‘I’m No Longer Afraid’: 35 Women Tell Their Stories About Being Assaulted by Bill Cosby, and the Culture That Wouldn’t Listen

M ore has changed in the past few years for women who allege rape than in all the decades since the women’s movement began.

过去几年，指控强奸的女性所发生的变化比妇女运动开始以来的几十年还要大。

Consider the evidence of October 2014, when a Philadelphia magazine reporter at a Hannibal Buress show uploaded a clip of the comedian talking about Bill Cosby: “He gets on TV, ‘Pull your pants up, black people … I can talk down to you because I had a successful sitcom.’ Yeah, but you rape women, Bill Cosby, so turn the crazy down a couple notches … I guess I want to just at least make it weird for you to watch Cosby Show reruns.

想想 2014 年 10 月的证据，当时一位费城杂志记者在汉尼拔·布勒斯 (Hannibal Buress) 节目中上传了喜剧演员谈论比尔·科斯比 (Bill Cosby) 的片段：“他上电视了，”黑人，把你的裤子拉起来......我可以居高临下地对你说话，因为我有一部成功的情景喜剧。“是的，但你强奸了女人，比尔·科斯比，所以把疯狂程度降低几个档次......我我想我至少想让你在观看科斯比秀重播时感到奇怪。

Dude’s image, for the most part, it’s fucking public Teflon image.

这家伙的形象，在很大程度上，是他妈的公共聚四氟乙烯形象。

I’ve done this bit onstage and people think I’m making it up … That shit is upsetting.” The bit went viral swiftly, with irreversible, calamitous consequences for Cosby’s reputation.

我在舞台上做了这件事，人们认为我是在编造……这太令人不安了。这件事迅速传播开来，给科斯比的声誉带来了不可逆转的灾难性后果。

Perhaps the most shocking thing wasn’t that Buress had called Cosby a rapist; it was that the world had actually heard him.

也许最令人震惊的不是布雷斯称科斯比为强奸犯，而是布雷斯称科斯比为强奸犯。而是世界真正听到了他的声音。

A decade earlier, 14 women had accused Cosby of rape.

十年前，14 名女性指控科斯比强奸。

In 2005, a former basketball star named Andrea Constand, who met Cosby when she was working in the athletic department at Temple University, where he served on the board of trustees, alleged to authorities that he had drugged her to a state of semi-consciousness and then groped and digitally penetrated her.

2005 年，前篮球明星安德里亚·康斯坦德 (Andrea Constand) 向当局指控，科斯比在天普大学体育系工作时认识了科斯比，科斯比是该大学的董事会成员，科斯比给她下了药，使其处于半意识状态，然后对她进行了摸索和电子渗透。

After her allegations were made public, a California lawyer named Tamara Green appeared on the Today show and said that, 30 years earlier, Cosby had drugged and assaulted her as well.

在她的指控被公开后，一位名叫塔玛拉·格林 (Tamara Green) 的加州律师出现在《今日》节目中，表示 30 年前，科斯比也曾对她下药并性侵过她。

Eventually, 12 Jane Does signed up to tell their own stories of being assaulted by Cosby in support of Constand’s case.

最终，12 名简·杜斯报名讲述自己被科斯比袭击的故事，以支持康斯坦德的案件。

Several of them eventually made their names public.

其中一些人最终将自己的名字公开。

But they were met, mostly, with skepticism, threats, and attacks on their character.

但他们遭到的大多是怀疑、威胁和对其品格的攻击。

Johnson got a call from her agent saying Cosby wanted Johnson to audition for a small role on The Cosby Show .

约翰逊接到经纪人的电话，说科斯比希望约翰逊参加《科斯比秀》中一个小角色的试镜。

Johnson met Cosby on the set, where he invited her to come over to his house to read for a part.

约翰逊在片场遇见了考斯比，他邀请她到他家来朗读一个角色。

The first time, Johnson brought her young daughter with her.

第一次，约翰逊带着她的小女儿。

Cosby served them brunch and gave them a tour of the house.

科斯比为他们提供了早午餐，并带他们参观了房子。

Johnson returned a second time, alone.

约翰逊第二次回来，独自一人。

They talked about her career and Cosby led her upstairs, under the pretense that they would rehearse.

他们谈论了她的职业生涯，科斯比带着她上楼，假装他们要排练。

Cosby had a big espresso machine installed in the room, and he insisted Johnson have a cup.

科斯比在房间里安装了一台大型浓缩咖啡机，他坚持要求约翰逊喝一杯。

She didn’t want to argue, and took two sips.

她不想争辩，喝了两口。

After the second, she knew she had been drugged.

第二次之后，她知道自己被下了药。

Cosby approached her, and put his hand on her waist.

科斯比走近她，把手放在她的腰上。

Johnson cursed him and called him out for drugging her.

约翰逊咒骂了他，并指责他给她下药。

Cosby grabbed her arm and almost dragged her down the stairs, out of the house, and into a cab.

科斯比抓住她的手臂，几乎把她拖下楼梯，拖出房子，拖进出租车。

“In the end, just like the other women, I had too much to lose to go after Bill Cosby,” Johnson wrote in her initial public testimonial about the incident, in Vanity Fair , in December 2014.

“最后，就像其他女性一样，我失去了太多的东西，无法追随比尔·考斯比，”约翰逊在 2014 年 12 月《名利场》上关于这一事件的首次公开证词中写道。

“It comes at an inopportune time for a black man of Cosby’s stature.

——对于像科斯比这样身材的黑人来说，这一切来得不合时宜。

It’s a conversation of race very much needed in this country for centuries, and there’s a conversation about violence against women that’s also needed.

这是这个国家几个世纪以来非常需要的关于种族的对话，而且也需要关于暴力侵害妇女行为的对话。

You have these two conversations happening.

你们正在发生这两个对话。

Just so happens that I am a black woman.

碰巧我是一名黑人女性。

Once I made the decision, I knew that [it] was going to be fraught with a lot of conflicting views.

一旦我做出决定，我就知道将会充满很多相互矛盾的观点。

No one wants to be victimized again.”

没有人愿意再次成为受害者。”

In Cosby’s deposition for the Constand case , revealed to the public just last week, the comedian admitted pursuing sex with young women with the aid of Quaaludes, which can render a person functionally immobile.

在上周刚刚向公众披露的科斯比康斯坦德案的证词中，这位喜剧演员承认在安眠药的帮助下与年轻女性发生性关系，安眠药可以使人失去行动能力。

“I used them,” he said, “the same as a person would say, ‘Have a drink.’†” He asked a modeling agent to connect him with young women who were new in town and “financially not doing well.” In the deposition, Cosby seemed confident that his behavior did not constitute rape; he apparently saw little difference between buying someone dinner in pursuit of sex and drugging them to reach the same goal.

“我用它们，”他说，“就像一个人会说‘喝一杯’一样。”他请一位模特经纪人为他介绍一些刚进城、“经济状况不佳”的年轻女性。在证词中，科斯比似乎确信自己的行为不构成强奸；他显然认为请某人吃饭以追求性和给他们下药以达到同一目标之间没有什么区别。

As for consent, he said, “I think that I’m a pretty decent reader of people and their emotions in these romantic sexual things.” If these women agreed to meet up, his deposition suggested, he felt that he had a right to them.

至于同意，他说，“我认为我是一个相当不错的读者，了解人们以及他们在这些浪漫的性事物中的情感。”他的证词表明，如果这些女性同意见面，他就觉得自己有权与她们见面。

And part of what took the accusations against Cosby so long to surface is that this belief extended to many of the women themselves (as well as the staff and lawyers and friends and others who helped keep the incidents secret).

对科斯比的指控之所以这么长时间才浮出水面，部分原因是这种信念延伸到了许多女性本身（以及工作人员、律师、朋友和其他帮助保守事件秘密的人）。

Months after his depositions, Cosby settled the case with Constand.

科斯比作证几个月后，与康斯坦德和解。

The accusations quickly faded from the public’s memory, if they registered at all.

这些指控很快就从公众的记忆中消失了，即使它们还记得的话。

No one wanted to believe the TV dad in a cardigan was capable of such things, and so they didn’t.

没有人愿意相信穿着羊毛衫的电视爸爸有能力做出这样的事情，所以他们没有这么做。

The National Enquirer had planned to run a big story detailing one of the women’s accounts, but the magazine pulled it when Cosby agreed to give them a two-page exclusive telling his side (essentially that these were instances that had been “misinterpreted”).

《国家问询报》原本计划刊登一篇大篇幅的报道，详细介绍其中一位女性的叙述，但当科斯比同意给他们一份两页的独家报道来讲述他的观点（本质上这些都是被“误解”的实例）后，该杂志取消了该报道。

People ran a piece in which some of the Jane Does told their stories under their own names, bolstering Constand’s account, but Cosby’s career rolled on.

人们发表了一篇文章，其中一些简·迪以自己的名义讲述了自己的故事，支持了康斯坦德的说法，但科斯比的职业生涯仍在继续。

In 2014 alone, there was a stand-up special, plans for a new family comedy on NBC, and a high-profile biography by Mark Whitaker that glossed over the accusations.

仅 2014 年，就有一部单口喜剧特辑、NBC 计划制作一部新的家庭喜剧，以及马克·惠特克 (Mark Whitaker) 撰写的高调传记掩盖了这些指控。

The group of women Cosby allegedly assaulted functions almost as a longitudinal study — both for how an individual woman, on her own, deals with such trauma over the decades and for how the culture at large has grappled with rape over the same time period.

据称，科斯比遭受性侵犯的女性群体几乎是一项纵向研究——既是为了了解单个女性在过去几十年里如何独自应对这种创伤，也是为了了解整个文化在同一时期如何应对强奸问题。

In the ’60s, when the first alleged assault by Cosby occurred, rape was considered to be something violent committed by a stranger; acquaintance rape didn’t register as such, even for the women experiencing it.

20世纪60年代，当科斯比发生第一起涉嫌袭击事件时，强奸被认为是陌生人实施的暴力行为；熟人强奸并没有被记录下来，即使对于经历过这种行为的女性来说也是如此。

A few of Cosby’s accusers claim that he molested or raped them multiple times; one remained in his orbit, in and out of a drugged state, for years.

科斯比的一些原告声称他多次猥亵或强奸了他们；其中一个在他的轨道上停留了数年，时而处于吸毒状态，时而处于吸毒状态。

In the ’70s and ’80s, campus movements like Take Back the Night and “No Means No” helped raise awareness of the reality that 80 to 90 percent of victims know their attacker.

在 70 年代和 80 年代，“夺回夜晚”和“No Means No”等校园运动帮助人们认识到 80% 至 90% 的受害者认识攻击者这一现实。

Still, the culture of silence and shame lingered, especially when the men accused had any kind of status.

尽管如此，沉默和羞耻的文化依然存在，尤其是当被指控的人拥有某种地位时。

The first assumption was that women who accused famous men were after money or attention.

第一个假设是，指责名人的女性是为了金钱或关注。

As Cosby allegedly told some of his victims: No one would believe you.

正如科斯比据称告诉他的一些受害者的那样：没有人会相信你。

So why speak up?

那么为什么要大声说话呢？

Then-22-year-old Steuer worked at the University of Massachusetts and met Cosby there after he gave a lecture in 1978.

当时 22 岁的斯托尔在马萨诸塞大学工作，并在 1978 年演讲后在那里结识了科斯比。

He offered to mentor Steuer as she pursued a singing career.

他主动提出在斯图尔追求歌唱事业时为她提供指导。

Cosby later invited her to a dinner party at his Massachusetts home.

科斯比后来邀请她参加他在马萨诸塞州的家中举行的晚宴。

When Steuer got there, the table was set for just two people.

当斯图尔到达那里时，桌子上只摆了两个人。

Cosby handed Steuer a drink and insisted she perform an improv exercise, pretending she was a queen with oatmeal covering her face.

科斯比递给斯图尔一杯饮料，并坚持要求她进行即兴练习，假装她是脸上覆盖着燕麦片的女王。

She began to feel woozy.

她开始感到头晕。

Her next memory is of Cosby standing above her — her clothes off — in a bathrobe.

她的下一个记忆是科斯比站在她上方——她脱掉了衣服——穿着浴袍。

He handed her a toothbrush, telling her she had gotten sick and passed out in his guestroom.

他递给她一把牙刷，告诉她她生病了，在他的客房里昏倒了。

Steuer went home, still unsure of what actually happened to her.

斯图尔回到家，仍然不确定自己到底发生了什么事。

Cosby kept in touch, arranging for acting lessons and a gym membership for her.

科斯比一直保持联系，为她安排表演课程和健身房会员资格。

He invited Steuer to events, but nothing more occurred until he asked her to join him in Atlantic City.

他邀请斯图尔参加活动，但什么也没发生，直到他邀请她去大西洋城和他一起。

In the evening, she met him in his suite, where he handed her two large pills and a glass of Champagne.

晚上，她在他的套房遇见了他，他递给她两颗大药丸和一杯香槟。

The next morning, she woke up naked in one of the rooms of his suite.

第二天早上，她在他套房的一间房间里赤身裸体醒来。

Steuer joined on as a Jane Doe in the 2005 Andrea Constand lawsuit; she had initially wanted a pseudonym in New York , but when the news broke that Cosby admitted in depositions that he’d given women quaaludes, she sent an email saying that protection wasn’t necessary.

2005 年，斯托尔以无名氏身份参与了安德里亚·康斯坦德 (Andrea Constand) 诉讼；她最初想在纽约使用化名，但当科斯比在证词中承认他给女性带来安眠药的消息传出时，她发了一封电子邮件说没有必要提供保护。

“He can no longer claim that we are lying,” she wrote.

“他不能再声称我们在撒谎，”她写道。

“I wanted to spend time with him because this is the man who said he was going to help me with my career.

– 我想和他共度时光，因为这个人说他会在我的职业生涯中帮助我。

So I thought, ‘Okay, I'll take the pills.’ I really had no idea what his modus operandi was.

所以我想，“好吧，我吃药吧。”我真的不知道他的作案手法是什么。

Not that I blame myself, or that I feel responsible, but I allowed my ambition to overrule my judgment.

并不是我责备自己，也不是我感到有责任，而是我让自己的野心推翻了自己的判断。

I placed my trust in a flawed human being.

我信任一个有缺陷的人。

I don't want to ever be seen as his victim.

我不想被视为他的受害者。

What happened happened.

发生的事情发生了。

I told the man that I was going to marry, whom I met shortly after that.

我告诉那个男人我要结婚了，不久之后我就认识了他。

I told some of my friends.

我告诉了我的一些朋友。

I got a mixture of disbelief, but I didn't get a lot of encouragement to go to the authorities because, in the late '70s, women didn't challenge powerful men.”

我心里有些难以置信，但我并没有得到太多鼓励去向当局举报，因为在 70 年代末，女性不会挑战有权有势的男性。”

But among younger women, and particularly online, there is a strong sense now that speaking up is the only thing to do, that a woman claiming her own victimhood is more powerful than any other weapon in the fight against rape.

但在年轻女性中，尤其是在网上，现在有一种强烈的感觉，那就是大声疾呼是唯一要做的事情，声称自己是受害者的女性在打击强奸方面比任何其他武器都更强大。

Emma Sulkowicz, carrying her mattress around Columbia in a performance-art protest of her alleged rape, is an extreme practitioner of this idea.

艾玛·苏尔科维奇（Emma Sulkowicz）带着床垫在哥伦比亚各地进行表演艺术抗议她被指控的强奸，她就是这一想法的极端实践者。

This is a generation that’s been radicalized, in just the past few years, by horrific examples of rape and reactions to rape — like the 2012 Steubenville incident , in which high-school football players brutally violated a passed-out teenage girl at a party and photographed and braggingly circulated the evidence.

就在过去的几年里，这一代人因可怕的强奸事例和对强奸的反应而变得激进——比如2012年斯托本维尔事件，其中高中橄榄球运动员在一次聚会上残忍地侵犯了一名昏倒的少女，并拍下照片并吹嘘传播证据。

That same year, when a 14-year-old Missouri cheerleader accused a popular older boy at her school of sexual assault, her classmates shamed her on social media and the family’s house was burned down.

同年，密苏里州一名 14 岁的啦啦队员指控学校一名受欢迎的大男孩进行性侵犯，她的同学在社交媒体上羞辱她，家里的房子也被烧毁。

The whole world watched online.

全世界都在线观看。

How could this kind of thing still be happening?

这种事怎么还会发生呢？

These cases felt unignorable, unforgettable, Old Testament biblical.

这些案例让人感觉不可忽视、令人难忘，符合旧约圣经。

Would anyone have believed the girls, or cared, had the evidence not been digitizable?

如果证据不是数字化的，会有人相信这些女孩，或者关心这些吗？

And: How could you be a young woman and not care deeply about trying to fix this?

而且：作为一名年轻女性，你怎么能不非常关心如何解决这个问题呢？

This generation will probably be further galvanized by the allegations that a national cultural icon may have been allowed to drug and rape women for decades, with no repercussions.

几十年来，国家文化偶像可能被允许对妇女下药和强奸，而没有任何后果，这一指控可能会进一步刺激这一代人。

But these younger women have given something to Cosby’s accusers as well: a model for how to speak up, and a megaphone in the form of social media.

但这些年轻女性也给科斯比的指控者带来了一些东西：如何发声的典范，以及社交媒体形式的扩音器。

Facebook and Twitter, the forums that helped circulate the Buress clip, were full of rage at Cosby’s perceived cruelty.

Facebook 和 Twitter 这两个帮助传播 Buress 视频的论坛对 Cosby 的残忍行为充满了愤怒。

Barbara Bowman, who’d come forward during the Constand case, wrote an op-ed in the Washington Post about her frustration that no one had believed her for all those years.

在康斯坦德案中挺身而出的芭芭拉·鲍曼在《华盛顿邮报》上发表了一篇专栏文章，表达了多年来没有人相信她的沮丧。

Three days after Bowman’s op-ed, another woman, Joan Tarshis, came forward to say Cosby had drugged and raped her in 1969.

鲍曼发表专栏文章三天后，另一位名叫琼·塔希斯 (Joan Tarshis) 的女性出面称，科斯比在 1969 年对她下药并强奸了她。

By the end of November, 16 more women had come forward.

截至 11 月底，又有 16 名女性挺身而出。

Cosby resigned from Temple’s board of trustees and sought monetary damages from one of his accusers; he also told “ Page Six ” that he wanted “the black media to uphold the standards of excellence in journalism [and] go in with a neutral mind.” (Cosby, through representatives, has consistently denied any wrongdoing, and hasn’t been charged with any crimes.

科斯比辞去了坦普尔董事会的职务，并向他的一名原告寻求金钱赔偿。他还告诉《第六页》，他希望“黑人媒体能够坚持新闻业的卓越标准，并且保持中立的态度。” （科斯比通过代表一直否认有任何不当行为，并且没有被指控犯有任何罪行。

Emails to four of his lawyers and press reps went unanswered, although his team has begun a media tour to deny that his admission of offering Quaaludes to women was tantamount to admitting he’d raped anyone.) By February, there were another 12 accusers.

发给他的四位律师和新闻代表的电子邮件没有得到回复，尽管他的团队已经开始媒体巡访，否认他承认向女性提供安眠药就等于承认他强奸了任何人。）到 2 月份，又有 12 名原告。

Tina Fey and Amy Poehler joked about it at the Golden Globes : “Sleeping Beauty just thought she was getting coffee with Bill Cosby.” Attorney Gloria Allred got involved, representing more than a dozen of the women.

蒂娜·菲和艾米·波勒在金球奖上开玩笑说：“睡美人只是以为她在和比尔·考斯比一起喝咖啡。”格洛丽亚·奥尔雷德律师代表十几名女性介入其中。

Even President Obama said it was clear to him: “If you give a woman — or a man, for that matter — without his or her knowledge a drug, and then have sex with that person without consent, that’s rape.”

就连奥巴马总统也表示，他自己也很清楚：“如果你在一个女人或男人不知情的情况下给他或她注射毒品，然后在未经同意的情况下与那个人发生性关系，那就是强奸。”

There are now 46 women who have come forward publicly to accuse Cosby of rape or sexual assault; the 35 women here are the accusers who were willing to be photographed and interviewed by New York .

目前已有46名女性公开站出来指控科斯比强奸或性侵犯；这里的35名女性就是愿意接受纽约拍照和采访的原告。

The group, at present, ranges in age from early 20s to 80 and includes supermodels Beverly Johnson and Janice Dickinson alongside waitresses and Playboy bunnies and journalists and a host of women who formerly worked in show business.

目前，该群体的年龄从 20 岁出头到 80 岁不等，其中包括超级名模贝弗利·约翰逊 (Beverly Johnson) 和珍妮丝·迪金森 (Janice Dickinson)，还有女服务员、花花公子女郎、记者以及许多以前在演艺界工作的女性。

Many of the women say they know of others still out there who’ve chosen to remain silent.

许多女性表示，她们知道还有其他人选择保持沉默。

Traitz met Cosby while working as a waitress at Café Figaro in Los Angeles.

特拉茨在洛杉矶费加罗咖啡馆当女服务员时认识了科斯比。

The comedian offered to drive her home one night, but instead he took her to a beach.

这位喜剧演员提出有一天晚上开车送她回家，但他却带她去了海滩。

They parked and he pulled out a briefcase full of pills.

他们停下来，他拿出一个装满药片的公文包。

He told her to take one to relax, but Traitz declined.

他让她吃一颗来放松一下，但特拉茨拒绝了。

He became angry.

他生气了。

He groped her and tried to climb on top of her.

他摸索着她，并试图爬到她身上。

Traitz pushed Cosby away, and fended him off.

特拉茨将科斯比推开，并把他挡开。

“I was assaulted, but I wasn’t raped,” she says.

“我遭到了袭击，但我没有被强奸，”她说。

She came forward on Facebook in November 2014 after seeing comments from people attacking one of Cosby’s victims.

2014 年 11 月，在看到人们攻击科斯比的一名受害者的评论后，她在 Facebook 上挺身而出。

“I blamed myself at the time.

——当时我很自责。

I thought I did something wrong.

我以为我做错了什么。

This happened when I was 18.

这件事发生在我18岁的时候。

It took me a long, long time to come to terms with the fact that it was him, it wasn’t me.

我花了很长时间才接受这样一个事实：那是他，不是我。

You have to pick yourself up and keep moving.

你必须振作起来并继续前进。

If you don’t, you become a victim for the rest of your life.

如果你不这样做，你就会成为你余生的受害者。

Nobody wants that.

没有人想要这样。

Life has not been easy for me.

生活对我来说并不容易。

I’ve had a little bit of a hard time.

我经历了一点困难。

I had addiction problems as I got older, in my 40s.

随着年龄的增长（40 多岁），我出现了毒瘾问题。

It got me.

它抓住了我。

It brought me to my knees.

它让我跪下。

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Kirkpatrick played against Cosby in a mixed-doubles tennis tournament in Las Vegas.

柯克帕特里克在拉斯维加斯举行的混合双打网球锦标赛中对阵科斯比。

The comedian made a wager: If Kirkpatrick and her partner beat Cosby and his partner, Cosby would give them free tickets to his show.

这位喜剧演员打赌：如果柯克帕特里克和她的搭档击败了科斯比和他的搭档，科斯比会给他们免费的演出门票。

Kirkpatrick and her partner won.

柯克帕特里克和她的搭档获胜。

Her tennis partner was unavailable, so Kirkpatrick went to the show alone and was escorted to Cosby’s dressing room.

她的网球搭档没空，所以柯克帕特里克独自去看演出，并被护送到科斯比的更衣室。

He handed her a glass filled with a clear liquid and what appeared to be fruit at the bottom; she drank about half of it.

他递给她一个玻璃杯，里面装满了透明的液体，底部似乎是水果；她喝了大约一半。

Her memory of the rest of the night is a blur, but some moments stuck with her: Cosby on top of her, trying to kiss her; Cosby wearing a silver bracelet with his wife’s name on it.

她对那天晚上剩下的时间的记忆已经模糊，但有些时刻却让她印象深刻：科斯比趴在她身上，试图亲吻她；科斯比戴着一条刻有他妻子名字的银手镯。

She doesn’t remember how she got home.

她不记得自己是怎么回家的。

Cosby called the tennis club to apologize for his behavior, and offered to make it up to her.

科斯比打电话给网球俱乐部，为自己的行为道歉，并表示愿意补偿她。

Kirkpatrick accepted his apology and went to his hotel in promise of receiving a front-row seat to his show.

柯克帕特里克接受了他的道歉，并前往他下榻的酒店，并承诺在他的演出中获得前排座位。

Again, Cosby tried to force himself on her.

科斯比再次试图将自己强加于她。

She pushed him away, and left.

她推开他，转身离开。

She came forward in January 2015.

她于2015年1月挺身而出。

“I didn’t come forward before.

——我之前没有站出来。

I was a coward.

我是个胆小鬼。

I felt, at 25, if I revealed what a big celebrity with a seemingly family-oriented persona had done, that I’d be called a liar, like many of the victims have been.

我觉得，在 25 岁时，如果我揭露了一位看似以家庭为中心的大名人的所作所为，我就会被称为骗子，就像许多受害者一样。

I was afraid and I was embarrassed.”

我很害怕，也很尴尬。”

Tate met Cosby at a Chicago nightclub, through a friend, in 1975.

1975 年，泰特通过朋友在芝加哥的一家夜总会认识了科斯比。

One day, Cosby called Tate and asked her to pick him up at the airport.

有一天，科斯比打电话给泰特，请她去机场接他。

She did, and when he got in the car, Cosby asked if she’d take him to the Playboy Mansion, where he said he was staying.

她照做了，当他上车时，科斯比问她是否愿意带他去花花公子大厦，他说他要住在那里。

Cosby invited her inside for a glass of wine.

科斯比邀请她进去喝一杯酒。

Tate agreed, and, once inside, Cosby handed her a drink.

泰特同意了，一进去，科斯比递给她一杯饮料。

The next thing Tate remembers is waking up next to a naked Cosby in bed.

泰特记得的下一件事是在床上醒来，旁边是赤身裸体的科斯比。

She doesn’t remember how she got home.

她不记得自己是怎么回家的。

She came forward in April 2015.

她于2015年4月挺身而出。

“I understood at the time that it was wrong, and I didn’t really know what.

——当时我就知道这是错误的，但我并不真正知道错在哪里。

I pushed it down and it resided in a very private place.

我把它推下来，它位于一个非常私密的地方。

It affects your trust with other people.

它会影响您对其他人的信任。

You push it down and you don’t deal with it.”

你把它压下去而不去处理它。”

Cosby went out with a 21-year-old Brown after Brown’s modeling agent arranged it.

在布朗的模特经纪人安排下，科斯比与 21 岁的布朗约会。

Brown saw Cosby perform, and they went to dinner afterward.

布朗观看了科斯比的表演，随后他们去吃晚饭。

Cosby said he would take Brown home, but before he dropped her off, he said he needed to make a short detour to his hotel room because he had a gift for her.

科斯比说他会带布朗回家，但在送她回家之前，他说他需要绕道去酒店房间，因为他有一份礼物要送给她。

At the hotel room, he handed her a record and a soda, asking if she’d wait while he made a phone call.

在酒店房间里，他递给她一张唱片和一瓶汽水，询问她是否愿意等他打电话。

She took a sip of the soda and blacked out.

她喝了一口苏打水，然后就昏了过去。

She woke up in bed, naked, where she says Cosby began to sexually assault her.

她在床上醒来，赤身裸体，她说科斯比开始对她进行性侵犯。

She came forward in February 2015.

她于2015年2月挺身而出。

“ I felt like a real-life blow-up doll for him.

——对他来说，我感觉自己就像一个现实生活中的充气娃娃。

I kept it a secret because I was so ashamed and embarrassed about allowing something this horrible to happen to me.

我保守这个秘密是因为我对允许如此可怕的事情发生在我身上感到非常羞愧和尴尬。

Originally I thought I was the only one to fall into that trap.

原本我以为我是唯一落入这个陷阱的人。

When I realized that not only wasn’t I the only one, but he did this to many, many women, I felt the need to come forward and help report them because there is strength in numbers.”

当我意识到这不仅是我一个人，而且他还对很多很多女性做出这样的事时，我觉得有必要站出来帮助举报她们，因为人多力量大。”

17-year-old Thompson was an aspiring model who came to New York City from Maryland to connect with an agency.

17 岁的汤普森是一名有抱负的模特，他从马里兰州来到纽约市与一家经纪公司建立联系。

Within an hour of arriving at the agency, she was sent to Kaufman Astoria Studios to meet with Cosby on the set of The Cosby Show .

到达经纪公司不到一个小时，她就被派往考夫曼阿斯托利亚工作室，在《考斯比秀》片场与考斯比会面。

Cosby offered to mentor her, and he spoke to her parents, assuring them that he’d guide Thompson as she built her modeling career.

科斯比主动提出指导她，并与她的父母进行了交谈，向他们保证，他将指导汤普森建立自己的模特生涯。

“I looked at him as a father figure,” she says.

“我把他视为父亲的形象，”她说。

However, uneasiness began to creep into Thompson’s relationship with Cosby, she says.

然而，她说，不安开始蔓延到汤普森和科斯比的关系中。

She tried to break off contact with the comedian, but in her last confrontation with him, Cosby forced himself on her.

她试图与这位喜剧演员断绝联系，但在她最后一次与他的对峙中，科斯比强迫她自己。

She came forward publicly in March 2015, although she had been a Jane Doe in the Andrea Constand lawsuit.

2015 年 3 月，她公开挺身而出，尽管她在安德里亚·康斯坦德诉讼中曾是无名氏。

“He knew I was pretty much broken down.

——他知道我几乎崩溃了。

He pointed to a bottle of Lubriderm and told me to get it.

他指着一瓶 Lubriderm 让我去拿它。

I gave him a hand job.

我给了他一份手工活。

I went to leave, and, completely unsolicited, he gave me $700.”

我准备离开，他完全不请自来地给了我 700 美元。”

Green met Cosby through a mutual friend in Los Angeles.

格林通过洛杉矶的一位共同朋友认识了科斯比。

Cosby asked Green, an aspiring singer and model at the time, to help him raise money for a new club the comedian wanted to open.

科斯比请求当时有抱负的歌手兼模特格林帮助他为这位喜剧演员想要开设的新俱乐部筹集资金。

One day, Green didn’t feel well, and she phoned Cosby to tell him she couldn’t help him.

有一天，格林感觉不舒服，她打电话给科斯比，告诉他她无法帮助他。

Cosby convinced her to grab lunch at Café Figaro, telling Green she’d feel better after she ate.

科斯比说服她去费加罗咖啡馆吃午餐，并告诉格林吃完饭后她会感觉好多了。

At the restaurant, he offered Green red and gray pills.

在餐厅里，他提供了绿色、红色和灰色的药丸。

He told her that they were over-the-counter cold medicine.

他告诉她这是非处方感冒药。

Green swallowed the pills.

格林吞下了药丸。

Soon after, she began to feel dizzy, and the two left the restaurant together.

不久之后，她开始感到头晕，两人一起离开了餐厅。

Cosby drove Green to her apartment where he undressed himself and began to undress her.

科斯比开车送格林到她的公寓，在那里他自己脱了衣服，并开始给她脱衣服。

He began rubbing her body.

他开始抚摸她的身体。

He masturbated while assaulting her through digital penetration.

他一边自慰，一边通过数字渗透攻击她。

Green struggled, saying repeatedly, “You’re going to have to kill me.” Cosby put two $100 bills on the coffee table before he left Green’s apartment.

格林挣扎着，反复说道，“你必须杀了我。”科斯比在离开格林的公寓之前，在咖啡桌上放了两张 100 美元的钞票。

Green came forward in 2005, and signed onto Andrea Constand’s lawsuit, not as a Jane Doe, but in her own name.

2005 年，格林挺身而出，在安德里亚·康斯坦德 (Andrea Constand) 的诉讼中签字，但不是以无名氏身份，而是以她自己的名义。

She was the second woman to publicly come forward.

她是第二位公开站出来的女性。

“From the first day until this day, I have told everyone who would sit still long enough.

——从第一天到今天，我已经告诉了每一个愿意静坐足够长的人。

If it comes up at all — last year, I sold a truck to a fella, and I remember sitting in the cab of the truck telling the story, and him looking at me like I had two heads.”

如果有的话——去年，我把一辆卡车卖给了一个小伙子，我记得坐在卡车驾驶室里讲述这个故事，他看着我，就像我有两个脑袋一样。——

This project began six months ago, when we started contacting the then-30 women who had publicly claimed Cosby assaulted them, and it snowballed in the same way that the initial accusations did: First two women signed on, then others heard about it and joined in, and so on.

这个项目开始于六个月前，当时我们开始联系当时公开声称科斯比袭击了她们的 30 名女性，事情就像最初的指控一样越滚越大：首先有两名女性签署了协议，然后其他人听说了此事并加入了进来，依此类推。

Just a few days before the story was published, we photographed the final two women, bringing our total to 35.

就在故事发表的前几天，我们拍摄了最后两名女性，使总数达到 35 名。

“I’m no longer afraid,” said Chelan Lasha, who came forward late last year to say that Cosby had drugged her when she was 17.

“我不再害怕了，”奇兰·拉莎 (Chelan Lasha) 说，她去年年底站出来表示，科斯比在她 17 岁时给她下药。

“I feel more powerful than him.”

“我感觉自己比他更强大。”

Accompanying this photo essay is a compilation of the interviews with these women, a record of trauma and survival — the memories that remain of the decades-old incidents.

伴随这篇照片文章的是对这些女性的采访汇编，记录了创伤和生存——几十年前的事件留下的记忆。

All 35 were interviewed separately, and yet their stories have remarkable similarities, in everything from their descriptions of the incidents to the way they felt in the aftermath.

所有 35 人都接受了单独采访，但他们的故事从对事件的描述到事件发生后的感受等各个方面都有显着的相似之处。

Each story is awful in its own right.

每个故事本身都很糟糕。

But the horror is multiplied by the sheer volume of seeing them together, reading them together, considering their shared experience.

但看到他们在一起，一起阅读它们，考虑到他们共同的经历，恐惧感会成倍增加。

The women have found solace in their number — discovering that they hadn’t been alone, that there were others out there who believed them implicitly, with whom they didn’t need to be afraid of sharing the darkest details of their lives.

这些女性在她们的人数中找到了安慰——发现她们并不孤单，还有其他人暗中相信她们，她们不需要害怕与他们分享生活中最黑暗的细节。

They are scattered all over the country — ten different states are represented — and most of them had no contact with their fellow accusers until recently.

他们分散在全国各地——有十个不同的州代表——而且他们中的大多数人直到最近才与其他指控者取得联系。

But since reading about each other’s stories in the news, or finding one another on social media, or meeting in person at the photo shoots arranged by New York, many of the women have forged a bond.

但自从在新闻中读到彼此的故事，或在社交媒体上找到彼此，或在纽约安排的拍摄现场见面后，许多女性已经建立了一种联系。

It is, as Tarshis calls it, “a sorrowful sisterhood.” â–

正如塔西斯所说，这是“悲伤的姐妹情谊”。 �

“My agent said we’ve been contacted by a really, really big person in the entertainment industry who’s interested in mentoring promising young talent.

“我的经纪人说，娱乐界一位非常非常大的人物联系了我们，他有兴趣指导有前途的年轻人才。

I find out it’s Bill Cosby.

我发现这是比尔·科斯比。

I had the understanding I was going to be receiving private acting coaching from him.

我知道我将接受他的私人表演指导。

This was the opportunity of a lifetime.

这是一生难得的机会。

A driver would pick me up, my agent was paying for it.

司机会来接我，我的经纪人会支付费用。

That made it all very, very professional.

这使得一切都非常非常专业。

The door opens, and there stands Cosby.

门打开了，科斯比站在那里。

He’s in his sweats and very casual, very friendly.

他穿着汗衫，非常随意，非常友好。

I had a monologue prepared.

我准备了一段独白。

He seemed unimpressed.

他似乎不为所动。

He said, ‘Let’s try a cold read,’ so he pulls out a script.

他说，“让我们尝试一下冷读吧”，于是他拿出了一份剧本。

The scene was set in a bar; the character was someone who was inebriated.

场景发生在一家酒吧；这个角色是一个喝醉了的人。

He poured a glass of white wine.

他倒了一杯白葡萄酒。

And he said, use this as a prop — now, that means you’re going to have to sip on it, of course.

他说，用这个作为道具——当然，这意味着你必须喝它。

I really don’t remember much, except waking up in his bedroom.

我真的不记得太多了，除了在他的卧室里醒来。

He was naked, and he was forcing himself into my mouth.” —Heidi Thomas

他赤身裸体，硬是把自己塞进我的嘴里。” ——海蒂·托马斯

“I was introduced to Bill Cosby through my modeling agent.

“通过我的模特经纪人，我认识了比尔·科斯比。

She said that Cosby wanted to see me.

她说科斯比想见我。

Which I thought was obviously for the show.

我认为这显然是为了演出。

I was told there was going to be a dinner, and when I got there, no one ever arrived.

有人告诉我要举行晚宴，当我到达那里时，没有人来。

He asked me if I wanted a glass of wine; I took a few sips.

他问我是否想要一杯酒；我回答道。我喝了几口。

It had a horrible taste.

它有一种可怕的味道。

And I started not feeling well.

我开始感觉不舒服。

He helped me up by my underarms with both hands.

他用双手扶着我的腋下。

He walked me into the next room, where there was a mirror on the wall, and he told me to look at myself.

他带我走进隔壁房间，墙上有一面镜子，他让我看看自己。

Something was wrong with me.

我出了点问题。

And then he took my right hand, and he put it behind my back.

然后他握住我的右手，把它放在我的背后。

I remember seeing semen on the floor.

我记得在地板上看到过精液。

And I felt some liquid on my hand.

我感觉到手上有一些液体。

That was when I knew something sexual was going on.” —Jewel Allison

就在那时我知道发生了一些与性有关的事情。” ——朱厄尔·艾利森

 “He took my roommate and me out to dinner.

“他带我和室友出去吃饭。

It was this new hip steak restaurant on the strip near the Whiskey a Go Go called Sneaky Pete’s.

这是一家新的时尚牛排餐厅，位于 Whisky a Go Go 附近的一条街上，名为 Sneaky Pete’s。

He was chatting her up and trying to charm her.

他正在和她搭讪，试图迷惑她。

And he reached across and put a pill next to my wineglass and said, ‘Here, this will make you feel better,’ and he gave her one.

他把手伸过去，在我的酒杯旁边放了一颗药丸，说：“给，这会让你感觉好点。”然后他给了她一颗。

I wasn’t really thinking.

我并没有认真思考。

My son had recently died.

我的儿子最近去世了。

I thought, Great, me feel better?

我想，太好了，我感觉好多了？

You bet.

你打赌。

So I took the pill and washed it down with some red wine.

于是我拿起药丸，用红酒冲下去。

And then he reached across and put another pill in my mouth and gave her one.

然后他伸手把另一颗药放在我嘴里，给了她一颗。

Just after I took the second pill, my face was, like, face-in-plate syndrome, and I just said, ‘I wanna go home.’ He said he would drive us home.

就在我服用第二粒药后，我的脸就像板脸综合症一样，我只是说，“我想回家。”他说他会开车送我们回家。

We went up this elevator.

我们上了这个电梯。

I sat down, and lay my head back, just fighting nausea.

我坐下来，把头向后仰，试图对抗恶心。

I looked around and he was sitting next to my roommate on the love seat with this very predatory look on his face.

我环顾四周，发现他坐在我室友旁边的双人沙发上，脸上带着一种掠夺性的表情。

She was completely unconscious.

她完全失去知觉了。

I could hear the words in my head, but I couldn’t form words with my mouth, because I was so drugged out.

我可以在脑海中听到这些话，但我无法用嘴说出话来，因​​为我已经被麻醉了。

He got up and came over, and he sat down and unzipped his fly.

他起身走了过来，坐下来拉开了门襟拉链。

He had me give him oral sex, and then he stood me up, turned me over, did me doggy style, and walked out.

他让我给他口交，然后他让我站起来，把我翻过来，给我做后入式，然后走了出去。

Just as he got to the door, I said, ‘How do we get out of here, how do we get home?’ And he said, ‘Call a cab.’†” —Victoria Valentino

当他走到门口时，我说，‘我们怎么离开这里，怎么回家？’他说，‘叫一辆出租车。’”——维多利亚·瓦伦蒂诺

Welles first met Cosby when she was a child.

威尔斯第一次见到科斯比是在她还是个孩子的时候。

Her mother was a talent agent and knew the comedian.

她的母亲是一位人才经纪人，认识这位喜剧演员。

Welles was 17 and an aspiring singer when she ran into Cosby on the set of I Spy .

威尔斯在《我是间谍》片场偶遇科斯比时，17 岁，她是一名有抱负的歌手。

He invited her to a jazz club.

他邀请她去爵士俱乐部。

Cosby ordered drinks soon after they arrived.

他们到达后不久，科斯比就点了饮料。

Everything became a blur.

一切都变得模糊起来。

She woke up in a strange apartment, naked and alone.

她在一间陌生的公寓里醒来，赤身裸体，孤身一人。

The comedian told Welles she had drunk too much Champagne — though she says she remembered only drinking her Coke — and he brought her to the apartment so she could sleep it off.

这位喜剧演员告诉威尔斯，她喝了太多香槟——尽管她说她只记得喝了可乐——然后威尔斯把她带到了公寓，这样她就可以睡着了。

Welles took him at his word and accepted another invitation to a magic show.

威尔斯相信了他的话，再次接受了魔术表演的邀请。

Again, her memories of the night disappeared, and she woke up naked.

当晚的记忆再次消失，她赤身裸体地醒来。

She never saw Bill Cosby again.

她再也没有见过比尔·科斯比。

She came forward in March 2015.

她于2015年3月挺身而出。

“It really affected my trust.

——这确实影响了我的信任。

My mother didn't believe me initially, either.

我妈妈一开始也不相信我。

You've been hurt to a level that a lot of people don't really understand.

你受到的伤害已经达到了很多人都无法真正理解的程度。

Still, to this day.”

尽管如此，直到今天。”

Cosby came up behind Serignese, put his arm around her, and asked, “Will you marry me?” They were near the Las Vegas Hilton, and Cosby invited Serignese to his show at the hotel.

科斯比来到塞里尼斯身后，用手臂搂住她，问道：“你愿意嫁给我吗？”他们当时就在拉斯维加斯希尔顿酒店附近，科斯比邀请塞里尼斯参加他在酒店的演出。

Afterward, she met Cosby in a room backstage.

随后，她在后台的一个房间里遇见了科斯比。

He asked her to swallow two pills and she obeyed.

他让她吞下两粒药，她照做了。

She remembers being bent over, Cosby forcing himself on her from behind.

她记得她弯下腰，科斯比从后面强迫自己压在她身上。

She came forward in November 2014.

她于2014年11月挺身而出。

“For all those years it was silence.

——这些年来，一切都是沉默。

It’s going to be some time to work through all of it in this new, open way.”

需要一段时间才能以这种新的、开放的方式解决所有这些问题。”

Occupation: former model, flight attendant, and special-education teacher

职业：前模特、空姐、特殊教育教师

Ferrier met Cosby through her agent.

费里尔通过她的经纪人认识了科斯比。

They began a consensual affair that lasted for several months.

他们开始了一段持续了几个月的自愿恋情。

The couple broke up, but a few weeks after their split Cosby invited Ferrier to his show at a Denver nightclub.

这对夫妇分手了，但分手几周后，科斯比邀请费里尔参加他在丹佛一家夜总会的演出。

He asked her backstage, and when she got to his dressing room, the comedian offered Ferrier a cappuccino.

他在后台向她询问，当她到达他的更衣室时，这位喜剧演员给了费里尔一杯卡布奇诺。

She drank it and passed out a few minutes later.

她喝了它，几分钟后就昏倒了。

She woke up alone with her bra unhooked in the back of her car.

她独自醒来，胸罩解开，放在车后座上。

Ferrier was one of the first women to join Andrea Constand’s lawsuit as a Jane Doe in 2005.

2005 年，费里尔是第一批以“无名氏”身份加入安德里亚·康斯坦德诉讼的女性之一。

“It’s still like a slap in the face until we actually have our day in court and help the others who are getting to go to court, or we get the statute of limitations to change.

——这仍然像一记耳光，直到我们真正在法庭上度过这一天并帮助其他即将上法庭的人，或者我们改变诉讼时效。

It makes me really angry.

这让我真的很生气。

I can’t feel happiness.

我感受不到幸福。

I felt very sad and alone.

我感到非常悲伤和孤独。

But I’m not afraid of him anymore.”

但我不再害怕他了。”

Ferrigno met a man at Los Angeles International Airport who asked her out to dinner.

费里格诺在洛杉矶国际机场遇到了一名男子，他约她出去吃饭。

She went, and before the date was over, the man mentioned that he and Cosby were good friends.

她去了，在约会结束之前，那个男人提到他和科斯比是好朋友。

He asked Ferrigno if she wanted to go to Cosby’s house with him that night.

他问费里尼奥那天晚上是否愿意和他一起去科斯比家。

She drove with her date to Cosby’s Beverly Hills home, where she met the comedian and his wife, Camille.

她和约会对象开车前往科斯比位于比佛利山庄的家，在那里她遇到了这位喜剧演员和他的妻子卡米尔。

They went to a movie, Cosby sitting next to her.

他们去看电影，科斯比坐在她旁边。

After the movie, the group went back to Cosby’s house to play pool.

电影结束后，大家回到科斯比家打台球。

Cosby offered Ferrigno a cocktail.

科斯比给费里尼奥递了一杯鸡尾酒。

She refused it.

她拒绝了。

They continued their pool game, but soon Ferrigno realized that Camille had left the room.

他们继续打台球，但很快费里尼奥意识到卡米尔已经离开了房间。

Ferrigno’s date disappeared next, just as they finished up their game.

接下来，当他们结束游戏时，费里尼奥的约会对象也消失了。

She asked Cosby where the man had gone.

她问科斯比那个人去了哪里。

He brushed off her question.

他对她的问题置之不理。

Ferrigno went to put the cue back when Cosby rushed her.

当科斯比冲向费里尼奥时，费里尼奥正准备把球杆放回去。

He gripped her and kissed her.

他抓住她并吻了她。

Ferrigno sprinted out of the room.

费里格诺冲出房间。

“I never spoke to anyone again about this,” she says.

“我再也没有和任何人谈论过这件事，”她说。

She opened up about the incident publicly in November 2014.

2014 年 11 月，她公开谈论了这起事件。

“In 2005, I heard on the radio a woman who was crying and talking about how she was molested by Bill Cosby.

– 2005 年，我在广播中听到一位女士哭着讲述她如何被比尔·考斯比 (Bill Cosby) 猥亵。

I listened to it.

我听了。

That was when I said to myself, ‘This was a setup.

就在那时，我对自己说：“这是一个安排。”

This is a setup.’ I never thought of this before.

这是一个设置。”我以前从未想过这一点。

That guy must have been like a pimp for him.”

那家伙对他来说肯定就像个皮条客。”

“Bill had been a friend.

“比尔曾经是一个朋友。

I had had dinner with his wife on one or two different occasions, I had worked with him, I had known him for many, many years, and he never made a pass at me.

我曾在不同的场合和他的妻子共进过一两次晚餐，我和他一起工作过，我认识他很多很多年了，他从来没有对我说过任何话。

So when this happened to me, I was really, really shocked.

所以当这件事发生在我身上时，我真的非常非常震惊。

I just couldn’t understand what was wrong with him.

我只是不明白他出了什么问题。

Had he lost his mind?

他失去理智了吗？

When I came out of the bathroom, he said to me, ‘Okay, come on, let’s go.

当我从浴室出来时，他对我说：‘好吧，走吧。

They’re waiting for us.’ He was behaving like a person that I had never met before in my life.” —Kathy McKee

他们正在等我们。’他的举止就像是我一生中从未见过的人。” —凯西·麦基

“At 17, my agent introduced me to Bill Cosby, who was going to mentor me and take me to the next level of my career.

“17 岁时，我的经纪人将我介绍给了比尔·考斯比 (Bill Cosby)，他将指导我并带领我进入职业生涯的新高度。

Over the course of the next year, I was drugged half the time when I was with him and would come out of a delusional experience going, ‘Whoa, what was that?’ He would say, ‘Well, I needed to undress you and wash your clothes because you got drunk and made a fool of yourself.’ Do you remember the Jaycee Dugard story?

在接下来的一年里，当我和他在一起时，我有一半时间都被下药了，从一种幻觉中醒来，“哇，那是什么？”他会说，“好吧，我需要给你脱衣服，洗衣服，因为你喝醉了，出丑了。”你还记得房祖名杜加德的故事吗？

She pretty much could have climbed over the fence any time she wanted to but was just so broken down and couldn’t think straight.

她几乎可以随时翻过栅栏，但她太崩溃了，无法正常思考。

I felt like a prisoner; I felt I was kidnapped and hiding in plain sight.

我感觉自己像个囚犯；我感觉自己被绑架了，并躲在众目睽睽之下。

I could have walked down any street of Manhattan at any time and said, ‘I’m being raped and drugged by Bill Cosby,’ but who the hell would have believed me?

我可以随时走在曼哈顿的任何街道上并说：“我被比尔·科斯比强奸并下药了，”但谁会相信我呢？

Nobody, nobody.

没有人，没有人。

I was invited down to Atlantic City to see his show and had a very confusing night where I was completely drugged and my luggage was missing.

我被邀请去大西洋城看他的演出，度过了一个非常混乱的夜晚，我完全被下了药，而且我的行李也不见了。

When I called the concierge to find out where my luggage was, Cosby went ballistic.

当我打电话给礼宾部询问我的行李在哪里时，科斯比勃然大怒。

He slammed the phone down and said, ‘What the hell are you doing, letting the whole hotel know I have a 19-year-old girl in my hotel suite?’ The next morning, he summoned me down to his room and yelled at me that I needed to have discretion.

他摔上电话说：“你到底在做什么，让整个酒店都知道我的酒店套房里有一个 19 岁的女孩？”第二天早上，他把我叫到他的房间，对我大喊大叫，说我需要谨慎行事。

He threw me down on the bed and he put his forearm under my throat.

他把我扔到床上，用前臂抵住我的喉咙。

He straddled me, and he took his belt buckle off.

他跨坐在我身上，解开了皮带扣。

The clanking of the belt buckle, I’ll never forget.” —Barbara Bowman

皮带扣的叮当声，我永远不会忘记。” ——芭芭拉·鲍曼

Cosby invited then-28-year-old Dickinson to Lake Tahoe, saying he had a possible acting opportunity for her.

科斯比邀请当时 28 岁的狄金森去太浩湖，说他可能会给她一个表演机会。

They dined together, and he gave her a pill to take with a glass of wine.

他们一起吃饭，他给了她一颗药丸，让她和一杯酒一起服用。

The next morning, she woke up and remembered Cosby climbing on top of her.

第二天早上，她醒来，记得科斯比爬到了她身上。

Her clothes were off, and there was semen between her legs.

她的衣服脱光了，双腿之间还有精液。

Dickinson came forward in 2014.

狄金森于 2014 年挺身而出。

“I woke up the next morning after the incident with my entire life altered forever, knowing full well that Bill Cosby had raped me the previous evening.

——事件发生后的第二天早上，我醒来后，我的整个生活就永远改变了，我清楚地知道比尔·科斯比在前一天晚上强奸了我。

I held this inside of my soul for years and years and years.

我把这个放在我的灵魂里很多年了。

I have been brutally and catastrophically, traumatically altered forever.”

我被残酷地、灾难性地、创伤性地永远改变了。”

“I had a terrible headache, and I said, ‘Bill, do you have some Tylenol?

“我头疼得厉害，我说，‘比尔，你有泰诺吗？

I have a mother of a headache.’ And he said to me, ‘I have something stronger.’ And I said, ‘You know I don’t do drugs.’ He said, ‘You’re one of my best friends.

我有一个头痛的母亲。”他对我说，“我有更强大的东西。”我说，“你知道我不吸毒。”他说，“你是我最好的朋友之一。

Would I hurt you?’ And I believed him.

我会伤害你吗？’我相信了他。

All I remember is taking the pill; I don’t remember going to bed.

我只记得服药；我不记得去睡觉了。

But I do remember waking up in a fog and opening my eyes, and I had no clothes on, and there was Bill’s friend totally naked in bed with me.

但我确实记得在雾中醒来，睁开眼睛，我没穿衣服，比尔的朋友赤身裸体和我躺在床上。

He started to laugh and smile, and he said, ‘Oh, did you have a good time?’ I said, ‘What the fuck happened?

他开始大笑起来，他说，‘哦，你玩得开心吗？’我说，‘他妈的发生了什么？

Do you always eff a dead person?’ I got my clothes on and I walked out.

你总是对付死人吗？”我穿上衣服走了出去。

And Bill said, ‘Where are you going?’ I said, ‘What the eff did you give me?’ He said, ‘Oh, you had a bad headache, you were in so much pain.

比尔说，“你要去哪里？”我说，“你到底给了我什么？”他说，“哦，你头疼得很厉害，你太痛苦了。”

I gave you a Quaalude.’ I was hurt with Bill more than angry at his friend.

我给了你安眠药。”我对比尔的伤害多于对他朋友的愤怒。

Bill let him take advantage of me.

比尔让他利用我。

That kills me.

那要了我的命。

That’s why I know the stories of what he did to the other women are true, because if he didn’t have the respect for me, who was really a close friend, then he could do that to anybody he didn’t know very well.” —Joyce Emmons

这就是为什么我知道他对其他女人所做的事情是真实的，因为如果他不尊重我这个真正的亲密朋友，那么他就可以对任何他不太了解的人做同样的事。” ——乔伊斯·埃蒙斯

Moritz was getting ready to appear on the Tonight Show when someone opened the door of her dressing room.

莫里茨正准备出现在《今夜秀》上，这时有人打开了她更衣室的门。

Cosby stepped inside and closed the door behind him.

科斯比走进去，关上了身后的门。

He stood above Moritz and unzipped his pants.

他站在莫里茨上方，拉开裤子拉链。

He pushed his penis into her mouth.

他把他的阴茎塞进她的嘴里。

“It was automatic.

——这是自动的。

It was like he did this with everyone that was on a show with him backstage.

就像他对后台和他一起演出的每个人都这样做一样。

I couldn’t push him away.

我无法推开他。

He was Mr. Cosby.

他是科斯比先生。

He moved himself back and forth, and my head was on his penis at all times.

他前后移动，我的头一直在他的阴茎上。

Finally, they called my name.

最后，他们叫到了我的名字。

I was supposed to be out, but he wouldn’t let me go.

我本来应该出去的，但他不让我走。

He rushed out and came out on my call, and he said, ‘I am Louisa Moritz,’ and got a huge laugh, which was my laugh I was supposed to get.

他接到我的电话后冲了出去，他说：“我是路易莎·莫里茨”，然后引起了一阵大笑，这是我应该得到的笑声。

I don’t remember if they introduced me again.

我不记得他们是否再次介绍了我。

I was a zombie.

我是一个僵尸。

But I sat down and the show went on.

但我坐下来，演出继续。

I didn’t look at him.

我没有看他。

He didn’t look at me.”

他没有看我。”

Kacey worked for Cosby’s personal-appearance agent at William Morris.

凯西在威廉·莫里斯公司为科斯比的个人外表经纪人工作。

Her professional relationship with the comedian became friendlier over time — he would check in about her life, her family, her future.

随着时间的推移，她与这位喜剧演员的职业关系变得更加友好——他会询问她的生活、她的家庭和她的未来。

Cosby eventually approached Kacey to say that he wanted to work with her on a new television show that was in development.

科斯比最终找到凯西，表示他想与她合作制作一部正在制作的新电视节目。

He invited Kacey to dinner and insisted she read through a scene that ended in a kiss.

他邀请凯西共进晚餐，并坚持让她读完一个以吻结束的场景。

They parted awkwardly, but later she agreed to meet him at his bungalow at the Bel Air Hotel for lunch.

他们尴尬地分手了，但后来她同意在他位于贝莱尔酒店的平房里与他见面共进午餐。

Cosby opened the door in a robe and slippers.

科斯比穿着长袍和拖鞋打开了门。

During lunch, he pestered her, saying she needed to relax, and tried to hand her a large white pill.

午餐时，他缠着她，说她需要放松，并试图递给她一颗白色的大药丸。

Kacey repeated that she was fine, but Cosby persisted.

凯西重申她很好，但科斯比坚持不懈。

When she came to, she was in bed, Cosby next to her.

当她醒来时，她躺在床上，科斯比在她旁边。

“I really felt for all those years that it was just me, that I was alone.

——这些年来我真的感觉只有我一个人，我很孤独。

With all of the other women coming forward, it just really felt — this is the right time.

当所有其他女性站出来时，我真的感觉——现在正是时候。

It’s okay.

没关系。

I can step out of this door that I’ve been trapped behind.”

我可以走出这扇我被困在后面的门。”

“I told my supervisor at the Playboy Club what he did to me, and you know what she said to me?

“我告诉了花花公子俱乐部的主管他对我做了什么，你知道她对我说了什么吗？

She said: ‘You do know that that’s Hefner’s best friend, right?’ I said, ‘Yes.’ She says to me: ‘Nobody’s going to believe you.

她说：“你知道那是海夫纳最好的朋友，对吧？”我说，“是的。”她对我说：“没有人会相信你。”

I suggest you shut your mouth.’†” —PJ Masten

我建议你闭嘴。”——PJ Masten

“People often these days say, ‘Well, why didn’t you take it to the police?’ Andrea Constand went to the police in 2005 — how’d it work out for her?

“现在人们经常说，‘好吧，你为什么不去报警呢？’安德里亚·康斯坦德 (Andrea Constand) 于 2005 年去了警察局——结果如何？

Not at all.

一点也不。

In 2005, Bill Cosby still had control of the media.

2005年，比尔·科斯比仍然控制着媒体。

In 2015, we have social media.

2015年，我们有了社交媒体。

We can’t be disappeared.

我们不能消失。

It’s online and can never go away.” —Tamara Green

它在线，永远不会消失。” ——塔玛拉·格林

Lasha met Cosby in Las Vegas in 1986.

1986 年，拉莎在拉斯维加斯认识了科斯比。

The 17-year-old high-school student worked at the Hilton Las Vegas but wanted to pursue a modeling career, so her stepmother sent a letter and a photo of Lasha to the comedian.

这位 17 岁的高中生在拉斯维加斯希尔顿酒店工作，但想从事模特职业，因此她的继母给这位喜剧演员寄了一封信和一张拉莎的照片。

Cosby called Lasha’s family, inviting her and her grandmother to his show, also at the Hilton.

科斯比给拉莎的家人打电话，邀请她和她的祖母参加他也在希尔顿酒店举行的演出。

Cosby asked Lasha up to his suite, where he promised to introduce her to an agent from the Ford Modeling Agency.

科斯比邀请拉莎到他的套房，并承诺将她介绍给福特模特经纪公司的一名经纪人。

In his room, Cosby handed Lasha a blue pill — he said it was an antihistamine for her cold — and a double shot of Amaretto.

在他的房间里，科斯比递给拉莎一颗蓝色药丸——他说这是治疗她感冒的抗组胺药——和两杯苦杏酒。

Cosby asked her to put on a hotel robe and wet her hair to prepare for the modeling agent’s arrival.

科斯比让她穿上酒店长袍，弄湿头发，为模特经纪人的到来做好准备。

Lasha says someone came to the room and snapped a few photos, but quickly left.

拉莎说，有人来到房间拍了几张照片，但很快就离开了。

Alone again with Cosby, Lasha says the comedian led her to the bedroom and gave her another shot of Amaretto.

拉莎说，喜剧演员再次与科斯比单独在一起，她把她带到卧室，又给了她一杯苦杏酒。

She lay down, and then he climbed in bed beside her.

她躺下，然后他爬上床，挨着她。

She remembers him humping her leg, grunting.

她记得他弓着腿，咕哝着。

Then she blacked out.

然后她眼前一黑。

She woke up more than 13 hours later.

13个多小时后，她醒了。

Cosby stood above her and clapped his hands, shouting, “Daddy says wake up.” He handed her $1,500 and told her to buy something nice for herself and for her grandmother.

科斯比站在她上方，拍着手喊道：“爸爸说醒醒吧。”他递给她 1,500 美元，并告诉她给自己和祖母买一些好东西。

She came forward in December 2014.

她于2014年12月挺身而出。

“I used to fear for my life because of the type of influence that he had.

– 由于他的影响力，我曾经担心自己的生命安全。

And I would cry all the time, all the time.

我会一直哭，一直哭。

After that, I didn’t know who to trust and who not to trust.

从那以后，我不知道该相信谁，不知道该相信谁。

I have nightmares.

我做噩梦。

I wouldn’t let my children watch The Cosby Show because I would cry.”

我不会让我的孩子看《考斯比秀》，因为我会哭。”

“I had a few moments where I tried to come forward.

“有几次我试图挺身而出。

But I was just too scared, and I also had the extra burden of not really wanting to take an African-American man down.

但我太害怕了，而且我还有额外的负担，因为我不想打倒一个非裔美国人。

” —Jewel Allison

”——朱厄尔·艾利森

“I didn’t realize that I had been raped.

“我没有意识到我被强奸了。

Back then, rape was done in an alleyway with somebody holding a knife to your throat that you didn’t know.

那时，强奸是在小巷里发生的，有人用刀架在你的喉咙上，而你并不认识。

There was no date rape back then.

那时还没有约会强奸。

I just knew that something horrible had happened.

我只知道发生了可怕的事情。

But I couldn’t put a name to it.

但我无法给它命名。

The difference between this and that rape in the dark alley is that his face would be before me every week on TV.

这次和那次在黑暗小巷里发生的强奸案的区别在于，他的脸每周都会在电视上出现在我面前。

People would mention a joke that he said: ‘Wasn’t that funny?’ And all the while, my stomach would just be churning.” —Joan Tarshis Â

人们会提到他说的一个笑话：‘这不是很有趣吗？’而我的胃一直在翻腾。” ——琼·塔西斯

“In 1975, it wasn’t an issue that was even discussed.

“1975 年，这根本就不是一个被讨论过的问题。

Rape was being beaten up in a park.

强奸是在公园里被殴打。

I understood at the time that it was wrong, but I just internalized it and dealt with it and pushed it down, and it resided in a very private place.

我当时就明白这是错误的，但我只是内化了它，处理了它，把它推倒了，它就驻留在一个非常私密的地方。

It affects your trust with other people.” — Marcella Tate

它会影响你对其他人的信任。” — 马塞拉·泰特

Hayes and two of her friends attended Clint Eastwood’s Celebrity Tennis Tournament in Pebble Beach, California, in 1973.

1973 年，海耶斯和她的两个朋友参加了在加利福尼亚州圆石滩举行的克林特·伊斯特伍德名人网球锦标赛。

She met Bill Cosby there, and he followed Hayes and her friends around all day.

她在那里遇见了比尔·科斯比，他整天跟着海耶斯和她的朋友们。

They went out to dinner that evening, but kept switching restaurants to avoid Cosby.

那天晚上他们出去吃饭，但不断换餐馆以避免科斯比。

He caught up with them at the last place, where he reached over Hayes and grabbed her breast.

他在最后一个地方追上了他们，越过海耶斯抓住了她的胸部。

She came forward in December 2014.

她于2014年12月挺身而出。

“I just stewed about it for years, and for years no one cared.”

“我为此苦恼了很多年，但多年来没有人关心。”

Heidi Thomas was 24 when she got a call from her agent, who told her that a big shot in the entertainment industry — “Mr. C.” — wanted to mentor her.

海蒂·托马斯 (Heidi Thomas) 24 岁时接到经纪人的电话，经纪人告诉她，娱乐界的一位大人物——托马斯先生 (Mr. C. — — 想指导她。

Thomas flew out to Reno to meet with him.

托马斯飞往里诺与他会面。

From the airport, Cosby’s driver brought her to a ranch where the comedian was staying.

从机场出发，科斯比的司机将她带到这位喜剧演员居住的牧场。

There, Cosby asked Thomas to read a script for him and he assigned her the role of a drunken person.

在那里，科斯比请托马斯为他读一个剧本，他给她分配了一个醉汉的角色。

He gave her a drink as a prop, and he encouraged her to take a sip.

他给了她一杯饮料作为道具，并鼓励她喝一口。

She woke up to find Cosby naked and trying to force her to have oral sex with him.

她醒来发现科斯比赤身裸体，并试图强迫她与他口交。

She came forward in February 2015.

她于2015年2月挺身而出。

“My first thought was: How did I get here?

– 我的第一个想法是：我是怎么到这里的？

What did I say?

我说什么了？

What did I do?

我做了什么？

This is so unprofessional and I hope I don’t throw up on his bed because that would be really bad.

这太不专业了，我希望我不要吐在他的床上，因为那真的很糟糕。

The next snapshot I have was him telling me we were going to do this again, and I remember getting up and saying something to the effect of ‘This isn’t why I came here.’ It’s such a haze.

我拍到的下一张照片是他告诉我我们要再做一次，我记得站起来说了些什么，大意是“这不是我来这里的原因。”真是一片阴霾。

I now know why I was so foggy.

我现在知道为什么我这么迷茫了。

I remember the door when I closed it, it sounded so loud.

我记得我关门的时候，声音很大。

I thought, “Oh my gosh, I just slammed the door on Bill Cosby.” The idea that I had just been assaulted didn’t even occur to me.

我想，“天哪，我刚刚把比尔·科斯比关上了门。”我什至没有想到我刚刚遭到了袭击。

I was absolutely certain I had done something.

我绝对确定我做了某事。

Why couldn’t I remember?

为什么我不记得了？

What did I say?

我说什么了？

At the time nobody had ever heard of a date-rape drug, no one had ever heard of anything like that.

当时没有人听说过一种约会强奸药物，没有人听说过类似的东西。

I’ve now talked with several of the women who went through this, though, and it’s so similar.

不过，我现在已经与几位经历过这种情况的女性交谈过，情况非常相似。

We lost days worth of stuff.”

我们损失了好几天的东西。 –

Occupation: former Playboy bunny and hotel executive, now owns a small moving company

职业：前花花公子兔子和酒店主管，现在拥有一家小型搬家公司

Masten knew Cosby through her job at the Playboy club in Chicago, where she worked as a bunny manager.

马斯滕通过科斯比在芝加哥花花公子俱乐部的工作认识了她，她在那里担任兔子经理。

One day they had lunch, and the next day Cosby invited her out to dinner.

有一天他们共进午餐，第二天科斯比邀请她出去吃饭。

She met him at the Whitehall Hotel, where he was smoking and drinking with other men.

她在白厅酒店遇见了他，当时他正在和其他男人一起抽烟喝酒。

He offered her a cocktail — Grand Marnier on the rocks.

他给了她一杯鸡尾酒——加冰块的金万利。

She woke up in Cosby’s bed, bruised and naked, the comedian beside her.

她在科斯比的床上醒来，浑身青肿，赤身裸体，喜剧演员就在她身边。

The next day he sent her a four-foot ficus tree with a note: “Friendships have to be groomed like this tree.” She came forward in 2014.

第二天，他寄给她一棵四英尺高的榕树，并附上一张纸条：“友谊必须像这棵树一样受到呵护。”她于 2014 年挺身而出。

“I’ve overcome a lot, but this rape brought me to my knees.

——我已经克服了很多困难，但这次强奸让我屈服了。

I think the hardest part was that I didn’t have control of myself.

我认为最困难的部分是我无法控制自己。

I would never have allowed that to happen, never.

我绝对不会允许这种事发生，绝对不会。

To do that to — to violate another human being, and violently.

这样做——以暴力方式侵犯另一个人。

I had to go to work the next day.

第二天我必须去上班。

He kept calling and calling, ‘Why did you leave?

他不停地打电话，问：“你为什么要走？”

Why did you leave?’ Are you kidding me?

你为什么要离开？你在开玩笑吗？

I told my supervisor what he did to me.

我告诉我的主管他对我做了什么。

She said, ‘You do know that’s [Hugh] Hefner’s best friend, right?’ I said, ‘Yes.’ She says to me, ‘Nobody’s going to believe you.

她说，“你确实知道那是[休]海夫纳最好的朋友，对吧？”我说，“是的。”她对我说，“没有人会相信你。”

I suggest you shut your mouth.’”

我劝你闭嘴。”

At 22, Sarita Butterfield modeled in the November 1977 issue of Playboy .

22 岁时，Sarita Butterfield 成为 1977 年 11 月号《花花公子》的模特。

Butterfield says Cosby saw her pictures in the magazine and called her up, inviting her to his Massachusetts home for Christmas Eve dinner.

巴特菲尔德说，科斯比在杂志上看到了她的照片，并给她打电话，邀请她到他在马萨诸塞州的家吃平安夜晚餐。

He paid for the plane ticket and for the driver waiting for her at the airport.

他支付了机票和在机场等她的司机的费用。

Cosby had many guests over that night, but he cornered Butterfield in his guesthouse.

科斯比那天晚上有很多客人，但他把巴特菲尔德逼到了他的宾馆里。

He groped her breasts and tried to kiss her.

他摸索着她的乳房，试图吻她。

Butterfield fended him off, but she had to wait until the next morning to take a plane out.

巴特菲尔德挡住了他，但她必须等到第二天早上才能乘飞机离开。

She came forward in November 2014.

她于2014年11月挺身而出。

“I tried to sit down and imagine him drugging and raping the other girls while they were under the influence of the drug he put in their drink.

——我试着坐下来想象他对其他女孩下药并强奸她们，而她们却受到了他在饮料中添加的药物的影响。

I'm not going to say that I was surprised.

我不会说我很惊讶。

I know what he did to me and I know the look on his face.

我知道他对我做了什么，我也知道他脸上的表情。

What happened to that nice man?”

那个好人怎么了？

Baker-Kinney bartended at Harrah’s, where Cosby was performing.

贝克-金尼 (Baker-Kinney) 在哈拉酒吧 (Harrah's) 担任调酒师，科斯比 (Cosby) 也在那里表演。

Regular staff often mingled with Harrah’s headliners at after-parties, so she didn’t think it was unusual when her friend invited her to a pizza party at Cosby’s.

正式员工经常在派对结束后与 Harrah’s 的头条人物混在一起，所以当她的朋友邀请她参加 Cosby’s 的披萨派对时，她并不认为这有什么不寻常。

When Baker-Kinney and her friend arrived, no one else was there.

当贝克-金尼和她的朋友到达时，那里没有其他人。

Cosby gave her a pill, and then he gave her another one.

科斯比给了她一粒药，然后又给了她另一粒。

She swallowed both.

她把两者都吞了下去。

They started playing a game of backgammon when Baker-Kinney noticed the board started to go in and out of focus.

当贝克-金尼注意到棋盘开始进出焦点时，他们开始玩双陆棋游戏。

Baker-Kinney next remembers waking up on a couch, her pants unzipped and her blouse unbuttoned.

贝克-金尼接下来记得在沙发上醒来，她的裤子拉链拉开，衬衫纽扣也解开。

Her friend had just left, and Cosby stuck his hand inside her shirt.

她的朋友刚刚离开，科斯比把手伸进她的衬衫里。

He carried her upstairs.

他抱着她上了楼。

The next morning she woke up to Cosby stroking her stomach.

第二天早上，她醒来时发现科斯比抚摸着她的肚子。

They were both naked.

他们都赤身裸体。

Before she left, he told her, “This is between me and you.” She came forward with her story in April 2015.

在她离开之前，他告诉她，“这是我和你之间的事。”她于 2015 年 4 月讲述了自己的故事。

“I knew my statute of limitations had run out, so I was willing to offer my support.

——我知道我的诉讼时效已过，所以我愿意提供支持。

I spoke to my family about it first, because my son didn't know about it.

我先和家人说了这件事，因为我儿子不知道。

They said if it could help other women, then we encourage you to do it.

他们说如果这可以帮助其他女性，那么我们鼓励你这样做。

”

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Burns worked as a game starter in a Las Vegas casino, where she met Cosby.

伯恩斯在拉斯维加斯一家赌场担任游戏发起人，在那里她遇到了科斯比。

Burns also acted and modeled, and Cosby indicated to her that he could help her break into the industry.

伯恩斯还从事表演和模特工作，科斯比向她表示他可以帮助她进入这个行业。

He invited her to his show and gave her money to gamble.

他邀请她参加他的节目并给她钱去赌博。

She attended at least one event with him.

她和他一起参加了至少一场活动。

One night, he handed her $500 and asked her to come up to his suite after his performance.

一天晚上，他递给她 500 美元，并邀请她在演出结束后到他的套房去。

Cosby gave Burns a Scotch on the rocks.

科斯比给了伯恩斯一杯加冰块的苏格兰威士忌。

She felt as if she were losing control.

她感觉自己好像失去了控制。

Cosby called her to the bedroom, where she found him naked in bed.

科斯比把她叫到卧室，她发现他赤身裸体地躺在床上。

He told her to sit on the bed, then forced her to have oral and penetrative sex.

他让她坐在床上，然后强迫她进行口交和插入式性行为。

She came forward in April 2015.

她于2015年4月挺身而出。

“Seeing bits and pieces on the news and then overhearing some women talk about the girls in a negative way — it infuriated me.

——在新闻中看到一些片段，然后无意中听到一些女性以负面的方式谈论这些女孩——这让我很生气。

They were saying that they were doing it just for publicity; they must be getting all kinds of money.

他们说这样做只是为了宣传；他们一定得到了各种各样的钱。

I interrupted them.

我打断了他们。

‘I’m one of them,’ I said.”

“我是他们中的一员，”我说。“

“Survivors of rape have a very difficult time having intimate relationships.

“强奸幸存者很难建立亲密关系。

I was in my 20s.

我当时20多岁。

I could never have a real relationship.

我永远无法拥有真正的关系。

It was like a black, disgusting tumor—a secret tumor.” — PJ Masten

它就像一个黑色的、令人厌恶的肿瘤——一个秘密的肿瘤。” — PJ 马斯滕

“ When I see a Jell-O pudding, it comes flooding back.

“当我看到果冻布丁时，它就会涌上心头。

Bill Cosby, that encounter, that one time, played a major factor in the direction my life took, toward the dark side.” —Sammie Mays

比尔·科斯比，那次遭遇，那一次，在我的人生走向黑暗面的方向上发挥了重要作用。” ——萨米·梅斯

“Eighteen is very young.

“十八岁还很年轻。

It took me a long, long time to come to terms with the fact that it was him, it wasn’t me.

我花了很长很长的时间才接受这样一个事实：那是他，不是我。

Life has not been easy for me.

生活对我来说并不容易。

I had addiction problems as I got older.” —Linda Joy Traitz

随着年龄的增长，我出现了毒瘾问题。” ——琳达·乔伊·特拉茨

“People go, ‘Why haven’t you gotten over it?’ But you might as well ask a combat soldier why he doesn’t forget the Battle of Guadalcanal.

“人们会问，‘你为什么还没有忘记这一切？’但你不妨问问一名战斗士兵，为什么他没有忘记瓜达尔卡纳尔岛战役。

There was someone trying to harm him, someone trying to kill him, and they never get over it, they just learn how to cope with it.” —Tamara Green

有人试图伤害他，有人试图杀死他，但他们永远无法克服，只是学会了如何应对。” ——塔玛拉·格林

Cosby started mentoring Bernard before she guest-starred on The Cosby Show in the early 1990s.

20 世纪 90 年代初，在伯纳德客串《科斯比秀》之前，科斯比就开始指导她。

“I looked upon him as a father figure,” she says.

“我把他视为父亲的形象，”她说。

“He often said to me, ‘You're one of my kids, Bernard.’” Later, Cosby drugged her drink, and raped her.

“他经常对我说，“伯纳德，你是我的孩子之一。”后来，科斯比在她的饮料里下了药，然后强奸了她。

During their last contact, on The Cosby Show set in 1992, he told her, “As far as I’m concerned, Bernard, you’re dead.

他们最后一次接触是在 1992 年的《考斯比秀》中，他告诉她，“就我而言，伯纳德，你已经死了。”

Do you hear me?

你听到我说话了吗？

You're dead.

你死定了。

You don’t exist." Afterward, she became suicidal.

你并不存在。”之后，她产生了自杀倾向。

She came forward in May 2015.

她于2015年5月挺身而出。

“For the last 23-plus years I’ve been living with a tremendous sense of fear.

– 在过去 23 年多的时间里，我一直生活在巨大的恐惧之中。

Being able to relinquish that fear was freeing for me, and the only reason I was able to do that was so many other women had done it before me, and I felt safe.”

能够放弃这种恐惧对我来说是一种自由，而我能够做到这一点的唯一原因是在我之前有很多其他女性已经做到了，我感到很安全。”

“I read Barbara Bowman’s piece in the Washington Post , how no one believed her, and I said, ‘This is it.

“我在《华盛顿邮报》上读到芭芭拉·鲍曼的文章，没有人相信她，我说，‘就是这样。

I have to say something now.

我现在必须说点什么。

I have to stand up and say, Yes.

我必须站起来说：是的。

Somebody else does believe you, because it happened to me .’ It was sort of like we were yodeling in a canyon and set off an avalanche.

确实有人相信你，因为这发生在我身上。’这有点像我们在峡谷里唱约德尔歌，然后引发了雪崩。

I knew I wasn’t ever gonna receive any money.

我知道我永远不会收到任何钱。

I certainly didn’t want to be remembered as the woman that Bill Cosby raped.

我当然不想作为被比尔科斯比强奸的女人而被人们铭记。

But I just felt so vindicated that I wasn’t alone.” —Joan Tarshis

但我只是觉得自己并不孤单。” ——琼·塔西斯

“How would it benefit any of us?

“这对我们任何人有什么好处？

It doesn’t.

事实并非如此。

We’re telling the story because we can’t hold it inside anymore.” — Kathy McKee

我们讲述这个故事是因为我们再也无法压抑它了。” — 凯西·麦基

“I came forward to offer my support as a witness.

“我作为证人站出来提供支持。

I knew my statute of limitations had run out.

我知道我的诉讼时效已过。

When only one or two women came out, a couple of years ago, they were ridiculed more.

几年前，当只有一两个女性出柜时，她们受到的嘲笑更多。

It’s hard to not believe the numbers now.” — Janice Baker-Kinney

现在很难不相信这些数字。” — 珍妮丝·贝克-金尼

Occupation: artist; ambassador with PAVE (Promoting Awareness, Victim Empowerment)

职业：艺术家； PAVE（提高意识、增强受害者权能）大使

Bowman was a 17-year-old model and an aspiring actress when her agent introduced her to Cosby in Denver in 1985.

1985 年，当鲍曼的经纪人将她介绍给丹佛的科斯比时，她还是一名 17 岁的模特，也是一名有抱负的演员。

Cosby offered to mentor Bowman.

科斯比主动提出指导鲍曼。

The comedian flew her to celebrity events and performances across the country.

这位喜剧演员带她去参加全国各地的名人活动和表演。

He eventually moved her to New York City and then Long Island, while she took acting classes in the city.

他最终将她搬到了纽约市，然后又搬到了长岛，而她则在该市参加了表演课程。

In New York, Cosby drugged and raped Bowman repeatedly; she didn’t realize for two years what was happening.

在纽约，科斯比多次给鲍曼下药并强奸他。两年来她都没有意识到发生了什么。

“There were times when I was completely confused,” she says, “and there were other times that were very clear.” In 2005, Bowman joined Andrea Constand’s lawsuit as a supporting witness.

“有时我完全困惑，”她说，“但有时却很清楚。”2005 年，鲍曼作为支持证人加入了安德里亚·康斯坦德的诉讼。

“It was a predatory grooming process that was very subtle and very manipulative.

——这是一个掠夺性的梳理过程，非常微妙且极具操控性。

He was America’s favorite dad.

他是美国人最喜爱的父亲。

I went into this thinking he was going to be my dad.

我一开始就以为他会成为我的父亲。

He zoned right in on my insecurities.

他准确地指出了我的不安全感。

He convinced me that he was going to take care of me like a father, that he loved me like a daughter.

他让我相信他会像父亲一样照顾我，像女儿一样爱我。

To wake up half-dressed and raped by the man that said he was going to love me like a father?

醒来时衣不蔽体，被那个说他会像父亲一样爱我的男人强奸？

That’s pretty sick.

这真是太恶心了。

I was invited down to Atlantic City to see his show.

我被邀请去大西洋城观看他的演出。

It was a very confusing night where I was completely drugged and my luggage was missing.

这是一个非常混乱的夜晚，我完全被下了药，而且我的行李也不见了。

When I called the concierge to find out where my luggage was, Cosby went ballistic.

当我打电话给礼宾部询问我的行李在哪里时，科斯比勃然大怒。

He said, ‘What the hell are you doing, letting the whole hotel know I have a 19-year-old girl in my hotel suite?’

他说，“你到底在做什么，让整个酒店都知道我的酒店套房里有一个 19 岁的女孩？”

The next morning, I woke up undressed.

第二天早上，我醒来时脱了衣服。

I didn’t know what had happened.

我不知道发生了什么事。

He called me on the phone and summoned me down to his room.

他给我打电话并叫我去他的房间。

He yelled at me that I had embarrassed him by being at the hotel, and that I needed to have discretion.

他对我大喊大叫，说我在酒店让他感到尴尬，我需要谨慎行事。

Then he pounced on me.

然后他就扑向我。

He threw me down on the bed and he put his forearm under my throat and started choking me.

他把我扔到床上，用前臂抵住我的喉咙，开始掐我的脖子。

He straddled me, and he took his belt buckle off.

他跨坐在我身上，解开了皮带扣。

The clanking of the belt buckle, I’ll never forget.

皮带扣的叮当声，我永远不会忘记。

It was jammed, and he was trying to unzip his pants.

它被卡住了，他正试图拉开裤子的拉链。

I was able to wiggle out.

我能够摆脱困境。

It was like a switch went off, like somebody flicked a switch and he suddenly came to reality and realized that he was really going to make a bigger scene than I had ever made.

就像一个开关关闭了，就像有人按下了开关，他突然醒悟到现实，意识到他真的要制作一个比我曾经制作过的更大的场景。

He did not rape me.

他没有强奸我。

That was it.

就是这样。

He just decided I was too much work.

他只是认为我工作太多了。

He wrote me off, he kicked me out.

他注销了我，把我赶了出去。

I was done.

我已经完成了。

When it was all over, the words that came out of Cosby’s mouth were: ‘I better never, ever see your face or hear your name again.’”

当一切结束时，科斯比嘴里说出的话是：“我最好永远不再看到你的脸或听到你的名字。”

Mays met Cosby at a television-industry conference in the late 1980s, which she covered as a young journalist.

梅斯在 20 世纪 80 年代末的一次电视行业会议上认识了科斯比，当时她还是一名年轻记者，曾报道过该会议。

She approached him for an interview.

她找到他接受采访。

He suggested they chat on his way back to his hotel room.

他建议他们在返回酒店房间的路上聊天。

The comedian then invited Mays up to his suite and served her a drink.

这位喜剧演员随后邀请梅斯到他的套房并给她喝了一杯。

She took a couple of big sips.

她喝了几口。

All went blank until she woke up, slouched in the same chair, spit dribbling down her chin.

一切都一片空白，直到她醒来，无精打采地坐在同一张椅子上，口水顺着下巴流下来。

Her bra was askew.

她的胸罩歪斜了。

Cosby stood above her.

科斯比站在她上方。

Mays was confused and rushed out of the suite.

梅斯一头雾水，冲出了套房。

On her way out, she apologized for wasting the comedian’s time.

在出去的路上，她为浪费喜剧演员的时间而道歉。

Mays came forward in May 2015.“One other thing besides being survivors, we were career-oriented women.

梅斯于 2015 年 5 月挺身而出。除了作为幸存者之外，我们还是以事业为导向的女性。

That’s how Bill Cosby gained access to each of us.”

这就是比尔·考斯比 (Bill Cosby) 接触我们每个人的方式。”

19-year-old Tarshis was starting a career as a comedy writer when she met Cosby in Los Angeles through mutual friends.

19 岁的塔西斯 (Tarshis) 通过共同的朋友在洛杉矶认识了科斯比 (Cosby)，当时她正在开始喜剧作家的职业生涯。

The comedian asked Tarshis if she’d be interested in working on some material with him.

这位喜剧演员问塔西斯是否有兴趣与他一起制作一些材料。

She joined Cosby at his bungalow.

她在科斯比的平房里与他会合。

Cosby served Tarshis a Bloody Mary topped with a beer.

科斯比为塔西斯提供了一杯血腥玛丽，上面加了一杯啤酒。

She drank some, and the next thing she remembered was Cosby undressing her on his couch.

她喝了一些，接下来她想起的是科斯比在沙发上给她脱衣服。

She told him she had a yeast infection, hoping to fend him off.

她告诉他她患有酵母菌感染，希望能阻止他。

Cosby grabbed her head and forced her to perform oral sex on him.

科斯比抓住她的头，强迫她为他口交。

Back in New York, Tarshis got a phone call from Cosby, inviting her to his show on Long Island.

回到纽约后，塔希斯接到科斯比的电话，邀请她参加他在长岛的演出。

Her mother answered the phone, and Tarshis didn't want to explain to her mother why she was reluctant to attend.

她的母亲接了电话，塔西斯不想向母亲解释为什么她不愿意参加。

She had a drink or two at his New York City hotel.

她在他位于纽约的酒店喝了一两杯。

Before she left, she saw vials of pills in a man’s shaving kit.

离开之前，她在男士剃须套件中看到了几瓶药片。

They went to the show.

他们去看演出了。

"It hit me like a sledgehammer," she says.

“它像大锤一样击中了我，”她说。

She felt like she was about to pass out, and she had the driver take her back to the limo.

她感觉自己快要昏倒了，于是让司机把她送回豪华轿车。

The next thing she remembers is waking up in bed the next morning with Cosby, naked and sore.

她记得的下一件事是第二天早上和科斯比一起在床上醒来，赤身裸体，浑身酸痛。

She came forward in November 2014.

她于2014年11月挺身而出。

"It was really painful, the way he was holding onto my hair.

“他抓住我的头发的方式真的很痛苦。

I couldn't get away.

我无法逃脱。

I never wrote comedy again.” “I couldn't put a name to it.

我再也没有写过喜剧。————我无法说出它的名字。

I didn't say accosted .

我没说搭讪。

I didn't know what to call it.

我不知道该怎么称呼它。

The difference between this and somebody else’s rape in the dark alley is that his face would be before me every week on TV.

这和其他人在黑暗小巷里的强奸案的区别在于，他的脸每周都会在电视上出现在我面前。

Every once in a while, my parents saying, ‘Oh, come here, look and see the Bill Cosby Show , or see The Cosby Show .’ People would mention a joke that he said, Wasn't that funny?

每隔一段时间，我的父母就会说：“哦，来这里看看《比尔·科斯比秀》，或者看《科斯比秀》。”人们会提到他说的一个笑话，“这不是很有趣吗？”

All the while my stomach would just be churning, saying, ‘You don't know the man.’”

我的胃一直在翻腾，说：“你不认识这个人。”

Shapiro worked at a doughnut shop in Santa Monica.

夏皮罗在圣莫尼卡的一家甜甜圈店工作。

Around 5 a.m.

凌晨 5 点左右

on a November morning, a gold car pulled up to the shop.

十一月的一个早晨，一辆金车停在商店前。

Bill Cosby got out, came to the window, and ordered dozens of doughnuts.

比尔·科斯比下了车，来到窗前，点了几十个甜甜圈。

He invited Shapiro and her boss to the set of Mother, Jugs & Speed .

他邀请夏皮罗和她的老板来到《母亲、壶与速度》的片场。

Afterward, Cosby invited Shapiro to a dinner party at his house, later that evening.

随后，科斯比邀请夏皮罗参加当天晚上在他家举行的晚宴。

Cosby picked her up and brought her to his rental home.

科斯比接了她并将她带到他的出租屋。

It was just the two of them there.

那里只有他们两个人。

Cosby told her his party had been rescheduled, and asked if she’d like to go to Hugh Hefner’s mansion instead.

科斯比告诉她，他的聚会已重新安排，并询问她是否愿意去休·海夫纳的豪宅。

They drove past the mansion and went to a small house full of games: pinball machines, a pool table.

他们开车经过豪宅，来到一间摆满游戏的小房子：弹球机、台球桌。

Cosby challenged Shapiro to a few pinball games, and then to a competition: whoever lost the next game would need to swallow a small pill.

科斯比向夏皮罗挑战了几场弹球游戏，然后进行了一场比赛：无论谁输了下一场比赛，都需要吞下一颗小药丸。

After Shapiro took the pill, she passed out.

夏皮罗服药后，她昏倒了。

She woke up in bed, naked, with Cosby inside her.

她在床上醒来，赤身裸体，科斯比在她体内。

Cosby took her back to his home, and then had his driver drop off Shapiro at her home.

科斯比把她带回了他的家，然后让他的司机把夏皮罗送到她家。

She came forward in March 2015.

她于2015年3月挺身而出。

“I learned that no matter what a person projects, especially a celebrity, it’s not necessarily a reflection of their true personality.”

“我了解到，无论一个人（尤其是名人）表现出什么，都不一定反映他们的真实个性。”

Emmons managed a comedy club and became friends with Cosby.

埃蒙斯管理着一个喜剧俱乐部，并与科斯比成为了朋友。

They had known each other for about two-and-a-half years when Emmons and her friend went out to a club with Cosby and one of his friends.

当埃蒙斯和她的朋友与科斯比和他的一个朋友一起出去一家具乐部时，他们已经认识大约两年半了。

Emmons had a headache and she asked Cosby for a Tylenol.

埃蒙斯感到头疼，她向科斯比要了泰诺。

He told her he had something stronger.

他告诉她他有更强大的东西。

Emmons took the pill and woke up in bed, naked, with Cosby’s friend.

埃蒙斯服了药，然后在床上醒来，赤身裸体，和科斯比的朋友在一起。

She doesn’t remember the night.

她不记得那个夜晚。

“I did not say Bill did me,” Emmons says.

“我没有说比尔干了我，”埃蒙斯说。

“I don’t know what he did to me.

——我不知道他对我做了什么。

His friend did it.” She came forward in November 2014 because she wanted people to know the name of the drug he used on women: Quaaludes.

他的朋友做到了。– 2014 年 11 月，她挺身而出，因为她希望人们知道他对女性使用的药物名称：安眠药。

“He wanted to show me his top dresser drawer where he kept all the drugs, if I ever wanted to do any.

——如果我想做的话，他想让我看看他最衣柜里放着所有药物的抽屉。

I said, ‘Bill, I don’t do drugs.’ He kept it there for his friends.

我说，“比尔，我不吸毒。”他把它放在那里给他的朋友们。

He was clean.

他很干净。

He gave it to the women that he was doing.

他把它交给了他正在做的女人。

I never knew what he did to women about raping them.

我从来不知道他对女性做了什么强奸她们的事情。

How could I?

我怎么能呢？

He’s not going to rape someone in front of me.”

他不会在我面前强奸别人。”

“All I remember is taking the pill; I don’t remember going to bed.

– 我只记得服药；我不记得去睡觉了。

But I do remember waking up in a fog and opening my eyes, and I had no clothes on, and I had clothes on when I took the pill.

但我确实记得在雾中醒来，睁开眼睛，我没有穿衣服，而我服药时却穿着衣服。

I had no clothes on, and there was Bill’s friend, totally naked in bed with me.

我没穿衣服，而比尔的朋友则赤身裸体地和我躺在床上。

I didn’t share my room with him, so he came in there.

我没有和他共用房间，所以他进来了。

I don’t know how, or what happened.

我不知道怎么发生的，也不知道发生了什么。

I looked at him, and he looked at me, and he started to laugh and smile, and he said, ‘Oh, did you have a good time?’ I said, ‘What the fuck happened?

我看着他，他也看着我，然后他开始大笑起来，他说，“哦，你玩得开心吗？”我说，“他妈的到底发生了什么？”

Do you always F a dead person?’ Because that’s what I was.

你总是死人吗？因为我就是这样的人。

I was a dead person at that time.

那时我已经是一个死人了。

He didn’t say anything, I grabbed my blanket and went and took a shower.

他什么也没说，我抓起毯子去洗澡。

I got my clothes on.

我穿上衣服了。

Bill said, ‘Where are you going?’ I said, ‘I’m leaving.’ I said, ‘What the F did you give me?’ He said, ‘Oh, you had a bad headache.

比尔说：“你要去哪里？”我说：“我要走了。”我说：“你到底给了我什么？”他说：“哦，你头疼得厉害。”

You were in so much pain.

你当时非常痛苦。

I gave you a Quaalude.’”

我给了你安眠药。”

Neal worked as a massage therapist in a health club that Cosby often visited.

尼尔在科斯比经常光顾的一家健身俱乐部担任按摩治疗师。

He kept asking her to come to his show, and they set a date and planned to have dinner.

他一直邀请她来参加他的演出，他们约定了日期并计划共进晚餐。

Cosby had been complaining about his sore back and shoulder, so she agreed to help stretch him out after the show.

科斯比一直抱怨他的背部和肩膀酸痛，所以她同意在演出结束后帮助他伸展身体。

She went to the show and to dinner — but only Cosby ate.

她去看演出并去吃晚饭，但只有科斯比吃饭。

He ordered her a shot of Stoli and told her to drink it, which she did.

他给她点了一杯斯托利啤酒，并让她喝下去，她照做了。

After that, she felt disoriented and was having trouble walking.

之后，她感到迷失方向，行走困难。

Cosby led her from the restaurant back to his dressing room.

科斯比领着她从餐厅回到他的更衣室。

She sat down and he began pulling down her pants.

她坐下来，他开始脱下她的裤子。

Then he had sex with her after she told him to stop.

在她告诉他停止后，他与她发生了性关系。

“I never saw him again in the health club or anywhere else.” Neal came out publicly in January 2015.

“我再也没有在健身俱乐部或其他任何地方见过他。”尼尔于 2015 年 1 月公开出柜。

“I felt helpless and I couldn't stop him.

——我感到无助，我无法阻止他。

He told me to calm down, he wasn't going to hurt me .

他告诉我要冷静，他不会伤害我。

And then he started having sex with me, and was talking about how an orgasm is like a thermostat, building pressure.

然后他开始和我发生性关系，并谈论性高潮如何像恒温器一样，建立压力。

Then it was over.

然后就结束了。

He rushed me out of his room and told me to call him the next time he was in town.”

他把我赶出了他的房间，并让我下次他进城时给他打电话。”

“I went online one morning, just to check my email.

“一天早上我上网，只是为了查看我的电子邮件。

The Yahoo page came up, and there was something about Cosby, this thing with Hannibal Buress.

雅虎页面出现了，上面有一些关于科斯比的事情，还有汉尼拔·布雷斯的事情。

And all of a sudden, something just hit me.

突然间，有什么东西击中了我。

Anger.

愤怒。

Son of a bitch!

王八蛋！

You know, a woman can be not believed for 30 years.

要知道，一个女人三十年都不能被人相信。

But it takes one man?

但这需要一个人吗？

To make a joke about it?

是为了开个玩笑吗？

That fucking pissed me off so bad.

这他妈的让我非常生气。

Suddenly I’m thinking, Who do I contact?” — Victoria Valentino

突然我在想，我该联系谁？” — 维多利亚·瓦伦蒂诺

“I have a friend who is a detective for a police department.

“我有一个朋友，他是警察局的侦探。

She’s the one who pushed me to file a report.

她是促使我提交报告的人。

My husband was like, ‘ No, I don’t want anybody to know, we don’t want to expose you, I don’t want people saying bad things.

我丈夫说，‘不，我不想让任何人知道，我们不想暴露你，我不想让人们说坏话。

’ But my friend said, ‘You gotta do it for you.’†” — Lise-Lotte Lublin

’但我的朋友说，‘你必须为自己做这件事。’” — Lise-Lotte Lublin

“ I saw that there were a lot of negative responses being posted against Barbara Bowman and Joan Tarshis and Tamara Green and Andrea Constand , grouping them in a historical reference to claims that “white women” have made in the past, that weren’t truthful, about being raped by a black man.

“我看到有很多针对芭芭拉·鲍曼（Barbara Bowman）、琼·塔希斯（Joan Tarshis）、塔玛拉·格林（Tamara Green）和安德里亚·康斯坦德（Andrea Constand）的负面回应，将她们归入历史参考文献中，引用“白人妇女”过去关于被黑人强奸的说法，但这些说法并不真实。

But unfortunately with this case, I knew that there was a very strong possibility that these women were telling the truth, because I had had my own negative experience with Bill Cosby.

但不幸的是，在这个案例中，我知道这些女性很有可能说的是实话，因为我自己也有过与比尔科斯比的负面经历。

And so I just felt like, No, this can’t go in that direction.

所以我只是觉得，不，这不能朝那个方向发展。

”— Jewel Allison

”——朱厄尔·艾莉森

Occupation: former Playboy bunny, musician, actress, registered nurse

职业：前花花公子兔子、音乐家、演员、注册护士

Valentino was dining with her roommate at their usual joint, Café Figaro, where Cosby happened to be part owner.

瓦伦蒂诺和她的室友在他们常去的费加罗咖啡馆吃饭，科斯比碰巧是那里的合伙人。

He knew that Valentino’s 6-year-old son had recently died, and he told Valentino’s friend that he thought she could use some cheering up.

他知道瓦伦蒂诺 6 岁的儿子最近去世了，他告诉瓦伦蒂诺的朋友，他认为她需要一些鼓励。

Cosby offered to take them to the steam baths and then out.

科斯比提出带他们去蒸汽浴室，然后出去。

They accepted the invitation and met Cosby for dinner.

他们接受了邀请并与科斯比共进晚餐。

“I was just sitting there, letting them talk,” Valentino says.

“我只是坐在那里，让他们说话，”瓦伦蒂诺说。

“I was sitting there looking glum, not participating.” Cosby reached across the table and put a pill next to Valentino’s wine glass, and he told her to take it.

“我坐在那里，表情闷闷不乐，没有参与其中。”科斯比把手伸到桌子对面，把一颗药丸放在瓦伦蒂诺的酒杯旁边，然后他让她服用。

It would make her feel better , he said.

他说，这会让她感觉好一些。

She swallowed the pill, and later another one.

她吞下了药丸，随后又吞下了一颗。

Cosby also pushed two pills on Valentino’s friend.

科斯比还给瓦伦蒂诺的朋友塞了两片药。

Valentino began to feel sick and asked to go home.

瓦伦蒂诺开始感到不舒服，要求回家。

Cosby said he would drive them, but they both ended up back at his apartment.

科斯比说他会开车送他们，但他们最终都回到了他的公寓。

Valentino passed out.

瓦伦蒂诺昏倒了。

When she awoke, she saw her friend passed out on a couch, Cosby above her.

当她醒来时，她看到她的朋友昏倒在沙发上，科斯比在她上方。

“I mean, you could read what was on his mind while he was looking at her,” Valentino says.

“我的意思是，当他看着她时，你可以读懂他在想什么，”瓦伦蒂诺说。

“He was like a hawk, like a vulture.” Valentino tried to fight him off her friend.

“他就像一只鹰，就像一只秃鹫。”瓦伦蒂诺试图把他从她的朋友身边击退。

Cosby came after Valentino instead.

科斯比则追随瓦伦蒂诺。

She came forward in 2014.

她于2014年挺身而出。

“I could hear the words in my head, but I couldn't form words with my mouth because I was so drugged out.

——我可以在脑海中听到这些话，但我无法用嘴说出话来，因为我已经被麻醉了。

I kept reaching for her and he just ignored me.

我一直向她伸出手，但他只是无视我。

Then he started getting this annoyed look on his face.

然后他的脸上开始出现这种恼怒的表情。

I kept at it.

我一直坚持下去。

Finally he got up and came over.

最后他站起来走了过来。

He sat down and unzipped his fly and had me give him oral sex.

他坐下来，拉开门襟拉链，让我给他口交。

He stood up, turned me over, did me doggy style, and walked out.

他站起来，把我翻了个身，给我做了后入式，然后走了出去。

Just as he got to the door, I was going, ‘How do we get out of here, how do we get home?’ He said, ‘Call a cab.’”

当他走到门口时，我正想问，“我们怎么离开这里，怎么回家？”他说，“叫一辆出租车。”

“The part of it I wasn’t prepared for was the onslaught of women that have been assaulted and them telling me their story because I told mine.” — Beverly Johnson

“我没有做好准备的部分是，遭到袭击的女性的猛烈攻击，她们告诉我她们的故事，因为我讲述了我的故事。” — 贝弗利·约翰逊

“I started getting private messages on Facebook from other former Bunnies: ‘ He did me too, PJ.

“我开始在 Facebook 上收到其他前兔子的私信：‘他也对我做了，PJ。

He got me too.

他也得到了我。

’ There’s a couple of websites — ‘We believe the women’ — and Cosby sites that we all created.

’有几个网站——‘我们相信女性’——以及我们大家创建的科斯比网站。

And we talk, all the survivors .

我们交谈，所有幸存者。

We just had the photo shoot.

我们刚刚拍了照片。

And I said it was one of the greatest experiences I ever had.

我说这是我经历过的最伟大的经历之一。

It was fun.

很有趣。

We had great music, great food, we were all dancing and laughing, and yet in L.A., the L.A.

我们有美妙的音乐，美味的食物，我们都在跳舞和欢笑，但在洛杉矶，洛杉矶。

group said it was so somber, and everybody was upset.

小组说，气氛太阴郁了，每个人都很沮丧。

And I said, ‘What, are you kidding?

我说，‘什么，你在开玩笑吗？

We were celebrating here in New York, baby.’ Our freedom, our freedom!

我们在纽约这里庆祝，宝贝。’我们的自由，我们的自由！

Nothing macabre about that.

这没什么可怕的。

We’re out.” — PJ Masten

我们出去了。” — PJ 马斯滕

Cosby was in New York City filming the Cosby Show , and asked through Allison’s agent to meet with her.

科斯比当时正在纽约拍摄《科斯比秀》，并通过艾莉森的经纪人要求与她见面。

He invited her to his New York City brownstone for dinner, but Allison was the only guest.

他邀请她到他在纽约市的上流社会共进晚餐，但艾莉森是唯一的客人。

He offered her a glass of wine.

他给她倒了一杯酒。

Allison took a few sips.

艾莉森喝了几口。

She started to feel sick.

她开始感觉不舒服。

She remembers Cosby helping her up, and seeing semen.

她记得科斯比帮助她站起来，并看到了精液。

She became nauseous and ill, and Cosby escorted her to a taxi and sent her home.

她感到恶心并且生病了，科斯比护送她上了出租车并送她回家。

“I told my closest girlfriend.

——我告诉了我最亲密的女朋友。

That was the first person I told.

这是我告诉的第一个人。

I told family members.

我告诉家人。

I told friends.

我告诉朋友们。

Maybe about 10 years later or so, I ran into a former model who was with my agency and we compared notes.

大约十年后，我遇到了一位在我的经纪公司工作的前模特，我们交换了意见。

We started talking about him and she had an incident also, which I can’t talk about because she still hasn’t come forward.

我们开始谈论他，她也发生了一件事情，我不能谈论这件事，因为她还没有站出来。

I told her then she should never tell anybody.

我告诉她，她永远不应该告诉任何人。

I was trying to protect her.

我试图保护她。

I had a few moments where I tried to come forward.

有几次我试图挺身而出。

I’ve picked up the phone more than once over the course of two decades.

二十年来，我不止一次拿起电话。

This is before the women started coming forward in large numbers.

这是在妇女开始大量挺身而出之前。

But I was just too scared, and I also had the extra burden of not really wanting to take an African-American man down.

但我太害怕了，而且我还有额外的负担，因为我不想打倒一个非裔美国人。

I’ve always been very closely involved in the black community.

我一直非常密切地参与黑人社区的活动。

And for me to come forward and basically destroy this very positive image of, as few as we have, of African-American men in America, it was just too difficult to do at that time.

对于我来说，要挺身而出，从根本上摧毁美国非裔美国人的这种非常积极的形象（尽管我们所拥有的很少），这在当时是很难做到的。

”

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23-year-old Lotte-Lublin met Cosby through her modeling agency.

23 岁的 Lotte-Lublin 通过她的模特经纪公司认识了 Cosby。

She was alone with him in his Las Vegas suite, she thought, to audition for him.

她想，她和他单独在拉斯维加斯的套房里为他试镜。

He handed her a shot.

他递给她一枪。

She declined at first, but eventually relented.

她一开始拒绝了，但最终还是妥协了。

He served her another round.

他又为她服务了一轮。

Then the drinks hit her.

然后饮料就袭击了她。

Her last memory is sitting on an end table, Cosby straddling her and stroking her hair, followed by flashes of unfamiliar areas of the hotel suite.

她最后的记忆是坐在茶几上，科斯比跨坐在她身上，抚摸着她的头发，随后闪现出酒店套房中陌生的区域。

She doesn’t remember how she got home.

她不记得自己是怎么回家的。

She came forward in February, and fought to change Nevada’s statute of limitations on rape from 4 years to 20.

她在二月份挺身而出，争取将内华达州强奸时效从 4 年改为 20 年。

The law takes effect on October 1.

该法律于 10 月 1 日生效。

“I was unaware of what Cosby had done until 25 years later.

——直到 25 年后我才知道科斯比做了什么。

That should have protected me.

那应该可以保护我。

If a doctor performs surgery on you and leaves a sponge in your body, and then you have detrimental stuff 25 years later and somebody opens you up and finds the sponge, you didn't know it existed.

如果医生对你进行手术，并在你的体内留下了一块海绵，然后 25 年后你体内就有有害物质，而有人对你进行剖腹手术并发现了海绵，你并不知道它的存在。

They exposed it.

他们曝光了它。

And that’s what happened in my situation.”

这就是我遇到的情况。”

Ladd met Cosby while working for a film producer in New York City.

拉德在纽约为一位电影制片人工作时认识了科斯比。

They became friends and would hang out at her apartment or watch television together.

他们成了朋友，经常在她的公寓里闲逛或一起看电视。

One day, they had plans to go to a movie, but Cosby wanted to meet her at his friend’s apartment first.

有一天，他们计划去看电影，但科斯比想先在他朋友的公寓见她。

Ladd told Cosby she had a headache, and he offered her some pills that he called a “miracle cure.” She questioned him, but Cosby told her to trust him.

拉德告诉科斯比她头痛，并给了她一些他称之为“灵丹妙药”的药片。她质疑他，但科斯比告诉她要相信他。

She took the pill.

她服下了药丸。

Ladd has few memories from the night, but she remembers waking up naked in bed.

拉德对那晚的记忆很少，但她记得自己在床上赤身裸体地醒来。

A mirror hung above her on the ceiling.

她上方的天花板上挂着一面镜子。

Cosby wore a terry-cloth bathrobe.

科斯比穿着一件毛圈布浴袍。

She gathered her things, made small talk, and left.

她收拾了东西，闲聊了几句，就离开了。

She told her roommate, but kept the incident secret for 36 years.

她告诉了室友，但将这件事保密了36年。

She wrote about the incident publicly in January 2015.

她于 2015 年 1 月公开撰写了有关该事件的文章。

“ The Cosby Show was watched in my house.

– 《科斯比秀》是在我家观看的。

My daughter liked it; my husband liked it.

我女儿喜欢它；我丈夫喜欢它。

I would look at it and think, ‘He did that to me.’

我会看着它并想，“他对我做了那样的事。”

“My daughter had her own experience of being raped when she was 15.

——我女儿 15 岁时就有过被强奸的经历。

She was very proud of me when I came forward.

当我挺身而出时，她为我感到非常自豪。

I hadn’t told her about my Cosby experience until I wrote the piece.

在我写这篇文章之前，我没有告诉她我的科斯比经历。

She’s so open and vocal about that subject.

她对这个话题非常开放和直言不讳。

There’s much more of an awareness now.

现在人们的意识有了更多的提高。

Date rape, in my day, there wasn’t such a thing.

约会强奸，在我那个时代，还没有这样的事情。

There was no word for it.”

没有任何说法。”

Occupation: former model and former law-enforcement official

职业：前模特和前执法官员

Gumpel had a small guest role on an episode of The Cosby Show .

冈佩尔在《科斯比秀》的一集中客串了一个小角色。

She was invited back to the set for what she thought was an audition for another part on the show.

她被邀请回到剧组参加她认为是剧中另一个角色的试镜。

Instead, she was sent to Cosby’s dressing room.

相反，她被送到科斯比的更衣室。

The comedian opened the door in a bathrobe and offered her a drink.

喜剧演员穿着浴袍打开门，给她倒了一杯饮料。

She rejected his advances.

她拒绝了他的示好。

She came forward in February 2015.

她于2015年2月挺身而出。

“It was never a secret.

——这从来都不是秘密。

I told people.

我告诉人们。

I even told a big columnist, a gossip columnist, but to tell you the truth, at that time, no one wanted to attack Bill Cosby.

我什至告诉过一位大专栏作家，一位八卦专栏作家，但说实话，当时没有人想攻击比尔科斯比。

He was the No. 1 comedian in the world.

他是世界第一喜剧演员。

He was a massive money-maker, and who would believe someone with no power — a woman with no power?”

他是一个能赚钱的人，谁会相信一个没有权力的人——一个没有权力的女人？

McKee toured with Sammy Davis Jr., whom she dated, and McKee got to know some of Davis’s friends.

麦基与她约会过的小萨米·戴维斯一起巡演，麦基认识了戴维斯的一些朋友。

McKee had known Cosby for eight years when, after a Detroit show, the comedian invited her back to his hotel room.

麦基认识科斯比八年了，在底特律的一场演出结束后，这位喜剧演员邀请她回到他的酒店房间。

Cosby opened the door, spun her around, and penetrated her.

科斯比打开门，将她转过身，然后插入了她。

She came forward in 2014.

她于2014年挺身而出。

“I managed to get over to the guest bathroom.

——我设法到达客用浴室。

I tried to figure out what was happening, what had happened.

我试图弄清楚发生了什么，发生了什么。

I was really very confused and shocked and mixed up.

我真的非常困惑、震惊和困惑。

It happened so fast.

事情发生得太快了。

Bill had been a friend.

比尔曾经是一个朋友。

I had worked with him.

我曾和他一起工作过。

I had known him for many, many years.

我认识他很多很多年了。

He never made a pass at me.

他从来没有对我做过任何事。

So when this happened to me, I just couldn't understand what was wrong with him.

所以当这件事发生在我身上时，我就是不明白他出了什么问题。

Had he lost his mind?

他失去理智了吗？

Was he on drugs?

他吸毒了吗？

What the heck was going on?

到底发生了什么事？

I'm thinking maybe I'll just slip out the front door and go.

我想也许我可以从前门溜出去。

Well, he was standing, completely dressed now, and ready to walk out the door.

好吧，他站着，现在已经穿好衣服，准备走出门了。

[He] said to me, ‘Okay, come on, let's go.

[他]对我说：“好吧，走吧，我们走吧。”

They're waiting for us.’ I don't even think I spoke.

他们正在等我们。”我什至认为我没有说话。

I just walked.

我刚刚走过去。

He opened the door to the suite, and I walked right on out there, and went to the elevator and pressed the button.

他打开了套房的门，我径直走出去，走到电梯旁，按下了按钮。

He’s not talking to me.

他没有跟我说话。

He was behaving like a person that I had never met before in my life.”

他的举止就像一个我一生中从未见过的人。”

“Listen, he was America’s favorite dad.

“听着，他是美国人最喜欢的爸爸。

I went into this thinking he was going to be my dad.

我一开始就以为他会成为我的父亲。

To wake up half-dressed and raped by the man that said he was going to love me like a father?

醒来时衣不蔽体，被那个说他会像父亲一样爱我的男人强奸？

That’s pretty sick.

那真是太恶心了。

It was hard for America to digest when this came out.

此消息传出后，美国一时难以消化。

And a lot of backlash and a lot denial and a lot of anger.” — Barbara Bowman

还有很多强烈反对、很多否认和很多愤怒。” — 芭芭拉·鲍曼

“I think his legacy is going to be similar to O.J.’s legacy.

“我认为他的遗产将与 O.J. 的遗产相似。

When you hear O.††J.

当您听到 O. – – J.

Simpson’s name, you don’t think, Oh, great football player.

辛普森的名字，你不会想，哦，伟大的足球运动员。

That doesn’t come to mind first.

首先我不会想到这一点。

I’m thinking it’s not going to be, Oh, great comedian.

我想这不会是，哦，伟大的喜剧演员。

It’s going to be, Oh, serial rapist .

这将是，哦，连环强奸犯。

And that will be our legacy.” —Joan Tarshis

这将成为我们的遗产。” ——琼·塔西斯

Correction: The article originally mischaracterized a 2006 People report on Cosby’s accusers.

更正：这篇文章最初错误地描述了 2006 年《人物》杂志关于科斯比指控者的报道。

*This article appears in the July 27, 2015 issue of New York Magazine.

*本文发表于 2015 年 7 月 27 日的《纽约杂志》。