很高兴有另一个机会维持亚当斯血统。

He took Cherica riding on his tractor and told her she would have many children.

他带着切丽卡骑上拖拉机，并告诉她她会有很多孩子。

After graduation Saundra's parents said, Go on to college.

毕业后，桑德拉的父母说，继续上大学。

Make something of yourself.

做一些自己的事情。

We'll keep Cherica.

我们会保留切丽卡。

You can see her every weekend.

每个周末你都可以见到她。

So Saundra did.

桑德拉就是这么做的。

She got a psychology degree from UNC-Charlotte and a good job in personnel at IBM.

她在北卡罗来纳大学夏洛特分校获得了心理学学位，并在 IBM 的人事部门找到了一份不错的工作。

And she brought Cherica to Charlotte to grow up.

她把切丽卡带到夏洛特长大。

Cherica grew up fast, and soon she was living a fast life.

切丽卡长大得很快，很快她就过上了快节奏的生活。

She had these deep brown eyes and this willowy frame, and the men took note.

她有一双深棕色的眼睛和苗条的身材，男人们注意到了。

She modeled in clothing advertisements and sold real estate.

她担任服装广告模特并出售房地产。

She earned enough to buy a black BMW and a red Mitsubishi coupé.

她赚的钱足够买一辆黑色宝马和一辆红色三菱轿跑车。

She danced at the Diamond Club and ran in the circles of the newly rich.

她在钻石俱乐部跳舞，在新贵圈子里奔跑。

She mingled with the Hornets and the Panthers, and one day at a barbecue in the summer of 1998 she met a young wide receiver named Rae Carruth.

她与黄蜂队和黑豹队混在一起，1998 年夏天的一天，在一次烧烤会上，她遇到了一位名叫雷·卡鲁斯 (Rae Carruth) 的年轻外接手。

What did Cherica Adams know about Rae Carruth?

切丽卡·亚当斯对雷·卡鲁斯了解多少？

He certainly looked like a good catch.

他看起来确实是一个不错的收获。

Even Saundra found him handsome and charming.

就连桑德拉也觉得他英俊迷人。

Five-foot-eleven, 194 pounds; strength of a running back, speed of a sprinter.

身高 5 英尺 11 英寸，体重 194 磅；跑卫的力量，短跑运动员的速度。

He had come out of a rough neighborhood in Sacramento without a mark on his record.

他来自萨克拉门托的一个简陋社区，在他的记录上没有留下任何痕迹。

At Colorado he was perhaps the best deep-route receiver in college football, but he saw himself as an intellectual.

在科罗拉多州，他也许是大学橄榄球中最好的深线接球手，但他认为自己是一个知识分子。

He was the Panthers' first-round draft pick in 1997, and he had the talent to be a superstar if he could just stop getting injured.

他是1997年黑豹队的首轮选秀球员，如果他能停止受伤，他就有成为超级巨星的天赋。

If football didn't work out, he could fall back on writing novels, writing screenplays, directing films.

如果足球不成功，他可以转而写小说、写剧本、导演电影。