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One of my earliest memories is of a burned-down Wendy's.
我最早的记忆之一是被烧毁的温迪店。
My dad was a regional manager and had to take me because through some confluence of parental circumstances he ended up a.) alone with me without my mom around, and b.) because a restaurant burned down at four in the morning, and he had to go look at it.
我父亲是一名区域经理，他不得不带我去，因为由于父母的一些情况，他最终 a.) 独自和我在一起，没有妈妈在身边，b.) 因为一家餐馆在凌晨四点被烧毁，他不得不去看看。
Why he had to go look at it, I don't know.
我不知道他为什么要去看它。
He didn't need to double-check it.
他不需要再三确认。
It was very, very burnt down, just like the fire department said it was.
就像消防部门所说的那样，它被烧得非常非常严重。
This is my roundabout way of saying that my dad worked at Wendy's.
这是我迂回地说我爸爸在温迪工作的方式。
He worked there when I was born, and when I was small enough to be photographed wearing a Wendy's hat and sleeping in his lap, and for a few years after that, too.
当我出生时，他就在那里工作，当我还很小，可以拍到我戴着温迪帽子睡在他腿上时，以及此后的几年里，他都在那里工作。
He's asleep in most of those photos.
大多数照片中他都在睡觉。
I don't remember what he made or what we drove or how much the rent was, because kids don't remember those things, and that's probably a good thing.
我不记得他赚了什么，我们开什么车，或者房租是多少，因为孩子们不记得这些事情，这可能是一件好事。
My mom would tell me about weeks when she had fifteen bucks for groceries, and had to make it work.
我妈妈会告诉我，有几个星期，她有十五块钱买杂货，而且必须努力工作。
I was conceived through the pill and thrown into the lap of an 18 year old and 19 year old.
我是通过避孕药怀上的，然后被扔到了一个 18 岁和 19 岁的女孩的腿上。
There was no backup, no help on the way, and nothing on the horizon but time and bills.
没有后援，路上没有任何帮助，除了时间和账单之外什么也没有。
We were broke.
我们破产了。
Hi, this is college football, America's second most popular sport and the only league that does not pay its players a living wage.
嗨，这是大学橄榄球，美国第二受欢迎的运动，也是唯一一个不向球员支付生活工资的联盟。
Instead, the players are given credits at an institution of learning, and some cash for expenses along the way.
相反，玩家会在学习机构获得学分，并获得一些现金以支付一路上的费用。
Once they sign with these institutions, leaving them to play elsewhere is difficult -- this, despite other attendees of those institutions having free reign to transfer between schools as they like.
一旦他们与这些机构签约，让他们去其他地方打球就很困难——尽管这些机构的其他参与者可以自由地在他们喜欢的学校之间转学。
The agreement can be year-to-year, or it can run for a term of four years, but this depends primarily on attending classes and getting along with your coach.
该协议可以是每年的，也可以为期四年，但这主要取决于参加课程以及与教练的相处。
At the end of that term, that player might have helped make the university a lot of money.
在那个学期结束时，这名球员可能会帮助大学赚很多钱。
The University of Texas athletic department, the nation's most profitable program in 2014, earned $74 million in profit.
德克萨斯大学体育系是 2014 年全美最赚钱的项目，利润达 7400 万美元。
The profits came from television money (the team has its own cable network, which constantly features players), memorabilia and jerseys and other branded merchandise (which the players do not see a dollar from), and the sale of tickets to games.
利润来自电视转播费（球队有自己的有线电视网络，不断播放球员的节目）、纪念品、球衣和其他品牌商品（球员们从这些商品中得不到一美元），以及比赛门票的销售。
The main driver behind all of this is, for the most part, football.
所有这一切背后的主要驱动力在很大程度上是足球。
For their efforts, players have few guarantees.
对于他们的努力，球员们没有什么保证。
They can be placed on a medical scholarship, outright cut for lack of performance, depending on the school.
他们可以获得医疗奖学金，但由于表现不佳而被直接削减，具体取决于学校。
They can be told that they will be a quarterback, only to show up at camp and be given a defensive playbook and a safety's gear.
他们可以被告知，他们将成为一名四分卫，只是为了出现在营地并获得防守战术手册和安全装备。
The practice schedule for football often restricts what classes they may take, thus limiting their majors (if they're interested in getting a degree, that is.) Players there strictly for football gravitate towards easier majors sometimes openly designated as academic holding pens for football cattle in between drives to the practice field and back.
足球的训练日程经常限制他们可以参加的课程，从而限制了他们的专业（也就是说，如果他们有兴趣获得学位的话）。那里的球员纯粹是为了足球而倾向于更容易的专业，有时公开指定为在往返训练场之间的足球牛的学术围栏。
There may be some benefits to the job not mentioned in the brochure, sure.
当然，这份工作可能还有一些手册中没有提到的好处。
Cash has a way of finding pockets, either via the golden handshake from a booster's middleman or an easy side job or two.
现金有办法找到口袋，要么通过支持者中间人的金握手，要么通过一两份简单的副业。
It is never as much as people think, and usually doled out sparingly, but it's there.
它从来没有人们想象的那么多，而且通常发放得很少，但它确实存在。
Players may get drink specials at bars others don't get, or find themselves privy to a whole host of hookups no one else has.
玩家可能会在其他人得不到的酒吧里得到特价饮品，或者发现自己拥有一大堆其他人没有的勾搭。
In some places, they may have a special status with local law enforcement.
在某些地方，他们可能在当地执法部门中享有特殊地位。
Failing that, they may even get specialized legal counsel when trouble with the law rears its head.
如果做不到这一点，当法律问题出现时，他们甚至可能会得到专门的法律顾问。
Don't judge any of this.
不要评判这些。
I really don't want you to, because this is an anatomy, and anatomies don't have morality.
我真的不想让你这么做，因为这是解剖学，而解剖学没有道德。
They just work in a certain way.
他们只是以某种方式工作。
The part I want you to know about this particular anatomy is what it runs on, and what feeds its muscles and bones and the very mitochondria in its cells: football players, an unending cycle of fresh, healthy, and undestroyed bodies through the system.
我想让你了解这个特殊解剖结构的部分是它的运行基础，以及它的肌肉、骨骼和细胞中线粒体的营养物质：足球运动员，通过系统不断循环的新鲜、健康和未毁坏的身体。
Those bodies are converted in one form or another into money.
这些身体以一种或另一种形式转换成金钱。
My family didn't stay broke.
我的家人并没有破产。
It turns out very few people can work for sustained periods in the fast food business without suffering some kind of grand mal seizure or Deep Fryer Madness.
事实证明，很少有人能够在快餐行业持续工作一段时间而不会遭受某种严重癫痫发作或油炸疯狂。
Employees disappear.
员工消失。
Trucks don't show up.
卡车没有出现。
Things catch on fire all the time: the deep fryers, the grills, customers, employees, the ductwork, whole restaurants.
东西总是着火：油炸锅、烤架、顾客、员工、管道系统、整个餐厅。
The hours are miserable, the pay sucks and the travel between stores for managers was heinous.
工作时间很痛苦，工资很低，经理们在商店之间的旅行也很令人发指。
There are robberies, the stupidest kind in the world where someone decides to shoot a night manager over fifty bucks and orphan a couple of kids in the process.
有抢劫案，这是世界上最愚蠢的抢劫案，有人决定以五十美元以上的价格枪杀一名夜班经理，并在此过程中使几个孩子成为孤儿。
(The thought of my dad dying in an alternate timeline robbery terrified me for much of my childhood, even after he got out of the kind of jobs where he would be there, late at night with cash in his hand nearly alone in a well lit aquarium somewhere in the exurban South.)
（在我童年的大部分时间里，一想到我父亲会死于另一条时间线的抢劫案，我就感到害怕，即使在他辞掉了那种工作之后，他也会在深夜手里拿着现金，几乎独自一人呆在南方远郊某个光线充足的水族馆里。）
My father was one of those rare mutants who could withstand prolonged exposures to the fast-food industry.
我的父亲是能够承受长期接触快餐行业的罕见变种人之一。
I suspect it was his ADD, or the blind panic of having children to feed, but it worked for him.
我怀疑这是他的多动症，或者是因为要喂养孩子而产生的盲目恐慌，但这对他有用。
He got into management.
他进入了管理层。
He grabbed some kind of heating rod over a grill that was approximately eight thousand degrees or so and got a weird scar on his hand.
他在大约八千度左右的烤架上抓起某种加热棒，手上留下了一道奇怪的伤疤。
He got an office and had a bookshelf with Og Mandino books and a Leroy Neiman print of Jack Nicklaus on the wall.
他有一间办公室，书架上摆满了奥格·曼迪诺 (Og Mandino) 的书籍，墙上挂着一幅勒罗伊·内曼 (Leroy Neiman) 的杰克·尼克劳斯 (Jack Nicklaus) 的照片。
I imagine he had to sell people on a system.
我想他必须向人们推销一个系统。
That system was that you worked and followed the grill protocols and the company manual and you did that for next to nothing, wage-wise, in hope that you would one day be the person selling others on this.
那个系统是你工作并遵循烧烤协议和公司手册，你几乎不需要任何报酬，就工资而言，希望有一天你能成为向其他人推销这一点的人。
Then you would be gone from Monday to Friday every week, driving from Nashville to Atlanta, or from Atlanta to Nashville.
然后你会每周一到周五开车从纳什维尔到亚特兰大，或者从亚特兰大到纳什维尔。
He couldn't really turn that off when he got home, either, switching straight from yelling at people to get kitchens to pass health inspection to yelling at us to clean our kitchen, move, get out of the house, to go look at cars we couldn't afford or could barely afford.
当他回到家时，他也无法真正关闭它，直接从对人们大喊大叫让厨房通过健康检查转变为对我们大喊大叫，让我们打扫厨房，搬家，走出家门，去看看我们买不起或几乎买不起的汽车。
He came off the road but never really took his foot off the pedal.
他离开了道路，但从未真正将脚离开踏板。
Sometimes he'd watch a golf tournament and fall asleep on the couch.
有时他会观看一场高尔夫比赛，然后在沙发上睡着。
Otherwise, he was in motion.
否则，他就在运动。
I want to say that I don't remember the strained moments, but I do.
我想说我不记得那些紧张的时刻，但我记得。
I remember the look on my mom's face when my sister, at the age of three, decided to help out and fill up the car at the gas station.
我记得当我妹妹三岁的时候，决定在加油站帮忙给汽车加油时，我妈妈脸上的表情。
The gas station was at our house, the gas pump was the water hose, and the car was a battered used Audi with a gas tank filled with water.
加油站在我们家，加油泵是水管，车是一辆破旧的奥迪车，油箱里装满了水。
I remember asking for things and that flash coming over the faces of my parents, a kind of shift behind the eyes and slackening of the face I confused for anger at my greedy, elementary school-aged self.
我记得我向父母要东西，那一瞬间闪过我父母的脸上，眼睛后面有一种变化，脸上松弛下来，我误以为是对贪婪的小学生自己的愤怒。
It wasn't that.
不是那样的。
It was the look of someone being asked for things that they couldn't immediately provide.
这是某人被要求提供他们无法立即提供的东西的表情。
I remember moving into a house in Georgia and noticing we, for some reason, had adopted a suddenly minimalist approach to interior decorating.
我记得搬进佐治亚州的一所房子时，注意到我们出于某种原因突然采用了极简主义的室内装饰方法。
Years later, my mom would explain the concept of being "house-poor," i.e. where you couldn't afford the furniture to fill up the house you bought, and had to cut other things in your life just to make your mortgage.
多年后，我妈妈解释了“房屋贫困”的概念，即你买不起家具来填满你买的房子，而不得不削减生活中的其他东西来支付抵押贷款。
That house was the case study.
那所房子就是案例研究。
We didn't stay broke, but we didn't stay in money for long.
我们并没有陷入破产，但我们并没有在金钱上停留太久。
After a few years and another kid and a transfer, my dad lost his job.
几年后，又生了一个孩子，又调职，我父亲失业了。
There's a box of stuff he got from it that scuttled around our various houses for a decade or two.
他从中得到的一盒东西在我们各个房子里闲逛了一两年。
There were some operating manuals in three-ring binders, the Leroy Neiman print propped on its side in it, and some chunk of glass carved into a triangular award.
三环活页夹里有一些操作手册，里面有 Leroy Neiman 的印刷品，还有一块玻璃雕刻成三角形的奖章。
The past is full of inscrutable and abandoned corporate awards shed like scales into the cardboard boxes of the laid-off.
过去充满了难以理解和被遗弃的企业奖项，它们像天平一样被扔进下岗人员的纸箱里。
The people who play college football come from all over the country, but a huge chunk of them come from poverty.
参加大学橄榄球比赛的人来自全国各地，但其中很大一部分来自贫困。
This sentence might be redundant: I could have just said they come from America, where taking a random slice of the populace ensures getting a hearty slice of baseline, struggle-level poverty in your sample size.
这句话可能是多余的：我可以说他们来自美国，在美国，随机抽取一部分人口可以确保在你的样本量中获得大量基线、挣扎级别的贫困。
But it bears repeating here for a lot of reasons, the first and foremost being the motivation to play football in the first place for the poorest people in society: money, and the financial salvation of playing in the NFL.
但出于很多原因，这里值得重复，首先也是最重要的是社会上最贫穷的人踢足球的动机：金钱，以及参加 NFL 的经济拯救。
That number is bigger than any rational observer might guess.
这个数字比任何理性观察者可能猜测的都要大。
Fifty-two percent of all incoming freshmen in football believe it is likely that they will make it to the NFL.
52% 的橄榄球新生相信他们有可能进入 NFL。
To be fair, half of all incoming male freshmen probably believe they could put in six months in the weight room, do some light sprint work, and make it into the NFL, or at least hang onto a spot on on the practice squad.
公平地说，一半的新生男新生可能相信他们可以在举重室训练六个月，做一些轻松的短跑训练，然后进入 NFL，或者至少在训练队中保住一席之地。
Athletes don't have a monopoly on charming naïveté.
运动员并没有垄断迷人的天真。
Football players are far from the most blindly optimistic: 75 percent of all incoming college basketball players believe it is likely they will play in the NBA.
橄榄球运动员远非最盲目乐观的人：75% 的即将入学的大学篮球运动员相信他们有可能在 NBA 打球。
The actual number to make it to the NFL is something like 2 percent.
进入 NFL 的实际人数约为 2%。
The remaining 98 percent exist in a system of rules designed to prevent them from making money for anyone but the university.
剩下的 98% 的人都遵守一套规则，旨在防止他们为大学以外的任何人赚钱。
Their own likenesses and rights to sell them transfer to the university on signature of their scholarship agreement.
他们自己的肖像和出售它们的权利在签署奖学金协议后转移给大学。
There are limitations on the kinds of jobs they can get, the hours they can work, and the kinds of businesses they can start while under the terms of their scholarship agreements.
根据奖学金协议的条款，他们可以获得的工作类型、工作时间以及可以创办的企业类型都受到限制。
Discounting the rest of the student body and just focusing on athletes, a full 85 percent of players living on campus live below the federal poverty line .
不考虑其他学生群体，只关注运动员，住在校园的运动员中有 85% 生活在联邦贫困线以下。
Per the United States Census, the average number of off-campus college students living under the federal poverty line was 51 percent .
根据美国人口普查，生活在联邦贫困线以下的校外大学生平均人数为 51%。
College students aren't generally wealthy or in a wealth-building stage of life, sure, but there's more than a little evidence that student-athletes don't just tread water for four years, but instead are made significantly poorer by the experience of participating in amateur athletics.
当然，大学生一般并不富裕，也不处于人生的财富积累阶段，但有不少证据表明，学生运动员不仅会在四年内原地踏步，反而会因参加业余体育运动而变得更加贫穷。
When and if they do receive their degree, it might mean even less in terms of real future dollars than those received by their peers .
当他们真的获得学位时，就未来的实际收入而言，其意义可能比同龄人所获得的还要少。
The networking they might have done with others on campus is restricted by their class schedules and practice; the networking with wealthy alumni that might benefit them in business is explicitly forbidden in many instances, something Princeton's own Michael Lewis points out in The Blind Side.
他们在校园里与其他人建立的联系受到他们的课程安排和练习的限制；普林斯顿大学自己的迈克尔·刘易斯在《弱点》一书中指出，在许多情况下，与富有的校友建立可能使他们在商业上受益的网络是被明确禁止的。
The athlete receives no dividend or funds kept in trust for their well-above-average financial contributions to the university on graduation.
运动员毕业时对大学的财务贡献远高于平均水平，因此不会获得任何股息或信托基金。
By rule they are separated from the income they make, and by system they are separated from the university education they were promised.
按照规定，他们与自己的收入是分开的，按照制度，他们与所承诺的大学教育是分开的。
They are neither amateurs nor professionals, and effectively moved as undeclared contraband through the United States tax system.
它们既不是业余爱好者，也不是专业人士，实际上是作为未申报的违禁品通过美国税收系统流动的。
My parents ran a photo shop for a while.
我的父母经营过一家照相店一段时间。
Like most small businesses, we made little to no money.
像大多数小企业一样，我们赚的钱很少甚至没有。
My mom's battered Toyota station wagon refused to die.
我妈妈那辆破旧的丰田旅行车一直没死。
I suspect debt floated a lot of what we were doing.
我怀疑我们所做的很多事情都导致了债务浮动。
I remember one day going into my parents' bathroom and seeing a note tacked to the mirror listing financial goals for the next year.
我记得有一天我走进父母的浴室，看到镜子上贴着一张纸条，列出了明年的财务目标。
One stood out in all caps: PAY OFF DEBT.
其中一个全部大写字母脱颖而出：PAY OFF DEBT。
It was one of those little things you're not supposed to see as a kid, one of the tethers to the balloon that your parents are fighting like hell to keep lashed to the ground.
这是你小时候不应该看到的小东西之一，是你父母拼尽全力才将气球绑在地上的系绳之一。
And even as a kid, you know you're not supposed to see it, or the tax return on the table that listed the income you could look up at the library the next day.
即使作为一个孩子，你也知道你不应该看到它，或者桌子上的纳税申报表列出了你第二天可以在图书馆查找的收入。
The library said that income was definitely not in the top 50th percentile, or anywhere close to it.
图书馆表示，收入绝对不在前 50 个百分点之内，或接近它。
The library kind of wondered how you didn't notice that you were broke, especially when living in one of the wealthiest counties in the United States.
图书馆有点想知道你怎么没有注意到你破产了，尤其是当你住在美国最富有的县之一时。
The library also wondered why you were checking out Sophie's Choice repeatedly if not for the graphic sex scenes, but sure, it also wondered how you, being an incredibly self-conscious teenager with antenna constantly raised for the faintest slight, weren't aware that you were broke.
图书馆还想知道，如果不是为了生动的性爱场景，为什么你会反复查看《苏菲的选择》，但当然，它也想知道你，作为一个非常自我意识的青少年，为了最轻微的轻微行为而不断竖起天线，怎么没有意识到你已经破产了。
As an adult it's terrifyingly easy to retroactively create that feeling.
作为一个成年人，很容易追溯性地产生这种感觉。
It's the one you live in as a parent, where you wonder how the hell you will feed these people for the next decade and a half, or how you'll afford the things they need.
这是你作为父母生活的地方，你想知道在接下来的十五年里你将如何养活这些人，或者你将如何负担他们需要的东西。
It's the part of you that knows you will have to explain to them that no, they can't have something, and the reason they can't is your inability to give it to them, rationale and economics be damned.
你的那一部分知道你必须向他们解释，不，他们不能拥有某些东西，而他们不能拥有的原因是你无法给他们这些东西，不管理由和经济如何。
It's the part that realizes that your parents were making it up, too, driven by fear, insomnia, and the brute ugliness of economic survival.
这一部分让你意识到，你的父母也是出于恐惧、失眠和经济生存的残酷丑陋而在弥补。
They had to take you along for all of it because they had no choice.
他们不得不带你一起经历这一切，因为他们别无选择。
When they had the choice, they had to sell the photo shop and pile you into a purple Lincoln Town Car and drive down to Florida when Dad got a new job.
当他们有选择的时候，他们不得不卖掉照相店，把你塞进一辆紫色的林肯城市轿车，当爸爸找到新工作时，开车去佛罗里达。
They had to buy a house cheap off a divorcing couple.
他们不得不从一对离婚夫妇那里便宜地买一套房子。
It had stains on the carpet from where neglected dogs had shat and chewed holes in it, a pool, and was painted a shade of yellow everyone else in the neighborhood detested.
地毯上有污渍，是被忽视的狗拉屎和咬洞的地方，还有一个水池，而且被漆成了邻居们都讨厌的黄色。
We bought it cheap because someone else had to do things because they were broke.
我们买得很便宜，因为其他人因为破产而不得不做事。
For a long while -- like, about ten years -- it worked.
在很长一段时间内——比如大约十年——它起作用了。
I left for college.
我去上大学了。
My family moved back to Tennessee and bought things and houses and cars like people who had money.
我的家人搬回田纳西州，像有钱人一样买东西、房子和汽车。
Honestly, that's when they seemed strangest to me, and not just because I'd left home.
老实说，那是他们对我来说最奇怪的时候，不仅仅是因为我离开了家。
They had money, the kind of money that left a BMW in the driveway and that paid college tuition for my brother and maybe seemed like something solid enough to think about an absurd, imaginary word: security.
他们有钱，这些钱可以在车道上留下一辆宝马，也可以为我哥哥支付大学学费，也许看起来足够坚实，足以让人想到一个荒谬的、虚构的词：安全。
I would visit for holidays and not really know what to do with my hands besides drink the expensive liquor I couldn't afford and sit in the leather chair -- Leather!
我会去度假，除了喝我买不起的昂贵酒和坐在皮椅上之外，我真的不知道该怎么办我的手——皮革！
Not naugahyde, but leather, made from luxuriously slaughtered cattle!
不是 naugahyde，而是皮革，由奢华屠宰的牛制成！
-- and then go back to my studio apartment in Atlanta with the styrofoam we'd taped to the windows as makeshift insulation in the winter.
——然后回到我在亚特兰大的单间公寓，用我们贴在窗户上作为冬天临时隔热材料的聚苯乙烯泡沫塑料。
Note: I can't explain what it is, but something in you, once you're convinced of your own brokeness, believes in nothing but that.
注：我无法解释它是什么，但你内心的某些东西，一旦你确信自己的破产，就只相信这一点。
I didn't have a fraction of what real, survival-level, street poverty inflicted on people -- the real physical danger, the effects on health and cognitive development, the lifelong scars -- but I did and always will have the sense of being totally and completely alien from the concept of security, of stability, of deserving anything.
我没有感受到真正的、生存水平的街头贫困对人们造成的影响——真正的身体危险、对健康和认知发展的影响、终生的伤疤——但我确实并且永远会有一种与安全、稳定和应得的概念完全陌生的感觉。
Even a touch of it is toxic.
哪怕是轻轻一碰，也是有毒的。
I still don't swipe an ATM card without being relieved when it goes through.
我仍然不会在刷ATM卡时感到放心。
I didn't buy a decent piece of furniture until this year, and I turn forty next year.
直到今年我才买了一件像样的家具，明年我就四十岁了。
I still panic every time the gas gauge tells me I'm low on gas, because a part of me still wonders whether I have enough money in the bank to fill up my tank.
每当油表告诉我油量不足时，我仍然会感到恐慌，因为我的一部分仍然想知道银行里是否有足够的钱来加满油。
I probably do now -- probably -- but the instinct is still there.
我现在可能会这样做——可能——但本能仍然存在。
It's a fire in your brain that never really goes out, but just has varying, constant degrees of smolder.
它是你大脑中的一团火，永远不会真正熄灭，只是有不同程度的持续阴燃。
It's the bell that never stops going off.
这是永不停歇的钟声。
I'm convinced I'll be working at a Wendy's next week, and have been for most of my adult life.
我确信下周我将在温迪店工作，而且我成年后的大部分时间都是这样。
For a second it felt like my parents might have escaped that, at least for a moment.
有那么一瞬间，我觉得我的父母可能已经逃脱了，至少暂时是这样。
They had stock portfolios and cash reserves and a house with extra bedrooms and cars.
他们有股票投资组合和现金储备，还有一栋带有额外卧室和汽车的房子。
My dad bought a boat.
我爸爸买了一条船。
I should have known at the time that was a bad sign, because buying a boat is never a good idea and is an indicator that something has gone wrong in your life, but still: they were boat-buying people, and not the this-boat-was-originally-your-college-fund kind of boat-buying people.
我当时就应该知道这是一个坏兆头，因为买船从来都不是一个好主意，而且表明你的生活出了问题，但仍然是：他们是买船的人，而不是“这艘船最初是你的大学基金”那种买船的人。
Then their marriage imploded, the recession hit, and the money evaporated in a flash.
然后他们的婚姻破裂了，经济衰退袭来，钱瞬间蒸发了。
We had money, and then we were broke again.
我们有钱，然后我们又破产了。
We never really had it anyway, because that's how this works for almost everyone in the world save a sainted few, and because getting just one inch forward in a shitstorm of continual idiotic human circumstance is nearly impossible.
无论如何，我们从来没有真正拥有过它，因为这对世界上几乎每个人来说都是如此，除了少数圣人，而且因为在持续愚蠢的人类环境的狗屎风暴中前进一英寸几乎是不可能的。
But in summary: we were, for the moment, after all that, all back to where we started.
但总而言之：在经历了这一切之后，我们暂时又回到了起点。
Broke.
坏了。
After a weekend of college football spread out over no fewer than four major cable networks, consider the economics of what you just watched.
在不少于四个主要有线电视网络观看了一个周末的大学橄榄球比赛之后，请考虑一下您刚刚观看的节目的经济效益。
The power-five conferences average a total of $1.1 billion in revenue annually, earned because live sports is literally the only thing people have cable television for anymore.
五强会议平均每年总收入为 11 亿美元，这是因为体育直播实际上是人们唯一能通过有线电视获得的收入。
That total of $1.1 billion equals what is, by huge national measures, a relatively small industry, but it's still $1.1 billion.
从全国范围来看，11 亿美元的总额相当于一个相对较小的行业，但它仍然是 11 亿美元。
Take in the refusal to pay actual market value for players, and that small industry has the unique privilege of raking in gigantic marginal profits in some places.
考虑到拒绝为玩家支付实际市场价值，小行业拥有在某些地方赚取巨额边际利润的独特特权。
Dismiss every single lie about amateurism.
驳斥每一个关于业余主义的谎言。
If they come cloaked in this kind of horseshit, throw them into orbit and hope they die the painful, bloodboiling death they deserve.
如果他们披着这种狗屎的外衣，把他们扔进轨道，希望他们死得痛苦、血腥，这是他们应得的。
You are under no duty to respect an argument because it comes in with the faux-innocent naivete of those who have the luxury of arguing from the dignified repose of Platonic principle.
你没有义务尊重一个论证，因为它是那些有幸从柏拉图原则的尊严休息中进行辩论的人的假装天真的天真而来的。
Oh, but what if we removed the money from amateur athletics?
哦，但是如果我们取消业余田径运动的资金呢？
Close a brothel.
关闭妓院。
Just try it, and see how far that gets you.
尝试一下，看看能走多远。
If someone would like to start a policy argument about a contraband economy with the words, "If we just did what we were supposed to," toss them in the nearest well and seal it.
如果有人想用“如果我们只是做了我们应该做的事情”这样的话来开始一场关于走私经济的政策争论，那么就把它们扔进最近的井里并密封起来。
They understand nothing about humanity and will get someone killed sooner rather than later.
他们对人性一无所知，迟早会害死人。
The materialist argument here is to point to the giant pile of money on one side, and to the people who earn it on the other.
这里的唯物主义论点一方面指向巨额金钱，另一方面指向赚取这些钱的人。
There is no surrender via disengagement, since you quitting the sport as a fan, alum, or even as a booster or donor won't do anything but prolong the artificially extended lifespan of amateurism.
脱离并不意味着投降，因为你作为球迷、校友，甚至作为支持者或捐助者退出这项运动，除了延长人为延长的业余寿命之外，没有任何作用。
There isn't a retreat to a past that never existed, or to an incremental series of slightly less miserable payouts in the form of "cost of attendance" raises.
不会退回到从未存在过的过去，也不会退回到以“出勤成本”提高的形式增加一系列稍微不那么悲惨的支出。
There is money someone earned over here, visibly earned through labor and special talent.
有人在这里赚到钱，显然是通过劳动和特殊才能赚到的。
There are people over here who have it.
这里有人拥有它。
Something stands between them.
他们之间有某种东西。
To extend that point to its logical conclusion: Either what is going on is a vast confusion of what constitutes capital, or it is theft from every single football player that plays this stupid game to enrich a coach, athletic director, and the university.
将这一点延伸到其逻辑结论：要么正在发生的事情是对资本构成的巨大混乱，要么是对每一个玩这种愚蠢游戏的足球运动员的盗窃，以丰富教练、体育总监和大学的财富。
This is a system that willfully commits one of the greatest insults possible: making someone poorer, and then claiming that poverty as a necessary, virtuous and good thing.
这是一个蓄意犯下最大侮辱之一的制度：让某人变得更穷，然后声称贫穷是必要的、美德的和好事。
That's a lie, and anyone who's even been broke for a short time knows it.
这是一个谎言，任何一个哪怕是短暂破产过的人都知道这一点。
Pay them.
付钱给他们。
Pay them what you owe them.
付给他们你欠他们的钱。
Pay them because the worst American tradition is taking things that aren't yours and calling it destiny or virtue or principle.
付钱给他们，因为最糟糕的美国传统就是拿走不属于你的东西，并称之为命运、美德或原则。
Pay them because there is no nobility in keeping someone a dollar poorer than they have to be in exchange for honest work.
付钱给他们，因为让某人比他们的诚实工作少一美元是没有高贵的。
Pay them because any system that deliberately makes people poorer is one of designed cruelty, even at this relatively small scale.
付钱给他们是因为任何故意让人们变得更穷的制度都是一种故意的残忍行为，即使规模相对较小。
Pay them their goddamn money.
付给他们该死的钱。